INSANE (Book one)

Chapter 3

Leah Knight

".......you look at me, with eyes so dark don't know, how you even see. You push hard through me. It's getting real, your luck could draw you drunk at the steering wheel, and I can't conceal. Oh cause I've been digging myself down deeper, I won't stop till I get where you are. I keep running, I keep running, I keep running......... They say, Honey we're making our mistakes I would've followed all the way no matter how far. I know, when you go, down on your darkest roads, I would've followed all the way to the graveyard................."

I played the keys of the piano as I sang. When I left the dining earlier, I bolted straight towards the music room cause I knew it was the only was to get away from the madness. Music always had this power of calming me down in my toughest conflicted situations. I mean what's more confusing and irritating and infuriating like finding out you've been married to ex-boyfriend for a day? It infuriated me, because it makes me look stupid. I mean for God's sake, it was only a wedding ring that was missing! But then again, music was the best way to shut down the world.

"I've almost forgotten how well you played" the voice I was totally escaping from this whole time, cuts through me. I couldn't even look at him, I just threw back my head in exasperation. My body system was so dried up, I was looking for tears to fall.

"I just, want to be alone, Ares" I murmured. I heard his bright chuckle.

"I would've loved to leave you alone beautiful, but we're suppose to be heading to court by this time" he informed. I dared a look at him when I turned around. I felt my eyes welling up, Huh I guess I do have some moisture left. As I stared at Ares, I find it impossible to see any fault for his actions. Ares had never fallen in love before. I was his first love. And it wasn't like girls weren't throwing themselves at his feet. Everything about Ares was complicated. Even his physique. He had an alabaster colored skin, so contrast to his dark looks. As a girl, I would usually see a Prince Charming having a tan golden skin. But Ares could divert every girl's fantasy with his looks. But then again, Ares was no Prince Charming. But now as I looked at him, I wanted to see no Prince Charming. Because no matter how hard I try to deny it, both my head and my heart are not siding me in my internal war.

face it Leah, even if he didn't kidnap you or tricked you into marrying him, you could've still come crawling back to him - my inner self said.

Great, now my subconscious is siding him.

"are you done checking me out?" he bored at me. I blinked back rapidly. Gosh, why does he have to be so hot? Cocky bastard!

"I wasn't checking you out" I rolled my eyes.

"right, you were meditating. So can we move on now? I have a company to manage" he mused, casually checking his watch. I heaved a long sigh, a sigh of defeat.

"can we branch to the hospital after the court? Reina needs to be checked up. You can just drop us off if you have meetings to attend or anything. Don't wanna tarnish your schedules" I said to him. He smiled at me and it had been the first time he genuinely smiled at me.

"I'll see about that. You should get ready" he replied.

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10 minutes later, we were on our way to the court in Ares's Range Rover with Reina in the back seat. Ares shortly pulled over a driveway and parked his car. He stole a glance at me before getting out and I did the same. Ares opened the back door and helped me get Reina out of her child safety seat. After Ares locked the doors, we both headed towards the main building with Reina in my arms. I was holding her close to my chest with one hand while the other follows my motions astray. But that was before Ares completely caught me off guard when he gently enterwined my slim fingers with his big warm ones. It was funny how one simple gesture from him can get my heart racing like a horse like I've won a freaking lottery!

I was dazed for a moment, unable to plaster a smile when the workers around us smiled and Ares smiled back. I mean he usually touches me without warning but I haven't felt his gentle touch in forever. Especially in public. But by the time we reached the receptionist's desk, I slightly recovered. Once the red-head looked up, her face brightens up. Can somebody explain why red-heads are always receptionists? Her extra plump lips tugged up in a flirtatious smile, as her lusty eyes seductively eyed Ares.

"oh hello, Mr Knight" she drawled, flipping her hair. No matter how hard she was trying, Ares couldn't even spare her second look. You see, Ares is the type of guy that never gets attracted to girls. In fact, he seems completely oblivious to her hungry stare. Or maybe he's just a darn good actor. I wonder how Ares was attracted to me in the first place.

"uhmmm. I'm here to see the marriage counselor" he says impassively. Instantly, her blue gaze shifted to me and she gave a frosty glare.

"oh. Do you have an appointment?" she asked, smiling brightly at him. She doesn't get it, does she?

"yeah" he bored a reply.

"okay then. I'll check you in, just give me a minute" she says before turning to me.

"can I help you, miss?" she asked, playing dumb. Okay, I'm sick and tired of her game right now! First, checking out my husband and second, indirectly insulting me.

"no actually. She's my wife" Ares beats me to my reply. I smiled proudly with my heads high.

"yeah. I'm the wife" I shot daringly. She swallowed and shrunk back, typing down her computer mercilessly as if it was its fault. After confirming his appointment, Ares and I headed for the marriage council.

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My hands lingered on the papers when it was time for me to sign. I was contemplating whether or not I was ready to spend the rest of my life with Ares Knight. Do I really want this? I mean do I really need to do this?

Leah for once in you life, stop being a drama queen or playing hard to get and just sign the goddamned papers!- my inner self said annoyedly. I heaved a sigh and was about to sign when Reina's baby squeal interrupted my decision.

"yes you are the most beautiful girl in the world. Well, besides your mother. Yes you are" Ares played with her, brushing her nose against his. He was such a good father. He really does love her. This made my heart fill with a sudden unfamiliar feeling. A feeling I haven't felt for a while now. Even if I don't want to go back to loving Ares, even if I was scared of his background and family, at least I would do it for Reina. Instantly, I signed the papers and handed them the marriage counselor. The man lowered his glasses and smiled at us.

"you're now officially married. Congratulations, Mr and Mrs Ares Knight. I wish you good luck and a happy married life"

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We got on the road later on to head for the hospital. I sat by the passenger seat and leaned my head against the window, imagining my future with Ares. As Mrs Knight. We were married now. Officially married. Would I be able to give it a go and love him again? Or would I still be clouded with my fears?

Ares stopped the car and I glanced at him. We weren't in the hospital, it was still further down the road so why was he stopping by some jewelry store?

"let me go get something. I'll back as soon as I can" he says. My light 'okay' gave him the opportunity to get out of the car. I silently waited for his return as I watched him enter the shop. A few minutes later, Ares returned. He opened the car door and entered. I stole a glance at him and saw him reaching for my hand that wasn't occupied. I frowned and fully looked at him and realized he had slipped a wedding ring onto my finger.

"it'll help for public recognition and my reputation" he simply said. Silently, I nodded my head and turned back to the window.