That Wild Night

FINALE

“Ma’am, okay na po ‘yung mga cakes. Ihahanda ko na lang po ‘yung mga donuts.” Sabi ni Shane nang sumilip sya sa pintuan ng kitchen.

Ngumiti ako sa kanya at nag thumbs up. Nang pumasok na ulit si Shane ay ibinalik ko ang atensyon ko sa pag-aayos ng mga bulaklak na ilalagay sa center table. My whole staffs are busy baking and cooking in the kitchen. Lush is closed for today for a private event and I want to personally make sure na maayos ang lahat pati na ang mga designs.

The whole place looks like a carnival right now. Napangiti ako nang makita ko na ang kabuoan ng pinagpaguran ko. This is exactly how I want it to be. Tiningnan ko ang suot kong wrist watch. Pasado alas otso na. I have to go home para makapag handa. Alas diyes ay dapat na nasa simbahan na kami.

Nagbilin ako kila Shane at sa iba na aalis na ako at sila na ang bahala dito. I also told them na dapat ay naka handa na ang lahat dahil alas dose ay dito kami lahat didiretso.

I rushed home. Magulo ang bahay, nagkalat ang mga baby bottles at lampin. I rushed through the room. Imbes na ma-stress ay natawa na lang ako sa itsura ni Zieg habang pinapalitan ng diaper si Zaireen. Nakasuot lang ng boxer si Zieg pero mukhang nakaligo naman na sya.

“Hey,” Kita ko na nakahinga ng maluwag si Zieg nang mapansin nya na nakabalik na ako.

“Hindi ka pa tapos dyan? Mag-aalas diyes na.” Malambing na sabi ko. Kinuha ko mula sa kanya ang diaper. Ako na ang nag suot.

“I’m still getting the hang of it, okay?” Naka nguso na sabi nya.

Tumawa lang ako. “Nakaligo ka na? Mag bihis ka na. After this ako naman ang magshoshower.”

“Kaninang tulog si Zai, nakaligo ako. Ginising ko na kasi baka ma late tayo sa simbahan.”

Nang matapos ko nang malagyan ng diaper si Zai ay alam naman na ni Zieg ang gagawin. Pinulbuhan nya at binihisan na. Kagabi ko pa naman hinanda ang lahat ng kakakilanganin naming dalhin sa simbahan.

Doon na lang rin kami magkikita kita nila Mama. Lumuwas sila at sa apartment ko na lang sila pinatulog. Kahit na dito na ako nakatira kay Zieg, I still got my apartment. Hindi pa naman kasi kami nakakapag-usap ng maayos ni Zieg sa magiging arrangement naming dalawa.

Mabilis akong nag shower tapos umalis na kami papunta sa simbahan.

Nakaraos ang binyag. Mabilis naman ang seminar. Before twelve ay nasa Lush na kami for reception. Nakatulog agad si Zai kaya nag stay kami sa office ko. Si Zieg na muna ang nag entertain sa mga bisita.

Bree came in while holding a glass of wine. I rolled my eyeballs and laughed at her.

“Syempre, nandito ang lasengga kong kaibigan.” Sabi ko sa kanya.

“Gaga, manginginom lang, hindi naman ako palaging nalalasing.” Irap nya naman sa akin.

“Shhh!” Saway ko. “Nakita mong bagsak si Zai. Baka magising.” Saway ko sa kanya.

Tinitigan nya si Zai na nasa crib at mahimbing ang tulog. Ako naman ay tutok sa laptop ko. Maano ba naman na may magawa ako habang nagbabantay kay Zai.

I heard Bree sighed, then she sat next to me.

“Oh, ayan na naman ang buntong hininga mo.”

“I’m sorry. It’s just that.. I don’t know what I feel about that baby.”

Tinigil ko ang ginagawa ko at dahan dahan na humarap kay Bree. “We talked about this.”

“I know. And I admire you for being brave to have her.. My mind just can’t still seem to take this.” Nailing na sabi nya.

I looked at Zai. She looks so peaceful and contented. And a part of me wants to always see her like this. Kahit ano pa ang sabihin ng mga tao.

Si Zai ang baby ni Selina at Zieg.

Some people are probably thinking that I am crazy for accepting the child, but her mother’s sin should never be brought upon her. She’s innocent. I cried and got hurt by what her mother did. Aaminin ko rin na noong una, makita ko lang si Zai ay sobrang nasasaktan na ako.

But I became the bigger person.

Three months ago, the police raided a warehouse na ang sabi ay nandoon ang grupo nila Selina. They were there, alright. But they have guns and fire power. Dalawa lang ang naiwan na buhay, everyone else died in the gun fight. They found the baby in a matress on the floor crying.

Zai was only two months. She’s so small, so fragile. Malnourished sya ayon sa doctor. I stayed with her in the hospital. Alam ng lahat na si Zieg ang biological father ni Zai. When Zieg became better with therapy, he opened up to his parents and our friends what happened and the positive support he got made a huge difference.

So when they found the baby, we all knew.

Zieg doesn’t even want to see the baby at first. Ramdam ko na nasasaktan sya. It reminded him of how they raped him. Of how painful it was.

But we talked.

I told him the idea that I wanted to adopt the baby.

Noong una ay against si Zieg. I can understand that. But I told him na anak nya pa rin ang bata, at hindi ko maaatim na mapunta kung saan na ampunan ang bata at hindi na namin alam ang mangyayari. Masakit rin naman sa part ko na nagka anak si Zieg sa iba but this isn’t because he cheated. At inosente ang bata sa mga nangyari.

We took it slow. Sabay kaming bumibisita sa hospital while she’s still recovering. Nagka infection rin daw ang bata. May mga rashes. The environment she was born with isn’t fit for an infant. Awang awa ako sa kanya. Naiiyak ako sa tuwing maiisip ko ang mga naranasan nya. Her mother is a criminal.

Ako ang nagpangalan sa kanya.

After almost a month, I saw how Zieg warmed up to her. Pinarehistro namin ang bata na ako ang nakapangalan na ina nya. I named her Zaireen.

Malaki ang pagtutol nila Mama sa ginawa ko but I stood by with my decision. But I’ll be damned kung hahayaan ko syang mapunta sa ampunan. I want her. Kahit ano pa ang sabihin nila, walang kasalanan si Zai. At anak pa rin sya ng lalaking mahal ko.

Our lives turned different when we had Zai. But it was for the better.

Pasado alas otso na ng gabi kami nakauwi. Uminom si Zieg pero alam nya naman ang limit nya. Sya ang magdadrive pag uwi namin. Nakatulog na ulit si Zai by the time na nakauwi na kami. Punong puno na ng gamit ng bata ang kwarto ni Zieg. I find it actually comforting.

Zieg went into the shower after namin mapatulog si Zai. His therapy is doing him quite well. Sobrang bihira na sya magka bangungot. But he’s still kind of terrified with being touched. Inamin nya sa akin, when I m*********d him after we went home from the hospital, it took all of his control not to push me. Instead, he just kept on looking at me and chant in his mind that I am doing it, not Selina or any other girls who violated him.

After that, wala na kaming masyadong contact. Sometimes I can hug him, sometimes he does too. Pero madalas syang nagugulat in the middle of the night tapos lumalayo sya sa akin. Nasasaktan ako minsan kapag parang nandidiri sya.

Now, his doctor told me na since he’s getting better, I can help him get over the trauma an start to get intimate but always remind him that I am Ayanna, that I love him and he shouldn’t be afraid.

Tumingin ako sa salamin nang mahubad ko na ang lahat ng damit ko.

I’m dying to be touched by Zieg again. I can already feel my arousal kahit na plano ko pa lang ang lahat.

I slowly went inside the shower and walked towards him. Dahan dahan kong ilinapit ang katawan ko sa likod nya. He immediately pulled away, napasandal sya sa tiled walls. Inabot ko ang shower handle at hininaan ko ang tulo ng tubig.

“It’s okay, babe. It’s me.” I said in a seductive voice.

I saw him swallowed. “A-Ayanna?”

Lumapit ako sa kanya pero parang hindi sya mapakali.

“It’s okay, it’s me. Let me touch you..”

“N-No..” He was struggling. Gusto nyang lumayo sa akin nang makita nyang hahawakan ko sya. He’s not that violent or exerting too much effort, parang bigla syang nanghina sa takot.

“Zieg, I’m not them.” Malambing na sabi ko. I felt him shiver when my hands finally touched his chest. Slowly ay pinababa ko ang isa hanggang marating ang abs nya. My finger played with his n****e.

This time ay mabilis na napaurong si Zieg. “I can’t do this..” There’s horror in his face. Ang hirap makita na ganito sya ngayon because he was normal when we’re just together. I just have to endure touching him so much kasi uncomfortable sya at bigla syang nanginginig minsan.

Awang awa ako sa kanya but I need to do this. I have to help him recover. Inabot ko ang kamay nya at dinala iyon sa dibdib ko. He still looked terrified, but it relaxed him a little. I even felt him squeezed it a little.

“It’s Ayanna, babe. I’m not going to hurt you. Feel me, touch me. Please I miss you..” Ganoon rin ang ginawa ko sa isang kamay nya. He’s now holding my two breasts. I was guiding him to play with it, but he’s frozen, nakatitig lang sya sa mga kamay nya na nakahawak sa mga dibdib ko.

His adam’s apple moved, his eyes are still on my breasts. I took the initiative to move his hands, so I did. He’s softly struggling. Pumikit sya ng mariin. He’s biting his lower lip.

“Zieg, this is Ayanna. I love you..” I pulled his hands off of me and just hugged him tight.

Marahan nya akong tinutulak pero ipinulupot ko ang mga kamay ko sa kanya.

Tiningala ko sya, nagtama ang mga mata namin. His eyes is full of fear and confusion. I tiptoed and gave him a smack. “It’s alright, babe. I won’t hurt you.”

I can hear the beathing of his heart.

I slowly grind my body into him. Nang hindi ko na maramdaman ang pagpipigil nya o pagtulak nya, linuwagan ko na ang pagkakayakap ko sa kanya. I pulled his hands on his side and let it rest on my waist. He’s shaking, but he didn’t move to remove it.

I rested my face into his heaving chest.

“I miss you so much. Let me take away the pain they caused you. Hmm?” Tiningala ko sya at nakita ko na unti-unti ay nagiging relax na ang itsura ni Zieg.

Hinalikan ko sya, and although hindi sya pumalag ay hindi nya binubuksan ang mga labi nya. Hinahayaan nya lang ako na dampian ang mga labi nya ng mga halik.

“Open your mouth, Zieg.” I said in a raspy voice.

I caressed his chest, down to his stomach and to the middle of his legs. Bahagya na iyon na tumitigas. Hinawakan ko iyon ng buo and I heard him groan.

“A-Ayanna..”

“Yes, it’s me. Ako lang ang isipin mo, okay? No one else.” Sumigla ang boses ko.

He swallowed while looking at me. Tumango sya bago pumikit ang mga mata nyang simulant ko nang laruin ang p*********i nya. Humawak sya sa mga braso ko. Damn it, I miss holding him like this. I really hated Selina and her minions to the core for doing this to Zieg.

But I know it will make him stronger.

I started the kiss soft and slow. I want Zieg to warm up to me while I am also playing with his arousal. His hands stayed at my arms. Palalim ng palalim ang paghinga nya and he’s letting me touch him with ease now.

My lips went down to his jaw, to his neck. Tumingala sya upang mas bigyan ako ng access sa leeg nya. Humihigpit ang pagkaka hawak nya sa braso ko.

“I love you, Zieg.” I said in between little kisses. “I want you back..”

Bumaba na sa dibdib nya ang paghalik ko. Sabay sa pagbaba at pagtaas ng dibdib nya ay ang pagsubo ko sa isang n****e nya.

“A-Ayanna?”

Tiningala ko sya. Sa tono nya ay parang hindi pa rin sya sigurado na ako ang kasama nya.

Instead of answering, I licked his n****e while looking straight in his eyes. Pleasure surged into him, I saw his face crumpled with intense arousal. I let my finger play with the other n****e.

I work my way lower slowly. Binitawan na ni Zieg ang mga braso ko. Nakahawak lang ako sa mga bewang nya habang pababa ng pababa ang halik ko. Nakatingala ako sa kanya habang naka yuko naman sya at tinititigan ako na parang mawawala ako anytime.

When my hand caught his erection again, pumiksi sya, pero hindi naman nya inalis ang kamay ko. I stuck out my tongue while looking at him before I slowly put his c**k’s tip on my mouth. Hindi nya nakayanan dahil tumingala sya at napaungol. He clenched his fist and softly slammed it on the tiled walls.

“Do you like this? Hmmm?” I asked seductively.

Muli syang yumuko, his adam’s apple moved again.

I pushed my mouth further to accommocate him.

“Ah! Fuck.” Ramdam ko ang gigil sa ungol ni Zieg. Inangat nya ang dalawang kamay nya. I was a little surprised when he put his hands at the back of my head and gathered my hair until he can grip it.

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko nang magsimula nyang igalaw ang balakang nya while his hand is controlling my heat not to move.

“Ayanna.. Ah! I love you. I love you so much.” He then said as if he was chanting it.

Nang tingnan ko sya ay nakita ko na umiiyak sya. He’s actually sobbing. I wanted to tell him it’s okay but well, he’s currently f*****g my mouth. The way his hips is thrusting on my mouth is getting deeper and a little violent, but I can take it.

Mas naging malakas ang paghingal nya. Napahawak na lang ako sa mga hita nya habang bumibilis ng bumibilis ang pag ulos nya sa bibig ko. I feel so turn on seeing him like this.

A few more thrusts and I felt his hot liquid burst in my mouth. He pulled his c**k out. Magka titigan pa rin kami and I made sure that he see how I swallowed it.

“Babe.. f**k. Come here.” Tinulungan nya akong tumayo tapos yinakap nya ako ng mahigpit. “I love you.” Malambing na sabi nya habang hinihimas ang buhok at likod ko.

“I love you, too.” I hugged him back.

We stayed hugging underthe shower for a few more seconds before he pulled away as he smack my butt. Napa igik ako.

He’s still hard as rock kahit na ang dami nya nang inilabas. Maybe he misses this too.

“Zieg!” Saway ko sa kanya na pinanlakihan sya ng mga mata.

“It’s your turn, babe. The familiarity of your touch and your voice is coming back now.” Malamlam ang mga mata na sabi nya.

I smiled at him, pero bago pa ako makapag salita ay agad nya akong pinatalikod at pinatuwad. “Zieg! What the hell!” Gulat na sabi ko.

I heard him giggle, and then I felt the tip of his c**k on my wet entrance. He’s teasing me. He’s not pushing in. I want him inside me now, kaya ako na ang gumalaw but he grip my hips to stay.

“Babe, stay put,” Humihingal na sabi nya.

Liningon ko sya. “What are you doing? I need you inside. Now.” Parang maiiyak na sabi ko. The anticipation is f*****g killing me.

He caressed my back, my breasts, my hips and my butt habang kinikiskis ang kahabaan nya sa hiwa ko.

“f**k. Babe please, ipasok mo na. “ Wala na akong pakealam kung para akong tanga na nagmamakaawa sa kanya but I want him now.

“I’m just savoring the feeling, babe. I want this moment to be imprinted on my mind. It feels like the first time. I am erasing all the painful memory, all the pain they gave me.”

I bit my lower lip. “Okay, babe. Do it however- Ah! f**k!” Nabigla ako nang bigla nyang ipasok in a swift move and sarili nya. Para akong nahilo kaya napahawak ako sa pader na nasa harap ko. “Ziegfried! What the hell!”

Imbes na sumagot ay nagsimula na syang maglabas pasok sa akin, every thrust feels like he’s getting deep and his moves are getting harder, stronger. May gigil. May pagkasabik. Para akong tanga na naiiyak habang naglalabas pasok sya sa akin.

I’m just so damn happy.

Alam ko na simula pa lang ito but at least, nandito na kami.

I put my hand on my mouth when I let out a loud sob.

“Babe are you crying? Fuck.” May pag-aalala na tanong nya, pero hindi pa rin sya tumitigil.

“Shut up and just f**k me.” Pagalit na sabi ko.

“I’m already f*****g you.”

Napaliyad ako nang bigla nyang isagad sa isahang pag galaw ang sarili nya. Humihingal na rin ako at palalim na ng palalim ang paghinga ko. My knees are starting to really get weak kaya dalawang kamay na ang nakatukod sa tiled walls na nasa harap ko.

“Ah! Holy s**t!” Napangiwi ako nang mas bumilis pa ang pag galaw nya sa likod ko.

“Are you still on pills? Hmmm?” Out of the blue ay tanong ni Zieg.

“H-ha? H-hindi na. Hindi na ako bumili..” s**t, I can feel the build up on my stomach coming up. “f**k! Malapit na ako!” Humihingal na sabi ko.

“Me too, babe. Me too.” His hand came up to squeezed my breasts. I stood up. Sumandal ako sa kanya habang sige pa rin ang pag ulos nya sa likod ko. He’s softly biting my neck. “I love you, Ayanna. Marry me, okay?”

Napanganga ako sa narinig ko. Is that a proposal or malabo lang pandinig ko. Hindi ako nakapagsalita.

“You have to marry me. Please say yes.” Ulit nya habang palalalim na ng palalim ang boses nya.

“Z-Zieg what are you..” His on hand found its way in between my legs. He played with my clit at nawala ako bigla sa sarili ko.

“f**k, babe! Say yes!”

I was startled, I suddenly blurted out “Yes! Holy s**t!” Tumitirik na ang mga mata ko sa sarap. “Ah! Ah!” One loud moan and I came.

Three deep thrusts and I felt Zieg’s hot liquid shoot inside of me. I melted, mabuti na lang at mabilis akong nayakap ni Zieg. Sinubsob nya ang mukha nya sa leeg ko tapos sobrang higpit ng yakap nya.

My eyes are just half open, parang naubos bigla ang lakas ko tapos hindi ko pa alam ang nangyayari.

“Can you stand now?” Maya maya ay tanong ni Zieg.

Tumango ako. Inalalayan nya ako para umayos na ang pagkakatayo ko. Huminga ako ng malalim. “I guess we can continue taking a shower?” I gave him a weak smile.

He chuckled. “Sure..”

Linakasan nya na ang buhos ng tubig nang marealize ko na “You came inside me, Zieg.”

“Yeah, I did.” As a matter of fact na pagkakasabi nya.

I looked at him confused.

“What? Don’t tell me na ayaw mo pa? You agreed to marry me already anyway.” Taas kilay na sabi nya.

Napa awang ang labi ko. “I did? When?”

Sinamaan nya ako ng tingin. “Kanina! I asked you to marry me.” Parang inis na sabi nya.

I stopped and tried to remember. “Ha? ‘Yun na ‘yung proposal mo?!”

“What’s better way to propose than while you’re about to come?” Ngumisi sya.

Kinurot ko sya pero humalakhak lang sya.

END.