"Zieg.." Hindi ko na naituloy ang sasabihin ko dahil hinalikan nya na ako ulit.
God, I can't resist him. I put my arms into his nape and pulled him closer. He's jealous! And he just admitted it. God! Parang mas lalo akong ginanahan.
Naramdaman ko na tinaas nya ang laylayan ng dress ko at hinihimas nya ang hita ko. I can feel him growing while he's pressed into my stomach.
His fingers slowly crept in between my legs and the familiar tingling in my spine was there. He rubbed his finger in between my slit. I got wet in seconds.
"Z-zieg.." I moaned in between our kisses.
My knees are starting to weaken because of excitement.
Bumaba ang mga labi nya sa panga ko pababa sa leeg ko.
Hinawi nya ang panty ko and played with my clit directly.
"Oh! Zieg!" Humigpit ang hapit ko sa batok nya. His hot breath fanning my neck.
He kept on rubbing my clit. Tanging pintig ng mga puso namin ang naririnig ko. I feel tense but I love what he was doing. I love what his finger is doing to me.
When his finger teased my entrance, I squirmed.
"Zieg, please.."
"Please what?"
"Ugh! Damn it. Put it in!"
He chuckled.
Napa igik ako nang hindi lang isa kung hindi dalawang daliri nya ang ipinasok nya sa akin. He started fingering me while sucking and kissing the skin of my neck. Gumapang ang mga daliri ko sa buhok nya.
"You smell so nice, Aya." Anas nya.
I am panthing. His fingers are going in and out of my sleek entrance. I am dripping wet.
I bit my lower lip. I'm afraid I'll moan loud. May mga dumadaan na empleyado sa hallway sa likod ng pintuan kung saan ako nakasandal at ayoko na may marinig sila.
I closed my eyes. The familiar knot in my stomach is slowly building. His fingers are stretching me, my walls are clenching at his fingers.
"f**k, Zieg! More."
"I'll give you more." His husky voice sent shiver in my skin as he put another finger in.
"God! Yes!" Ungol ko. I can't help it.
His one hand cupped my breasts. His lips found my lips again and consumed me. I'll never get tired of kissing Zieg, especially while his magic fingers are inside me.
"s**t!" I cursed when I came hard in his hand.
Humihingal na tiningnan ko sya. His other arm snaked on my waist to keep me standing. I felt dizzy. He smiled at me.
"You look so f*****g amazing while coming.." Parang lasing na sabi nya sa akin.
He pulled out his wet hand and put it in his mouth and licked it. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko.
"Zieg!" Nahihiyang bulalas ko.
He smirked. "You taste so damn good."
Inayos nya ang dress ko pati ang buhok ko.
"Zieg about kanina.."
"Go back to the table with Bree. I'll join you in a minute." Nakangiti na sabi nya.
Napalunok ako. "Are you sure? H-hindi ka pa ba uuwi?" I can still feel my world spinning from my orgasm at ayaw ko mawala sa paningin ko ang dahilan noon.
Tumango sya. "Go."
He kissed me before he opened the door and I went. Huminga ako ng malalim bago ako naglakad pabalik sa table. Nandoon pa rin si Craig. Si Bree ang unang nakakita sa akin. Umupo ako ulit sa dati kong kinauupuan.
Luminga ako sa paligid. Dumami na ang mga tao kaysa kanina na umalis kami ni Zieg.
"You're back. Where's Zieg?" Agad na tanong ni Bree.
"Susunod lang daw."
Tumango lang si Bree at makahulugan akong tiningnan but I just took a sip on my wine instead.
"Is he the boyfriend?" Biglang tanong ni Craig at palitan kaming tiningnan ni Bree.
Napakurap ako. Hindi ako handa sa tanong na iyon ni Craig. Hindi ko alam ang isasagot ko.
Bree chuckled. "Not yet."
"Oh." Parang disappointed na sabi ni Craig bago kinuha ang wine glass nya at uminom doon.
Tumingin ako kay Bree at nagkibit balikat lang sya. I don't know what to think to Bree's answer. Not yet? Magiging kami ba ni Zieg? Will there be more than s*x to us?
I like having s*x with the guy, and honestly, he's not really a bad catch. Lawyer, goodlooking, sexy and good in bed, pero ang tanong, gusto nya rin ba ako more than the s*x?
"Hi. Sorry, I had to wash my hands." Mula sa likod ko ay hinila ni Zieg ang upuan sa kabilang side ko at umupo.
I felt the heat curled up in my cheeks and stomach when he said that he needed to wash my hands. I came into his hands, and he really needed to wash it. Sumimsim na lang ako ng wine mula sa baso ko.
Ipinakilala ni Bree si Craig kay Zieg. Hindi na rin nagtagal si Craig dahil kinailangan na nitong bumalik sa table nila kasama ang boss at katrabaho nya.
"Napapadalas ka yata dito, Zieg?" Tanong ni Bree nang maka alis na si Craig.
"Dumadami ang documents na kailangan i notarized." He answered cooly.
His arms extended at the back of my chair. I acted as if I didn't notice but Bree coughed and wickedly looked at me. Pinanlakihan ko lang sya ng mata.
Tumingin ako sa suot kong wrist watch. Quarter to eleven na pala. May kaunting tama na ang wine at inaantok na ako.
"May pupuntahan ka pa ba?"
I looked at Zieg and I felt his hot minty breaths on my cheeks. Hindi ko alam kung kailan sya nakalapit pero ang lapit nya na masyado.
"Uhm, no." Umiling ako.
"I just invited her to have a drink. Craig's boss will be paying the entire tab for tonight." Sagot din ni Bree.
Kapwa kami napatingin sa kanya.
Hindi pa rin ako tinitigilan ni Bree sa makahulugan nyang tingin. Zieg's arm on the other hand still rests at the back of my chair.
"Sumaglit lang ako, nagpapa antok." I said then took a sip on my wine.
Lagpas kalahati na ang nabawas namin mula sa bote and I believe na halos kami lang din ni Bree ang uminom ng karamihan doon.
"Eh ikaw, Attorney Alonzo, hindi ka pa ba uuwi? May inonotarized ka pa ba?" Taas ang kilay na tanong ni Bree.
"I'm done. I'll wait for Ayanna, ihahatid ko sya." He said smiling.
"Ako?" Gulat na sabi ko.
Tumango sya. "Yup. Pwede naman kita ihatid, diba?"
Napalunok ako. This is really unexpected from Zieg. We need to talk about what we are doing.
"O-oo naman."
I looked at Bree and she rolled her eyeballs. "C'mon, umalis na kayo. Babalik na rin naman ako sa pwesto ko." Tumayo si Bree at walang sabi na kinuha ang bote ng wine bago naunang naglakad papunta sa opisina nya.
Napatingin ako kay Zieg pero tumayo na sya at inayos ang gusot ng damit nya. Tumayo na rin ako pero inubos ko muna ang laman ng wine glass ko bago ako nagpahila sa kanya palabas.
"Are you sure okay lang na ihatid mo pa ako? Mapapalayo ka pa." I wasn't being coy. I really think na inconvenient para kay Zieg ang ihatid pa ako. I like the idea, though.
He looked at me with disbelief. "Are you kidding? I want to do this. Besides, hindi pa tayo nakakapag usap. Bigla ka na lang nawala kanina." He opened the car door for me and I went in.
Umikot sya para sumakay sa driver's seat. He reved up the engine and we went.
"Are we going to talk now?" I was playing with my fingers dahil kabado ako.
He looked at me and grin. "Pwede ring sa bahay mo."
My cheeks flushed. s**t.
"Oh. You have a dirty mind, Ayanna." Nakangisi at umiiling na sabi nya bago muling ibinalik ang tingin sa daan.
"O-of course not."
He chuckled. "We'll talk, I promise. And we can do more than talking too, if you like." Pilyo na sabi nya at kumindat.
Hindi na ako sumagot. I can already feel my nerves awakening with the anticipation. I don't know how Zieg can do this to me.
Sabay kaming bumaba sa sasakyan nya. I opened the door of my house for him and I opened the lights when we went in. I wasn't the most organized person in the worl but I take pride of the fact na hindi makalat ang bahay ko.
"Welcome to my crib." Nakangiti na sabi ko.
I put my keys back in my bag at isinabit ang bag ko sa bag hook sa tabi ng pinto. I saw him looked around while his hands are on his pockets.
"Coffee?"
Tumingin sya sa akin, "Yes, please."
"Okay. Upo ka muna." Turo ko sa maliit kong sala.
May hinuhulugan akong condo bukod pa sa pagpapadala ko ng pera sa parents at kapatid ko sa probinsya, pero mas pinili ko na mangupahan na lang din muna dito dahil mas malapit sa Lush, tipid sa oras at pamasahe.
I put the two mugs in the tray and went to the living room. Nakayuko si Zieg at may binabasang text message sa cellphone nya, pero nang maramdaman nya na papalapit na ako ay tinago nya ang cellphone nya.
I gave him his cup.
He took a sip and put it in the table.
"So, what are we going to talk about?" Hindi ako mapakali kaya kahit ayoko ay ako na ang nag open.
"I have a confession to make."
Uh oh. Is he going to confess that this was just a hook up for him? Nawala ang ngiti ko. I cleared my throat.
"I'm listening."
Huminga ng malalim si Zieg bago sinalubong ang tingin ko. I'm trying not to be obvious that I am feeling tense.
"Remember the first time we met? It wasn't a pleasant meeting. And I apologized for it, which you accepted. But I want to explain." He was being so serious at lalo akong kinabahan na ewan.
Our first meeting a few years back was a mess. I went to a VIP room to give a private dance to a client. Ibinilin pa sa akin ni Bree na maging extra sweet ako dahil kailangan ma impress ang 'client' na iyon.
Turned out, it's Ziegfried Alonzo III.
It was when Dolce Maria hired him as their new lawyer and I am supposed to be the 'welcome gift' to him.
Ready na ako na maimpress sya when he just coldly turned me down like I was the ugliest person he had ever seen. He wasn't drunk. Amoy alak sya pero alam ko na matino sya. And it hurt. We exchanged a few ugly words that ended with me slapping him and leaving him at the VIP room.
When I told Bree about it, doon ko lang nalaman na sya pala ang bagong lawyer ng Dolce Maria.
"Alright." Sagot ko sa kanya.
Although I find it hard to understand why would he need to explain. Matagal naman na iyon, and honestly, kahit naiinis pa rin ako tuwing naiisip iyon, a realization hit me.
First time ko makaramdam ng rejection being a private lap dancer, and nagkataon na kay Zieg iyon nanggaling. Maybe it was just the ego.
"The real reason why I didn't want you to give me a lap dance isn't because you're not my type or I don't like the way you dance." His expression softened.
I got interested. So ano pala ang reason?
"The real reason was the opposite. You are exactly my type and the first time that I saw you coming in that night, I actually got an instant hard on."
Napa awang ang labi ko. Hindi ko alam ang sasabihin ko so I just looked at him with a confused look.
He sighed. "Look, I really like you, Ayanna. But that was the first night that I got hired by Dolce Maria to be their lawyer and I can't be involved with you."
Tumaas ang kilay ko. "So you insulted me?"
"Alright, I know I shouldn't have said the things I said. I deserved the slap you gave me. But I want you to be mad at me para ikaw na ang mismong umiwas. I'm sorry."
Hindi ako sumagot. I am processing all of it.
So gusto nya ako matagal na? At sinabi nya lang na hindi nya ako type at ayaw nya sa way ng pagsasayaw ko just for me to get mad at him para ako na ang umiwas?
"Ayanna? Say something please?" His eyes are pleading.
"I don't know if I should commend you for your quick thinking or to laugh at you because you're silly." Naiiling na sabi ko.
He smiled. "Am I forgiven?"
"Matagal na kitang pinatawad sa pang iinsulto mo. But the hard on you had when you saw me? I don't know.." Kunwari ay nag iisip ako.
Nahihiyang tumawa sya. "C'mon. I had to jack off at the private bathroom after I got out."
Tumawa ako. "I can't believe that."
He bit his lower lip. "Stop embarrassing me now."
Kinurot ko ang mga pisngi nya. He looks so cute being shy. He got one of my hand and kissed the back of it while our eyes are connected.
"I'm really happy, Ayanna. I cannot promise you anything as I am fairly new to this thing, but I want you to know that I am not playing around. I really like you." Maya maya ay seryoso na naman na sabi nya.
I smiled. "I like you too, Zieg. And hindi din ako naglalaro."
"I don't know if we should put a label to what we have, but I want you to be exclusive to me and me exclusive to you."
Tumango ako. "Deal."
The last time I had a boyfriend was almost seven years ago while I was still in college. I tried remembering the feeling but it cannot be compared to what I currently feel towards Zieg.
I adore the guy. Hindi lang si Bree at Daena ang naka pansin ng madalas kong pag ngiti kahit walang dahilan, thus what lead me to telling them what Zieg and I talked about. And they are happy for me.
Pabiro rin ako na sinabihan nila Shane na blooming daw ako. I felt giddy. Parang ang gaan talaga sa pakiramdam. Whatever this is, I love feeling it.
Buong lingo na akong sinusundo ni Zieg mula sa Lush at nagdidiner kami sa labas. No s*x for the whole week, but the feeling was amazing. I can tell na ganoon din ang nararamdaman ni Zieg.
But tonight, he told me na ipagluluto nya ako kaya sa bahay nya kami didiretso. Maybe tonight I can already suck him. I have been thinking of sucking him for quite a while now. He got a beautiful c**k, and he knows how to use it.
Okay, I am blushing. Nasa gitna ako ng pagcacashier at ang p*********i ni Zieg ang iniisip ko. What the hell?
Nagpasabay na lang ako magpabili ng kakainin ko for lunch kay Shane, pero kagaya ng dati ay sila ang pinauna kong kumain. Dalawahan silang salitan sa pagkain at pag serve. When they're all done, ako naman ang kakain.
Nagbaon ako ng isang summer dress. I always want to look pretty and desirable when I am with Zieg, at hindi ko naman pwedeng isuot ang summer dress habang naka duty ako dahil hassle.
So I decided to bring the dress, at magpapalit na lang ako bago ako mag sara.
Hindi sinasabi sa akin ni Zieg kung ano ang lulutuin nya pero magugustuhan ko daw. Well, he knows that I like Italian and French foods and cuisine, pero okay lang din kahit simple lang ang lutuin nya. Hindi naman ako mapili at wala akong allergy.
But my excitement turned into disappointment when he texted me na hindi nya ako masusundo dahil sa may emergency daw syang pupuntahan.
Oh well.