Playing With Fire

Chapter- 6

That night as I lay in bed, tucked into Phoenix's side, I had a hard time falling asleep at first. He tried to stay awake as long as possible to look after me but it didn't take long for him to pass out.

Apparently he was hunting another demon and he was staying up for very long periods of time.

He didn't go into much detail about the whole situation. He was helping a friend out and supposedly 'didn't do this very often'.

This particular demon was making trouble for one of his human friends and he told him long ago that he would always protect him.

The guy owned a club and was 52 and Phoenix had known him since he was 19.

As time went on, Phoenix grew to trust the guy and told him the truth about why he wasn't aging.

As I laid awake in his arms, I thought about the fact that he was a demon. I've heard about them before, seen them in shows and movies... but I really didn't know much about them at all. And Phoenix had said that he was a special kind, a kind all his own.

To be honest, I was surprised that he actually slept. I wondered if he could listen to my thoughts while sleeping...

I knew what Incubi were. Phoenix wasn't an incubi but he said he did feed off of s****l things. But he also said he fed off of blood and sins. He was like a mixture of many different kinds of beings that I had heard of throughout the course of my life.

I watched him eat actual 'human' food and he was satisfied as well. I knew I had a lot to learn. And although I knew I was his 'soulmate' and he didn't want to hurt me, that didn't mean it wasn't possible.

After he cryptically said 'we'll see about that when I'm buried deep inside of you' after I said I wasn't scared of him it really had my mind spinning.

Did that mean when we had sèx he would go crazy? Would it hurt really bad? Would he have trouble controlling himself?

Before we went to bed he had explained how strongly he reacted to blood. Pretty much like a vampire. But he told me that it 'turned him on' more than anything.

When he took my vírginity I would most likely bleed.... that definitely made me nervous.

He had controlled himself when he found me snooping around the cabin. He had controlled himself when he... killed Erin.

Would he be rough with me? I knew that my blood was more potent to him because of who I was to him. Erin was a... demon of sorts too so maybe it smelled differently to him.

I couldn't deny that even though I was a bit scared and nervous I was incredibly excited. I had liked Phoenix from the moment I had laid eyes on him. I was excited to be intimate with him.

He told me he wanted to take things slow with me so not to scare me but since I knew everything now would he still stick to that? I hoped not. I knew that the bond had something to do with why I wanted him so badly but I mean, it was kind of driving me insane.

Just staring at him made me want him. I felt it before I knew we had one. I had naughty thoughts about him even at school. He must have really enjoyed listening to those... I wonder if he knew I had played with myself thinking about him.

He had to know....and that made me feel so freaking awkward.

When I opened my eyes again, he wasn't lying next to me anymore but I could hear the shower coming from the bathroom across the hallway. In that moment I pictured him naked.

Damn, I really needed to see him naked.

"Kitten, if you don't stop right now...."

HE HEARD ME!? HOW DID HE HEAR!?

"The longer I'm around you, the stronger our bond becomes and I can hear your thoughts farther away."

"NOT FAIR!" I yelled back at him causing his deep chuckles to float from the bathroom into the room.

I closed my eyes again, trying to think of anything but him.

Without a single sound, I opened my eyes again and he was suddenly walking in past the bed to the closet across from me. His towel was wrapped dangerously low around his hips and I had to hold back a groan.

He was such a tease and he KNEW it.

Instead of responding to the thought I just had, he changed the subject. "Are you hungry baby?"

"Yeah... hey, what about school and my dad?" I hadn't thought of either until that exact moment. It's as if they both ceased to exist anymore. Like nothing else mattered but Phoenix. My father must have been freaking out.

"I texted him with your phone and told him you were sleeping over at Erin's. And I called the school pretending to be him. I told them you were sick and would be out the rest of the week. Honestly kitten, I know you want to finish high school and go to college but there's really no point. I will be taking care of you for the rest of your life. I'll always take care of you. We can go wherever you want, do whatever you want... and when the time comes, you will stop aging. Since you are my other half I have the power to turn you immortal. I can't let you die, baby. I couldn't live without you. Not again, I'm sorry."

I knew he was apologizing because he wasn't giving me a choice in the matter. I didn't want a say if it came down to his happiness though.

A literal 'forever' with Phoenix was ok with me.

"H-how would you turn me immortal?"

"You have to drink my blood. Just once."

He's starting to sound more and more like a vampire.

I watched him turn around holding clothes in his arms, still only wearing a towel. He walked over to the bed and sat on the end.

"I was born what I am. I can't imagine how all of this information must make you feel. And I'm honestly sorry to overwhelm you baby. Even though all of this was thrown at you rather quickly, I don't think it would have ever been easier if I would have waited. No amount of time could have prepared you for all of this and for that I truly am sorry. But know that I will always take care of you."

I swallowed hard, feeling my eyes start to sting. He was making me feel so many different emotions at once.

He was right. I know that he had initially wanted to take things slow with me but I know I would have reacted the exact same way a month from now, two months, a year... I knew that about 98% of the human population had no idea that beings like Phoenix even existed.

"I don't know what I want when it comes to school anymore to be honest. I never wanted to move or change schools. The only reason I've come to accept our school is because of you... meeting you has changed so much..." I mumbled out, my gaze unfocused on his body.

"Kitten, it's ok. You don't need to decide right now." His body moved closer to me on the bed and I was suddenly very aware of his chest as I felt his warmth engulf me. He wasn't even touching me but I could feel him.

"I promise you will get used to it, you have my word. What you're feeling now is what I've felt since before you could even walk. It took a little while to develop but when it did I could sense you everywhere. I wasn't able to hear what you were thinking until we actually met. It's just the way it works. From the very first word you spoke to me..." He reached out to run his hand down the side of my face and I felt my body lean into his touch.

"If only you could see into my mind... I think you would most likely run, kitten."

Oh but I doubted that very much. I wanted him. I needed him. I craved him.

Our eyes locked and I felt my stomach muscles squeeze tightly. I knew exactly what he meant by that and he wanted me to get the message. He was grinning devilishly.

"W-will I... will I ever be able to?"

He grew silent for a moment, keeping his eyes locked with mine. I could tell he was thinking and I wanted desperately to be able to hear his thoughts. "I actually don't know. There's still things I don't know about this bond we share, still things I have yet to learn. I've heard that if you drink the blood of your soulmate it opens a link between the two of you. I've known many vampires who have said that it works the same for all creatures as long as one isn't human. My blood can do many things for you baby."

A moan slipped from my lips before I could stop it and he was leaning in even closer, his lips hovering overtop of mine. I was starting to feel how I did yesterday when I NEEDED his touch.

"W-will it always be this way?" I rasped, feeling his large, hot hands latch onto my hips. He pulled me onto his lap and pressed my back against his chest, resting his chin on my shoulder.

"Yes and no. It will get easier to handle. It's really bad right now because you've never had me and your body needs me, kitten. It recognizes me as your soulmate. It knows that I can relieve the ache you're feeling right now. It knows that I'm the only one. Crazy huh? I think it's fascinating." His mouth latched onto my neck and he bit me gently, lathering my skin with his tongue afterwards.

I was instantly wet and I whimpered, throwing my head back. "Ph-phoenix, please..."

"You have NO idea what you're asking for. And as much as I want to take you right here, right now... I want to wait just a little longer. I need you to trust that I have your best interests at heart."

I huffed, pulling away from him, turning my body around and crossed my arms like a little child. "W-why? I don't understand..."

He grabbed my arms out of their crossed position to hold my hands firmly in his as he made sure to make sure there was no more than an inch of space in between the two of us. He was grinning and it killed me furthermore.

"Kitten, this is going to be hard for me to say without you feeling weird... just understand that I have special abilities that you are already aware of ok?"

"O-ok..."

"Now I'm sure you are pretty in tune with your body and I'm sure you probably forgot because of everything that's been going on. Especially the past couple of days. I want our- your first time to be good for you. As good as it can possibly be and it will be harder for me to control myself with you when you...when you are menstruating. It will start today, that I'm sure of. I'm definitely not opposed to taking you when you are but not the first time, kitten."

My whole body must have looked like a tomato. It was as if a fire was lit up under my àss and I could feel myself sweat. I shouldn't have felt as embarrassed as I did. I couldn't even call it embarrassment, it was more like vulnerability.

Phoenix knew EVERYTHING about me including the cycle of my own body. I wasn't upset so much as feeling extremely vulnerable.

"Shhh relax baby, it's ok. I know you as well as you know yourself- for the most part. I know it will take a lot to get used to but you will. I can promise you that. I know it's not fair that I've always known about you, about us and our situation and you haven't. But over time you will learn every single thing there is to know about me. I won't leave anything out, no matter what, kitten. Can you promise me something?"

I nodded, leaning forward to press my forehead into his chest. He let his hand rub up and down my back. It felt so incredibly good and I couldn't help but let out a moan. I needed him to touch me even if it wasn't in the way that I craved. I just needed to be close to him.

And I was also going to need feminine products...

"Already have them in the cabin, they're under the sink in the bathroom." He chuckled softly. "But I need you to promise that no matter what you learn or see, you won't run from me, you won't give up on us. I know it's a hard promise to make and it will be even harder to keep. Everyday I try to be better although I am what I am. I try to be better for you. Unfortunately, there will always be things that get in the way of walking a more righteous path. I know people, if you want to call them that. I have obligations, people that call on me for help because of my expertise."

I tilted my head up to look Phoenix in the eyes. They were so mesmerizing. I felt my heart pick up speed in my chest and I let out a sigh.

His soft smile made me smile back, it was impossible not to feel happy being with him even though I was still scared of certain aspects about all of this. I was going to be brave.

Bring on the fire. Burn me baby.

As soon as the thought passed through my mind his smile turned into a wicked grin and his eyes flashed a bright red. "Kitten..."

"I promise Phoenix. I want this, I want you. And if I do happen to get frightened in the moment and make a run for it... y-you better catch me."

His laugh was so deep and husky, I could feel it sink into my soul and make my body cry out for him. Every single, little, teeny tiny thing about him turned me on. It was painful but I welcomed it masochistically.

And I knew deep down, he wouldn't give me a choice.

"You're mine, baby. I will always catch you. I'll never let you get too far and I do love chases so I'll enjoy them thoroughly. I say 'them' because I expect you to give me a few good ones."

I know this one was a shorter one but it's gonna get heated in the next chapter.

Prepare yourselves.