Feral SheWolf

8. Drug free

Connie checked every part of my body from head to toes. She even organised a dental check up. I must admit it was nice to be this well taken care of. But those tests revealed things that I even had no idea about like the fact that one of my legs did not heal properly and I was formed bony protuberance which would require rehabilitation and the thing that surprised me the most ... I'm not a virgin.

"Jade, you don't remember any form of s****l abuse during your stay in that dreadful institution?" - she kept on asking.

"I told you like three times before that I don't recall. But remember that for most of my stay there I was heavily intoxicated." - I told her again and it was just getting ridiculous. To be honest I was a bit pissed to discover this about myself. For the peace of my mind I preferred to be kept in the dark, cause now I can't stop wondering which one of these motherfuckers did this to me.

"Fine. I know it's not easy to talk about, but remember none if this is your fault." - she said in her calming shrinky way.

"I know that!" - I hissed with annoyance. I swear it was almost like she wanted me to break down and cry.

"You say you accept it, but what about Iri. What does she feel?"

I must admit that I haven't heard from her for a while now.

'Iri, you there?' - I focused on my mind trying to reach her.

'Yes I'm here.' - she answered immediately, but something was different. This bloodthirsty beast sounded almost sad.

'What's going on? Does it bother you this much? I don't even remember it.'

'YES IT BOTHERS ME! SOMEONE LAID HIS HANDS ON US WHEN WE WERE UNCONSCIOUS! WHY AREN'T YOU ANGRY?'

'Alright, stop with the screaming! And to be honest a lot of things happened to me that I do remember, so I won't waste my breath on something that I can't. So what do you wanna do now?'

'Kill them all!' - she admitted in a low tone, which made shivers run down my spine. She sounded terrifying. I rolled my eyes, cause it was ridiculous. We can't kill everyone who harms us.

"She's angry and she said she wants to kill them all." - I repeated to Connie my wolf's words.

Connie nodded like I'd just given her a correct answer.

"I expected nothing less from an Alpha wolf." - she said with a proud smile. - "But first we need to bring you back to your full strength, and get all those damn drugs out of your system."

She was really cool, and thanks to Connie I started regaining trust into Doctors once again. She became the closest thing to mother in such a short time. I knew she won't ever let me down, and it wasn't even because of her loyalty to this Pack and my father, Connie was genuinely a good person.

She put a drip on for the night to quicken detoxification and left me to rest. Sleep however wouldn't come easy this time. Telling Connie about things that had happened to me opened doors I wanted to keep close for the rest of my life. But memories of pain I experienced instead of put me in my well known depression started angering me. My sick mind came up with the images that we might do to bring justice. But this wasn't me, I was never the violent girl, at least not before Iri showed up.

'That's exactly who you are. You still don't get it, do you? I'm just like you, and everything I'm capable of so are you.' - Iri interrupted my thoughts.

'Could you for once stay away from my thoughts?! Besides, I'm not a monster like you. I would never kill innocent people!' - I yelled back. I'm yelling in my thoughts, and they say there's nothing wrong with me?! I need to rethink social norms.

'I'm not a monster, but I'm not a pushover either, and you should better accept that we are one.'

I didn't answer her. I focused on the tube attached to my hand and watched the drops drip into it. Soon slumber consumed me.

Morning came quickly but I could right away tell there was something different about me, something has changed. I had more energy, to the point that it was impossible to stay in one place. I started pacing back and forth in my concrete cell, but it didn't help. I tried to do some crunches and push-ups but I think I could do it for hours and it wouldn't bring me any release. What was happening to me?!

'This is real you.' - said Iri, and I swear I could hear her smirking at me.

I have been doing my exercises till Molly came up with my breakfast. She obviously noticed what I was doing and it brought her attention.

"Whatcha doing Alpha?" - she asked playfully and apparently Iri didn't appreciate her tone because a low growl escaped my mouth. What is wrong with me?

Molly lowered her head with respect.

"Forgive me Alpha, I was just excited seeing you in such good shape."

"It's ok, I don't know why I made this sound. I'm just so… restless this morning."

"That's a good sign." - she said smiling and left me alone once again.

An hour after I ate Connie came to me, and her sharp eye caught the change in me without asking.

"How do you feel Jade?"

"Strange. I've never had this much energy in my life. Also there is something wrong with the lights, it's so much brighter today."

Connie gave me her signature smile.

"Everything is exactly the same, it's your wolf. She is finally drugs free, and you can see the world with her senses. It might be a bit overwhelming at first but you'll get used to it."

"What do you mean by her senses?" - I asked, not liking the new traits of my body.

"You've already noticed strength and more sensitive sight, you should expect better hearing, smell and taste also."

I started once again pacing in front of the glass wall thinking it through.

"I'm not sure how to feel about it." - I admitted truthfully.

"Accept it. That's who you are." - She was waiting for my response but all of this was so new. I need more time to make my peace with it.

"Alpha wants to see you today. Have you decided what you will answer him?"

That information made me stop in my tracks and look at her. Iri and I briefly spoke about our future. But am I ready to make this decision already?

'Yes you are. That's where you belong.' - my wolf encouraged me.

I focused once again on Connie, who was waiting for my answer.

"Yes I do. I'm gonna stay here." - and when I admitted it out loud it felt only right.