One day

Chapter 16

I am Sen, one day I have a dream.

Because Lilith's noise was too loud, my mother went up to my room, when I heard her footsteps I ran to the door, gaining the right to open the front door. When my mother saw me suddenly opening the door, she was very surprised, I quickly said: "Good night."

She was still bewildered, I sighed and was about to close the door, but my mother was holding the door open and said to me: "Good night."

So I completed today's mission.

I thought I would have a good night's sleep today because I completed the quests well, but no, I was disturbed by a dream. In the morning when I woke up, my spine also creaked a few times because I hadn't moved for a long time, the surroundings were extremely quiet, I could not see Lilith anywhere.

Sweat soaked my whole body, my shirt was still sticky on my skin, I was about to take a shower, but when I turned around to see that it was not yet morning, I realized that it was still night. To ensure good health, I hardly shower at night, so I lay down to sleep again.

The wind outside kept pounding against the window, but it was quite hot in my room, so I couldn't sleep anymore. I got out of bed, barefoot on the ground, unintentionally the ground was cold to the flesh, in stark contrast to the temperature in the room.

I quickly jumped back into bed, found three pairs of socks, and went inside, only then could I continue going out. Gradually I was no longer sleepy, my mind became extremely clear, so I became more and more desperate.

I just woke up from a nightmare, and now I'm back in the dream again.

In my dream I didn't find a watch at all, let alone meet anyone, the only figure I met I wasn't sure was a human. The shadow had its back to me, its incredibly high back made me picture the human skeleton stretching out, but without knowing why I wanted to touch it.

Suddenly there was a noise behind me, I turned around and met the child who looked like me in my previous dream. The scene of the house is always the same, the space is small but cozy, the only thing that changes is "I" standing opposite.

The child stood in the dark, I couldn't see the child's expression, but I knew he hated me. That child, he wants me not to live in peace, wants me to be tormented every day from the things I do, even if it is the smallest thing that is not worth mentioning.

I guess this is the “disease” I need to get rid of.

Just by destroying it, I can reintegrate with everyone. When I had such thoughts, the child also spoke.

“You used to choose to sacrifice all of us, so now you have no right to ask us to help you,” she said. Its voice began to change in a horrifying way as if hundreds of people were saying at once: “You have no right to save yourself.”

At that time I was broken into pieces, and it seemed like I needed to return those pieces to others. "I have no qualifications" - This sentence is like hitting my heart, I can't forget it anyway, even a broken body can't be forgotten.

I disintegrated bit by bit but my consciousness was still there, when closing my eyes I could feel my inner turmoil violently, I was more and more scared, finally- finally I couldn't take it anymore.

Outside the window the dawn was rising, that child was no longer visible, the other creature also disappeared. 

This dream is not the first time it happened, in the past once I was lucky to get out of an accident but kept dreaming about it, I was still a child at that time, of course, I did not realize the importance of nightmares, so I put up with it and didn't tell my parents.

Back then, it went on forever, I had to dream every day, when I let it go, the dream gradually disappeared. But now it continues to come back to haunt me…

Although I used to sob and cry, trying to get myself out of that dark dream, wanting to call someone else to help me a little, but never succeeded.

"Clack-" Lilith opened the door, brought the heater into her room, then cried out, "Oh my god, why is it so cold in this area, I couldn't sleep last night."

I saw that her eyelids were dark, she must have not had a good night's sleep. 

Suddenly something hit the window startling the two of us, and at the same time looked out. A crazy storm hit, I lifted the curtains to look and discovered that the bucket had been left on the roof, currently stuck in a wire, swinging continuously against the window of my room in the wind.

At this rate, the glass on my window will be broken, so I quickly opened the window and managed to get hold of the bucket. Not only did I not catch the bucket, but I almost got hit in the arm by it, fortunately, Lilith pulled me inside or I would have had to go to the hospital to have it checked again.

“Are you crazy? All right, I'll do it." After that, Lilith found a stick, and the stick was wrapped around a rope that was hanging outside, successfully stopping the bucket from flying around.

I cut the rope with scissors, the bucket just fell to the yard, at this time it was pouring rain. We quickly closed the window, facing the room that was messy from the wind.

I wasn't in the mood to think about the dream so much, but now I had to think of how to visit Sana in this bad weather. I continued to skip breakfast, only had time to change into my clothes, then quickly put on a coat, took an umbrella, and went out.

I'm afraid it will rain soon so I must go out as fast as possible.

Fortunately, today is a day off, so I didn't meet my classmates on the street.

The rain increased, the wind was stronger, making me walk on the road a little unsteady, sometimes I almost fell down. Being hit by the wind and rain on my face makes me feel good, it's been a long time since I've walked in the rain like this, it's cold but it's fun.

A few people behind me were also swayed by the wind, they felt that it was not good and stopped their steps at the side of the road, soon I was the only one who tried to drag forward. Approaching the bus stop, I unconsciously became subjective, loosened my grip on the umbrella, as a result, the umbrella was blown upside down, I was knocked back onto the ground.

Once I fell, it was very difficult to get up if I was still holding the umbrella, but if I don't take the umbrella away, I would get wet. Suddenly someone helped me rebuild the umbrella, I stood up and looked at him, then he smiled at me, making me think he knew me.

Strange, I don't remember if I knew him.

I took the umbrella back and said thank you, then quickly got on the bus, and he got on the same bus as me. He wears pure white clothes, walks in the rain but is still pure white without any dirt, such a person entering the bus looks very outstanding.

“Tomorrow I will go to your school as a trainee teacher.” He says.

I didn't answer, thinking he was on the phone yet not talking to me, but his voice really sounded familiar, I just couldn't remember where I'd heard it before.

Suddenly he lowered his head to look directly at my face, his hand dangling in the air, umm, so I looked away. I thought I'd get in trouble if I talked to him, but he pressed his forehead with his index finger, and my face immediately took on an annoyed and wary look.

Because it's a crowded place, I can't talk, so I can only glare at him.

He said again, "I'm talking to you, do you hear me?"

I sighed and chose to ignore him, only a few more minutes until I could get out of the car. It's just that I was wrong to think that I would be peaceful by doing this, my palm was stuffed with something, I was startled when I picked it up and looked, it was a small porcelain vase.

The pattern on this porcelain vase, I remember, is the same as the potion that a man named Sivia used to apply to my wounds. Perhaps this is a fairly common type of porcelain potion that I don't know about, and I don't think much of it, I do as he says and takes it.

So we were silent the whole way.

When I got off the car, I didn't hesitate to throw the small porcelain bottle away, then walked to the hospital. It's still raining heavily right now, but there's no wind, so it's much more comfortable for me to walk… Suddenly, I realize a rather important problem, that is, I just threw that porcelain vase right in front of him, even if it's not mine.

Maybe I really have a mental problem. As usual, I would never do something so rude.

Most of all, I worry that I will gradually become carefree, breaking all the rules that I have set for myself.

Well, now that I'm aware it's not that serious, my immediate job is to visit Sana, and I also want to ask for her phone number.

But it seems I came at the wrong time.

James saw me and frowned, ran to the door to block my way, and didn't forget to close the door so I couldn't see Sana inside.

“I told you not to come near Sana!” James whispered to me as if he was afraid that Sana would hear.

I stayed silent as he dragged me away, feeling rather uneasy when I kept trying to get close to Sana. But how can I do it, everyone from my family to my classmates, all look down on me or don't care about me, now I can only feel at peace when I'm with Sana stop.

If I'm not with Sana, then I have to be alone forever?

James mentioned hoarseness, but I didn't respond, so he finished with one sentence: "In general, you are a comet, please don't come near Sana anymore."