HELLO, STRANGER

CHAPTER 20

KAI’S POV

I'd been locked in my room for a long time and I was talking to J. I apologized again because I told him everything that was happening and, because I was alone, I was already talking to J on the cellphone. I unblocked him from the blocked list and now I talk to him by call. I couldn't take it anymore and I said that everything I hurt everyone, I have nothing now, I have no one to talk to, I have no friends to lean on, only J sympathized with me.

I've been crying for him for a while but he didn't complain or make me stop crying, he just empathized with me and let me cry. He only listens to my grievances and suffering. Sometimes he would sing to me and I would smile at the beauty of his voice, but later I would cry again like crazy.

"Sorry *sniff* I've been crying haha ​​*sniff*" I said and he laughed.

"Hey, it's nothing, don't think about it. All I want is for you to feel better so you can just cry and I'll be here and listen to you." He said softly. I felt his sincerity and we forgot the anger before when I accidently blocked him.

I'm lying in bed at my side, my cell phone is on the side of my face and it's on a loudspeaker right now. Mom and sister are gone now and they are buying groceries, so I am the one left here at home.

"Yes, thank you and you listened to my resentment." I said with a smile and he laughed softly.

"Now I feel even more guilty when I got angry with you. If I could take back everything I said to you, I would. I didn't know something was going on with you and I didn't realize it right away. Please forgive me." He said, and this was his fourth apology to me. I laughed.

"That's alright, I forgive you and I can't blame you either because you don't know anything about what happened." I told him and I heard him take a deep breath.

"But you think it's my fault?" I asked him.

"No." He answered quickly.

"How can you tell?" I would ask.

"Because you're a good person and besides, why do you have anything to do with tragedies?" He said, but I couldn't answer because I didn't know.

"Right? You can not even say what was your fault, so don't blame yourself for what happened to them." He said this and I breathed out.

"What time do your mom and sister come home?" he asked.

"Hmm I'm not sure, so maybe later I'll say goodbye to you and maybe they'll catch up with you and scold me." I said and he laughed.

"Yes, as long as I know you're fine now, there's no problem," he said, and we laughed.

"I'm fine, I'm relieved now, it's embarrassing," I said and he laughed.

"What the heck? I said that's fine. Cry, laugh whatever you want as long as I'm here to listen to you." He said and I smiled.

"Thank you," I said.

"You're always welcome." He said and suddenly I heard the car outside.

"They're here, I need to hang up! We'll talk next time." I said.

"Alright, I'll wait for that, huh? Bye! Always be careful and don't blame yourself." Then he hung up.

When we finished talking, I just heard mom knock on the room. She opened the door and called my cousin.

"Honey, we brought your favorite food. Eat first." Mom said, and I kept my back turned away from her.

"Yes mom, maybe later, I don't feel like it yet." I said and I heard her take a deep breath and then I heard the door close.

I sat on the bed and shook my head as I looked at the food my mom had placed on the table near the door. I took it and looked at what food I had bought for me. I smiled because everything they bought for me was my favorite food. I grabbed the paper bag and took it out and placed it on the side table. When I finished preparing the food, my cell phone suddenly vibrated. It was Paul.

From: Paul

I'm sorry, Kai, how I treated you. We both didn't like what happened. I hope you can forgive me. I really love Layla, but that doesn't mean you're not our friend anymore. I am also your friend and I hope you tell me about a problem and I can help you.

Paul's message made me smile, but I was still worried about them, so I had to distance myself from them first, so that they would be far from the tragedy, because every time I was with them something bad happened. My smile immediately disappeared and Paul's message was deleted and I turned off my cell phone. I've eaten the food, and I can't stop crying while I'm eating. I covered my face and tried to calm myself, but every time I remembered everything, it hurt, it hurt so much. Maybe this is the right decision for me and the right thing to do, to avoid them. I don't want them to get hurt anymore, because I feel like I'm to blame for everything that's happening.