Chapter 2: Alone
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I heard the ring of the alarm clock, nakatulog pala ako sa kakaiyak. This is me laging umiiyak at hindi kayang patawadin ang sarili. I feel i'm living in place where i am the only one is alive.
I walk down stairs and go to the kitchen, medyo nakaramdam ako ng gutom dahil i skip meals last night. I just prepare sandwich this is my morning meal just a sandwich. Who can anyone had a appetite to eat alone?
I get the sandwich and go to the garden. I sit on the chair in the garden and appreciating the calmness. I recently love to just sit and not to talk and appreciating ang ganda ng nature.
I was planning to go hiking pero sino ang isasama ko?
I only had myself.
I just observing our garden it so quiet , i can only hear the chirping of the birds. I was use to it cause i should use to it.
It was around 10 when i go back inside of our house, i just wash the dishes and go upstairs and go to my room.
This is how i spent my weekends in just locking self in my room.
When i got bored i will just get my guitar and play it. I used to be part of music club but i quit. I remember i love to play and sing in the front of many people were my friends including Elidjah cheering me. I feel so blessed to have them.
It just music will keep reminding me of them.
When i finish all the things that i need to do for today, naisip kong mag linis ng kwarto medyo matagal na ng naglinis ako ng kwarto.
My room was always messy at maingay kasi dito kami madalas gumawa ng projects pero ngayon tunog ng orasan nalang ang maririnig.
Pinunsan ko ang lahat ng maalikabok, nilipat ko ng shelves ang mga libro na that i already done reading.
I was in the middle of transferring my books, when there was a paper fell na siguro nakalagay singit sa isa sa mga aklat.
i was curios kong ano ang nakasulat kaya kinuha ko ito and i read it
"Hi Maquia, may gusto akong sabihin sayo pero nahihiya ako kaya nag sign language nalang ako. naintindihan mo ? sana naintindihan mo hehehe"
from Elidjah
I smile while i was crying, that day when we are in High school nasa taas sya ng stage at ako ay nasa baba.
He called my name and i look to him. He was obviously nervous.He want to tell something pero hindi sya makapag salita. He use sign language and i understant it. I look around if someone see it pero wala. I run dahil nahihiya ako sakanya. That is the first time he confessed his feelings to me.
Ang sarap balik balikan ng mga araw ng ako pa ang mahal mo na ako pa ang mundo mo ngunit isa na nalang akong alaala at ang taong gumulo ng mundo mo. Masakit isipin that i didn't give you a chance to love me to express me how deeply you love me. If i was a type of girl who can easily express and say my feelings to any one especially to you , were i can prioritize myself than to others, Maybe we are happy together.
When i feel tiredness humiga ako sa kama at nag pahinga.
Sana ganito lang ang mga problema,kapag napagod kana magpapahinga kalang at mawawala na.
Sana..
Sana..
I take a nap and wishing na pag mulat ko sana nasa kaaraan ako were i will change my decision and take back what i have done and say to all the people i love.
"Hindi kita gusto Elidjah" nakayukong sabi ko
There's a silent between us, hindi sya nagsalita.
nakayuko lang siya , i try to look at him and i saw pain into his eyes. There's no tears but his eyes is expressive and i can tell his in pain
We are in the secret place of the squad, kami lang dalawa ang nandito.
He call me that he want to talk to me kaya pumunta ako.
Kahit mayroon sa sarili ko na ganito ang mangyayare i still come to this place.
He just left me with no words , and from that night were there's a heavy rain. He left with pain in her heart.
and i know he will not be the same Elidjah i use to know. Who look me as a precious stone, a expensive diamond.
I wake up because of the phone call. napanaginipan ko na naman ang gabi na yun.
i answer the call
"Maquia? are there?"
"yes"
"nagpadala ako ng package make sure nasa house ka natin para hindi mo mamiss yung package'
" okay"
"why are you sound so sad? may nangyare ba anak?"
" may gagawin pa ako Ma,bye"
She was always like that , like nothing happened. Like she it dad didn't broke up.
She change i miss my old mom. Who is caring and always expressing her love to me.
I wish i go back into my old life.
I go down stairs and go to the living room.
I get the remote and open the television.
"July 11, inaabangan ng lahat ang meteor shower na mag kakaroon din ng eclipse.
isang paniniwala na ang iyong hihilingin ay mag kakatoo" news repoter
June 11 is was June 10 today so it means it's tomorrow
Is it the sign that i can finally go back?
If i wish it will grant it?
- Writer
