The Diary

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KATE" HI , MISSED ME . "

PETER'S LEGS TREMBELLED " NO , IT CAN'T BE , I AM DREAMING,  YOU CAN'T BE HERE ! "

KATE" WHAT IF I SAY , THAT I WAS HERE THROUGH OUT , I WAS THERE AT MY FUNERAL , I SAW THEM BURYING MY CORPSE , I SAW CLAIRE'S REMARKABLE EFFORTS TRYING TO GRIEF , THAT WAS KINDA FUNNY THOUGH DON'T YOU THINK . ( KATE CHUCKLES ) , I SAW YOU TAKING STAND FOR ME , PETER AGAINST THE WORLD , I KINDA LIKE IT."

PETER " WAS EVEN WORTH IT , CAUSE I DONT THINK SO ,  ( VOICE BREAKING ) HOW CAN YOU DO THIS KATE . YOU WERE SACRED OF DYING . I FEL SORRY FOR YOU . "

KATE " IT TAKES A LOT OF INTROSPECTION  AND STRUGGLE TO REACH THE STAGE WHEN WE NO LONGER FEAR DEATH . ANYWAYS DEATH SCARES US BECAUSE IT IS THE ULTIMATE SEPARATION AND I HAD NOTHING TO PART WITH. HOWEVER LIVING IN FEAR OF DEATH IS A FORM OF SELF HARM . "

PETER " AS IF YOU HAVE NOT HARMED YOURSELF . "

KATE " COME ON , DEATH IS NOT THE ULTIMATE LOSS . THE GREATEST LOSS IS WHAT DIES WITHIN US WHEN WE ARE ALIVE . MY DREAMS ,  MY HOPE DIED PETER . "

PETER "  KATE DO YOU REMEMBER , YOU USED TO SAY BE A FIGHTER AND NOT A QUITTER , YOU FAILED TO KEEP UP YOUR OWN WORDS . "

KATE " HOW LONG PETER ?  ALL THIS WHILE I HAVE JUST BEEN FIGHTING WITH , ME , MY FAMILY , YOU . I GOT TRAPPED IN A LOOP OF FIGHTING AND LOSING AND LOSING AND LOSING . MAYBE THATS WHY I CHOSE TO BE A QUITTER . LOOK THERE ARE TWO WAYS TO FACE A SITUATION . YOU MIGHT ATTEMPT TO CONFRONT OR YOU SIMPLY ESCAPE THE SITUATION. YOU EITHER FIGHT OR YOU FLEE . I CHOSE NONE. EXCEPT I WENT FOR THE FREEZE RESPONSE , USUALLY HAPPENS WHEN YOU FEEL HELPLESS . IT OFTEN INVOLVES DISSOCIATION , SINCE EMOTIONALLY DISTANCING YOUR THE GRIEF CAN DECREASE ITS INTENSITY, EFFICIENTLY , NUMBING SOME OF PAIN, AND DISTRESS YOUR EXPERIENCE .

BY THE WAY I SAW YOU WRITING THE JOURNAL YESTERDAY . I JUST WANTED TO TELL YOU WE DONT CREATE A FANTACY WORLD TO ESCAPE REALITY , WE CREATE IT TO BE ABLE TO STAY . "

PETER " JOURNALS ARE PRIVATE YOU ARE NOT SUPPOSED TO PEEP IN THAT . "

KATE " I READ YOUR LETTER ,  YOU HAVE IMPROVED YOURSELF AS A WRITER , I MEAN AS COMPARED TO YOUR FIRST POEM, NO OFFENCE THAT WAS A THRASH . "

PETER " WHAT , YOU SAID YOU LIKED IT ? "

KATE " I WAS JUST JUST BEING KIND . "

(PETER SMASHES HIS FOOT AGAINST THE TABLE . )

KATE" ARE YOU FINE ? BE CAREFUL , I DON'T YOU TO HURT YOURSELF . "

PETER " YOU MEAN BEING STALKED BY A CREEPY GHOST ,  I FEEL FANTASTIC. ANYWAYS WHY ARE YOU HERE ? AND JUST TO SAY YOU ARE NOT FREAKING ME OUT . "

KATE " I WANT YOU TO DO SOMETHING FOR ME . "

PETER " NO ,  WAY IN HELL. NOW GO IN THE CEMETRY , OR GRAVE , OR HANG ON THE TREE . "

KATE ( LAUGHS ) " WHAT ? "

PETER "I DONT KNOW , I HAVE NO EXPERIENCE BEING A GHOST . YOU TELL ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! "

KATE " WILL YOU DO MY WORK ? "

PETER " SHALL I SAY IT IN DIFFERENT LANGUAGES ,  NO "

( KATE SITS ON THE BED ) " SO I AM NOT LEAVING , I WILL CHASE YOU EVERYWHERE . "

PETER " OKAY SIT HERE I WILL GO AND TAKE A SHOWER . "

KATE " OKAY I WILL COME ALONG . "

PETER " WHAT ! NO WAY YOU ARE NOT COMING THE SHOWER WITH ME . "

KATE " WHY NOT , I ALWAYS KNEW YOU HAD A CRUSH ON ME . "

PETER " MY TIME IS NOT SO BAD . "

KATE"OUCHHHH.  . . . . .HARSH THAT HURTS . "  

PETER " I WILL GO TO THE SCHOOL LIKE THIS . "

KATE " OKAY THEN , I WILL WALK YOU . "

PETER " WHATEVER ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! "

 ( PETER AND KATE WALKED ALONG THE SIDE LANE.LIZZE CALLS OUT TO PETER AND COMES RUNNING TO HIM )

LIZZE" HEY ! "

PETER " HI , WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE ?  "

LIZZE " I WANTED TO SAY THAT AFTER EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENED , I REALLY NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO , SO MAY BE YOU AND ME WE CAN GO ON A DATE I MEAN JUST HANGOUT ,  SOMETIME , MAYBE . WE BOTH CAN UNLOAD OUR CHEST , DON'T YOU THINK IT WILL BE GREAT . "

KATE " f**k THIS b***h , SHE IS FLIRTING WITH YOU . JUST GET RID OF HER . I CAN'T TOLERATE HER NOT ANYMORE . "

PETER " LIZ ,I NEED SOME TIME ALONE ,MAYBE WE CAN JUST TALK LATER . "

LIZZE " YAA,YAA OFFCOURSE . "

KATE " AND , AND CAN YOU TELL HER SHE IS A b***h . "

PETER " SHUT UP ! ! ! ! ! "

LIZZE " WHAT ? DID YOU SAY ANYTHING ? "

PETER " NOPE ! I SAID NOTHING . "

LIZZE " OH ! I HEARD SHUT UP . "

PETER " NO , NO , NO , WHY WILL I SAY THAT . "

KATE " LIZ HAAA , SO YOU ARE THE NEW ELIGIBLE BACHELOR OF THE TOWN . "

PETER" I AM SORRY , I MEAN ABOUT YOUR FAMILY ,YOUR MOTHER AND SISTER . "

KATE " DONT BE SORRY CLAIRE AND LIZ WERE NEVER MY FAMILY. THEY ARE JUST MY DAD'S WIFE AND DAUGHTER . "

PETER " I AM SORRY ,FOR ALL THAT I HAVE SAID EARLIER , JUST TELL ME WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO " 

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