One day

Chapter 21

I'm Sen, one day I learned something new.

It is learning to suppress all emotions in all situations. This skill I discovered when I overheard Sana's conversation with James.

If it were me from before, of course, I wouldn't have eavesdropped on them, but then not now. I'm not in my comfort zone right now, everything makes me feel suspicious, even Sana slowly makes me lose trust in her.

I'm so mean, I don't know why I've become such a person.

I finally figured it all out, and why James said it wouldn't be beneficial for me to be friends with Sana. Strictly speaking, I might be harmed because Sana, whom I most desire to be friends with intends to take advantage of me.

She is doing dangerous jobs and needs a normal person like me to support her, for example when she is being chased she will come to me for example, if I help her she will avoid momentary trouble, at the cost of which I was prone to trouble.

Those words were what I heard James say, and Sana only said one sentence to James: "You don't need to worry." then hang up.

She doesn't deny it.

Anyway, I already confirmed what I needed to know, Sana doesn't consider me a friend. Now I just have to shoulder my responsibility for inadvertently harming her.

After all, that morning it was true that the thugs came to my house, maybe because Sana didn't notice, she accidentally opened the door for them to enter my house, she must have had to fight back very fiercely can escape.

If it were me, I would be with God right now, not in a hospital.

Anyway, thank God for letting Sana's people come to pick her up in time, if she had stayed, she might have been taken away by the police because she had done a lot of illegal things so far. I don't know exactly what those things are, but James said it so it couldn't be wrong.

Furthermore, the man I mistakenly contacted last time was looking for Sana… Maybe she will continue to be in danger because of my thoughtless actions, I need to notify her.

But the immediate dilemma was that I had to get rid of Lilith's control.

She attached too many GPS devices to me, almost all the things I could take with me when I went out. 

I've been absent from school for three days this week, if I miss again, the school will contact my parents- but if I don't take advantage of Lilith's time to go to school to find Sana, I won't have another chance.

By now I can roughly guess what Lilith's purpose in spying on me was. She has earned the absolute trust of my parents, and now that her target is myself, Lilith wants me to be completely controlled from all sides.

Sometimes I even think Lilith did something shady like hypnotizing me, otherwise, why is she the only person I see in my dreams?

I heard that Lilith had been abroad for a long time, so her living style was different, and the way she cared about others was the same, so I decided to deal with her again when she used it as a way to "take care" of me.

I don't care what culture she lives in, but when she's in this place, it's up to the rules of the place. Spying on others is a perverted act, it will send her to jail because she was eighteen years old.

Thinking about this, I discovered my advantage, that I am not old enough for the law to apply law to me. Also, Lilith was so innocently invading my privacy, so I can do the same to her.

But what I didn't take into account was that Lilith, except when talking to us she used a completely different language to take notes or make phone calls, moreover this language I couldn't use the phone to translate.

I've seen it before so I think it's some kind of language from an Asian country, translating it shouldn't be difficult, but even if I use everything I can't know the name of that language.

I had no choice but to try to remember where I'd seen the language before, only to be able to translate all the information in Lilith's phone or personal notebook.

"What are you doing?!" Lilith suddenly entered the room, exclaiming in surprise.

What am I doing? Of course, I took notes in my book from her notebook, what's to be surprised about if I don't look the same her as when she rummages through my things?

Lilith hastily retrieved the notebook, glaring at me warily.

I said, "I was absent from school a few days ago, so I didn't have time to take notes, so I borrowed your book for a bit. Are you so stingy that you can't lend me a little to copy?"

“What nonsense are you talking about? I was a class above you, you wouldn't understand these even if you copied them!"

I casually replied, "It's okay, I've learned it."

The first time I saw Lilith panicking like now, did I copy her secret?

Lilith carefully put the book in her suitcase, turned around to tear my book: "Tear it, you won't understand, don't keep it."

Lilith's mistake was to make me tear it up because the more she said that, the more I wanted to keep the papers, then find out what she wrote. Maybe by then, I'll know Lilith's secret again and she won't be able to control me.

“I thought this was another language in the school curriculum,” I avoid Lilith's grasp, said to her: "It's okay, if I don't understand I will learn it gradually, later I can use it to learn the culture of your country."

Lilith of course did not accept this reason, she insisted on taking the paper in my hand, leading to a fight between the two of us. Her movements are really fast, but I can't let her achieve her goal, this paper is the immediate hope that can help me get rid of Lilith's control!

My hair was pulled hard, my head was buzzing like it was about to split, so I had to pull her hair too. I didn't think it could turn this bad before, we were almost fighting, my rib wound was hard to heal, now it's starting to hurt from a kick from her up.

I fell on my back to the ground, my head hitting the edge of the chair, and in the end, the piece of paper was taken away by Lilith. I'm useless, obviously, it's my paper but I still let Lilith take it, and there is a high chance that in the future everything that belongs to me will change hands, becoming her loot.

And the worst doesn't stop here. My parents heard the noise and ran upstairs to my room, what caught their eyes was the sight of me vomiting blood. I was really scared by this vomiting blood because there was no way a single kick could cause such internal damage.

I don't feel too much pain, so I can't understand what's going on with my body!

Obviously recently my body is getting better, the feeling of fatigue and sadness has decreased a lot so I can live normally and eat a full meal. And just a small fight to make all things back to zero again.

I trembled as I wiped the blood from the corner of my mouth, hoping I was just accidentally biting my tongue. Because my mouth is numb, I can't feel the pain, the more blood comes out I can't feel it.

I ended up in the hospital and was diagnosed with the same problem that the thug had- it's internal bleeding. Moreover, he hasn't been discharged yet so I have to share the hospital room with him... I never expected this.

I told my dad to let me change rooms, he agreed because he wanted me to have my own space during my recovery, but the doctor didn't agree. 

This room is the only room in the hospital that has full equipment to treat my body, I can't move to another room until I fully recover.

So I can only pray for him to get well soon and disappear from my sight.

As for the fact that he wants to take revenge on me, I don't worry too much, because he failed twice, so if it happens again, he will continue to fail.

I'm too used to the troubles that happen to me.

What troubled me was the punishment Lilith had to receive. My parents burned her notebook, which included mine, of course, then warned her never to write such nonsense in their house.

Lilith came to visit and told me everything, I could only apologize to her. Part of me also thought she was lying, since my parents have never been so strict, it's even more unlikely that they would be strict with Lilith...

Ah, that's right, how could I forget those things, everyone around me is changing, I purposely don't realize it so how can I say that I understand them.

Lilith looked like she had lost all her vitality, maybe being with me was also a bad thing for her. But fortunately, that won't happen again, Lilith has already been moved to another room by my parents, from now on I will be able to return to my own room.

But I wondered if I should accuse Lilith of spying on me at this point because now was the perfect time to do so, it's just that Lilith looked really sad so I didn't dare say anything. Pushing others to the end is also not my criterion, it is taboo, it only brings harm but no benefit.

And since then Lilith has only visited me once.

I guess she's mad at me, so now she doesn't pay any attention to me. That is both harmful and beneficial, the advantage is that I will not be bothered by her, the harm is that I will have to stay in the hospital to face the thug all day.

After all, I wanted to say many things to him, I couldn't hide forever. But he doesn't think like me, every time I start a conversation with him, he pretends not to hear.

That's fine, it seems that all his anger towards me has subsided somewhat.

“What are you hiding from?” I coldly told him.

He was located a few meters away from me so there was no way he wouldn't hear my question, the only reason he didn't answer was that he didn't want to answer. After a few days like that, I got used to it, ignored him, and continued talking on my own.