wishing on a shooting star

Chapter 4: The concert night

The discussion for morning is done. We are preparing for our lunch. In the whole discussion and dami kong iniisip, kailangan kong mag umpisa sa magandang plano. Hindi ko sasayangin ang chance na ito para lang maulit ang pag kakamali ko. Ang lahat ng pagkakamali ko ay itatama kona sa pag kakataon na ito. Gagawin ko ang lahat kahit anong mangyare dahil nakasalalay dito ang future ko.

I was wondering kong anong date ngayon, i want to ask Elidjah pero i fell the awkardness.

Kahit dito sa past nararamdaman ko pa din ang awkwardness,nasanay akong malayo sya sakin dahil sa future ang tagal kong hindi sya nakasama.

Dahil nahihiya akong tanongin si Elidjah at mukang busy din naman sya sa pag aayos ng gamit nya kaya si Jhon nalang ang tatanungin ko tama  si Jhon nalang.

kinuwit ko sya kasi na unahan ko sya nakaup sila ni erich ang magkatabi ba kung saan nasa unahan namin ni Elidjah at si Mae at Jemar ang nasa unahan ni Erich at Jhon.

Lumingon sya sakin, 

" ahm anong date ngayon?" mahinang tanong ko

muka akong nakalimot at nagtatanong ng date kong saan kailangang ilagay sa papel para sa extra points.

Jhon look at him with confusing look.

"ang bata bata mo pa pero makakalimutin kana hahaha" then he laugh

napakamot nalang ako sa ulo at napatingin kay Elidjah, He is now looking at me at tipong nakikinig sa pinag uuspan namin

"June 11 lola Maquia hahaha" Jhon tease he 

I miss Jhon teasing me , he was naturally funny at sa mga trip nyang laughtrip

i laugh at jhon while looking at him

Jhon suddenly stop laughing and just look at me kaya napatigil nalang din ako sa pag tawa.

Iniwas nya nlang ang tingin sakin and he started to organize his stuff.

I look at Elidjah and he still looking at me , 

I know that look nag seselos ka no wag kang mag alala ikaw ang mahal ko.

So today is June 11 same date sa future. It means magkapareho lang ang araw ng pag punta ko sa past at ang araw sa future . Ang kailangan ko ay magkaroon ng magandang plano.

"speaking of june 11 tonight is the concert night k aya walang mawawala"Mae said it

concert night nino ?

silenct sanctuary ?

" Im sorry guys ....." hindi pa natatapos ni Erich ang sasabihin nya pero nagsalita na agad si Jhon

"wag ka ng magsalita dahil?" Jhon look each one of us 

"DAHIL KAMI AnG SQUAD AnG TATAKAS SAYO HAHAHAHA" we said it in unison except Erich .

I miss to say those words with them.

Erich had a strict parents siya minsan ang hindi nakakasama sa mga gala pero hindi kami pumapayag na may kulang sa grupo kaya gumagawa kami ng paraan para makasama sya .

pero bakit hinayaan nyo akong mag isa sa future?

i felt sadness again , pero dapat hindi ako maging malungkot. Walang lugar para maging now that i have a chance to change it kaya dapat gawin ko ito ng mahusay at walang mali.

We are now in the cafeteria enjoying our lunch for today. I just order lasagna and garlic bread .

"hindi ka nagsasawa na lasagna lagi ang kinakain mo, kasi ako hindi ko kaya masusuka ako haha" Mae ask me 

" hehehe this is my favorite kaya hindi ako magsasawa parang sa inyo hindi ako mag sasawang kasama kayo" i replied 

"ang chessy mo Maquia " and mae continue eating her food

Hindi ako mag sasawang kasama kayo. Dahil kayo ang dahilan why my life is full happiness were i experience incredible things.

i was sitting beside erich kaya kami lang ang nagkarinigan .

It was a round table for six person that is why it is fit to us.

"basta wag masyadong O.A ang pag dadahilan nyo mamaya ha kasi nong nakaraan gusto ko ng tumawa dahil muka ng tanga itong si Jhon haha" Erich said it 

I remember when pinag paalam namin si Erich and dahilan namin ay may sakit si Jhon at mamatay na sya, at ang huling nya ay makasama kaming lahat tapos talagang nasa hospital pa kami para makatutuhanan 

" please tita siguro ito na ang huling beses na makasama ko sila ng kumpleto payagan nyo na po si Erich sa outing namin" Jhon said it ng may pa hingal effect pa.

It was a christmas holiday at we decided na mag outing sa tagaytay pero dahil alam namin na hindi papayagan si Erich gumawa ng paraan si Jhon at iyan ang planong naisip nya.

Minsan nag tataka ako kong nasa katinuan pa sya kasi minsan talagang mapapaisip ka ng may sayad na yata itong tao na ito

Kunwari pa iyak iyak pa kami para talagang makatutuhanan ang O.A nga mga pag mumukha namin yung tipong hindi makakapasa sa pag aartista 

tapos yung magulang ni Erich lalo na yung mommy nya umiiyak na din mukang naniniwala talaga sya na may sakit si JHon.

" wag ka ng mag salita Jhon, oo papayagan ko si ERIch kong iyan ang kahilingan papayagan ko sya huhuhu" iyak na pasabi ni tita.

At yun nga pinayagan si Erich pero nasa tagaytay palang kami pinapagalitan na kami dahil nalaman nilang hindi totoong may sakit si Jhon dahil kinausJeap ng mommy ni erich ang parents ni Jhon at doon nila nalaman.

Those old memories na namiss ko sa future nong hindi kona sila kasama.

naglalakad na ako pauwi sa house, nag lalakad dahil hindi naman kayuan sa house namin ang school ang house namin malapit sa school ng elemtary highschool at university kaya siguro dito ang pinili ng mga magulang dahil para mag lalakad nalang ako pag pasok at pag uwi .

I was walking with Elidjah dahil same direction ang daan papunta sa house namin.

Sila jemar at jhon ang medyo malayo sa house sa aming anim si mae at erich naman ang mag ka same way ng house.

Tahimik lang kami naglalakad, halos araw araw siya ang kasama ko sa pag lalakad pag pasok at pag uwi siguro ito ang isa sa mga dahilan kaya nahulog ang loob nya sakin.

"why are you looking at naka ngit kapa, kanina kapa weird Maquia Menma" Hindi ko na pansin na nakatingin pala ako sa kanya.

He used to call me Maquia Menma it was may real name. Sya lang tumatawag sakin ng ganyan.

" Why you always call me Maqui Menma ? " i ask him this is one of the question na hindi ko natanong sakanya noon at ngayong may chance na ako itatanong kona sa kanya 

"kasi yun ang pangalan mo " hindi sya nakatingin sakin dahil sa daan sya nakatingin pero i can see nag half smile sya.

"Ikaw lang nag iisang tumawag sakin ng ganyan i thought may malalim pang meaning hahaha" pag dadahilan ko 

i just want to know why?

"yun lang ang dahilan wag kang assuming " napahinto ako sa sinabi while he continue to walk.

sinamaan ko sya ng tingin kahit nakatalikod sya sakin, assuming pala ha sino kaya satin ang aamin ng feelings hmmp.

I run para mahabol ko sya medyo malayo malayo na yung distance namin sa isat isa.

"susunduin ba tayo nina Jhon para sa sabay sabay na tayo pag punta sa concert ?" tanong ko sakanya 

hindi sya umimik, kaya kiuwit ko sya .

"kong susunduin tayo nina Jhon ? " i ask him again 

"you should ask him not me" pag mamaldito nya.

"HAHAHAHAHAHA"napatawa ako ng malakas kaya napatingin sya sakin ng may pag tataka

"why are you laughing? muka kang tanga kita pa nyang ngalangala mo pag natawa ka" nakakunot na noo nyang tanong

"wala i just miss you" walang pag aalinlangan sabi

at this time sya naman ang napahinto pero nasa tapat na ako ng house namin kaya babye wave nalang nako at i open the gate at dumiritsyo na sa house namin.

I look around to our house it is much colorful and lively, hindi tulad nong sa future i feel lonely and it was dark. 

Highschool ako ngayon at nasa grade 10 it means hindi pa hiwalay si mama at papa.

"Mama Papa nandito na ako " i shout 

i was looking them sa buong house.

"Ma?Pa?" is houted again

i was excited to see them were we are complete happily family.

I miss them so much.

after may parents had divorce i change i was not the sweet Maquia to them, dumating nalang yung araw na ayoko silang kausapin dahil galit ako sakanila.

Pero ngayon i will not let this happened again,

"why are you shouting Maquia?" It mom's voice

i followed mama's voice and it was in the garden,

i walk where the gardens located.

I was nervous and excited in the same time.

i saw then sitting and enjoying their drinks.

" welcome home anak" mama said it while spreading his arms which is the sign that to hug her.

i run towards them and hug them yung mahigpit na mahigpit na yakap.

"please don't leave me again Mama, Papa" para akong isang bata na ayaw magpaiwan sa kindergarten

"of course we will not leave you honey"papa said it with assurance

i look to their face and give them a smile.

i will do anything para hindi sila maghiwalay.

it was 8 in the evening and i was outside of our house, i was waiting for Elidjah kasi sabay daw kami pumunta kina Erich don kami magkikita kita and the others ay nandon. Kami nalang dalawa nalang ang hinihintay.

nakatayo lang ako while waiting for Elidjah, i was wearing a denim jacket kasi malamig tonight and underneath is a tank top and i just wear a high wasted mom jeans and a white shoes.

tumitingin din ako sa direction ng house nina Elidjah para alam ko na nandyan na sya.

and he was there walking towards my direction.

It was like a slow mo moment, he was cool in his simple white t shirt and a black pants pair with white sneaker. 

Many girls had a crush on Elidjah i admit na talaga gwapo sya. Pero sorry girls sakin sya may gusto hehehe

"what are you smiling at?"i didnt notice na nasa harap kona pala sya 

" wala, wala" i just simply replied 

i must not act na alam kona na may gusto sya sakin dapat relax lang. Chill lang Maquia.

We are now in the house of Erich, Erich parents was still not there  kaya kailangan pa namin maghintay.

i can't wait na gawin namin uli ang katarantaduhan na ito.

It was one of the million of things na i miss nong sa future ako.

"Ma'am Erich nandyan na po parents nyo." their made annunce it

" okay guys it's show time" Jhon said it with enthusiasm 

We saw Erich parents entering to their door.

We stood up as a sign of respect, Erich walk towards her parents and kiss them in there cheeks.

Erich parents look scary, they wearing eye glasses.

"Why your friends are here Mary Erich ?" her mother ask her

Jhon laugh cause Erich call here in here full name, Erich glared at Jhon Just like me Erich doesn't want to call here in full name.

"Good evening po tita" we greet here parents

Her parents look us with taas noo effect

"Kasi po si tita we have a failing grade tapos teacher give us a second chance para mapataas ang grades at si erich lang po ang makakatulong samin tita" may pa crying effect pa para convincing

We glared at Jhon dinamay pa kami sa failing grade nya ano nalang say ng parents ni Erich na we are not good at studying.

I look to Erich parents and it look na koconvince naman sila, galing talaga ng actor namin.

"we know na matalino talaga ang anak namin pero sana naman mag si arak kayo" her dad said it

"okay, Erich can teach you pero sisiguraduhin nyo na pagtuturo ang pupuntahan nito"her mom said it

nasa good mood ang parents ni Erich ngayon ha hindi pahirapan ngayov mag paalam.

"thank you tita, malaking tulong po ito sa amin huhu" at this lumuhod na si Jhon, pinipigilan ni Mae matawa.

"'Di ko maintindihan ang nilalaman ng puso

Tuwing magkahawak ang ating kamay

Pinapanalangin lagi tayong magkasama

Hinihiling bawat oras kapiling ka"

we are singing in the top of our lungs, silent sanctuary song never gets old.

Every people in the concert was singing it was a great concert cause it is silent sanctuary concert

"Sa lahat ng aking ginagawa

Ikaw lamang ang nasa isip ko, sinta

Sana'y 'di na tayo magkahiwalay

Kahit kailan pa man"

I look to Erich, Mae, Jhon and Jemar kumakanta sila at tumatalon talon 

si jhon may pag sigaw pa ng

" I love you Silent Sanctuary papakasalan ko kayo.

Tawa lang ako ng tawa while watching to them, i miss this so much.

"Ikaw lamang ang aking minamahal

Ikaw lamang ang tangi kong inaasam

Makapiling ka habang-buhay, ikaw lamang, sinta

Wala na 'kong hihingin pa, wala na

Ooh, ooh-ooh-ooh"

I close my eyes and feel the song while singing. I love music while i was young i dream to have a concert and everyone in the concert is singing together with me.

I open my eyes and look to Elidjah who's beside me he was looking at me to he give me a sweet smile who can melt my heart.

My heart beat fast parang kami lang dalwa ang nasa concert like an intimate date.

I know for myself that i was determine to be with him in the future.