Never too late: a lesson learns from a rejection.

Chapter 07: The Decision

Lucy’s P.O.V

After Lily went to school. I made it to the kitchen and prepared a Jasmine tea, which always helped me to calm my nerves. The pain was unbearable like I was carrying the weight of the earth on my shoulders. 

I did not realize that I have finished the tea without even my knowing.  I saw the breakfast, which prepared by my lovely sister’s hand, on the kitchen table. I tried to have some, but my appetite was nowhere found. I could feel that my wolf was in pain, but I did not know what to do to her to calm her down.

I went to check on my mother, who was staring at the window at the time. As usual, she did not make any move or sound. I walked toward her and took her hands. At that very moment, I broke down on her lap. I cried God knows for how long. I cried for my life. I cried for my father. I cried for my mother. I cried for my sister. I cried for my pathetic mate and finally I cried for myself. Even though, she could not respond, I told her everything that happened last night, who he is, his use of me, his rejection, his reasons for rejection. After that, it felt like a huge weight was lifted away from my shoulder. Even though, she did not comfort me, I felt somewhat easy. I felt neither sad nor happy.

I told and promised myself in front of my mother. “I have been through worse. My father died. My mother is paralyzed. I had to give up my dreams.  But here I am, still in one piece taking care of my family the best I can. Mature than most of them in my youth. I knew that he would not accept me as his mate. I knew that he would reject me, but I gave it a try like I always do. It did not work, but I do not have to linger on that. I will give him one week if he wants to change his action and come to my life. It is my last chance. If not, I will accept his rejection and move on, like I always do. I am a strong woman. I will find someone who values me, who loves me, who takes care of me”.

“Chandra, are you okay?” I asked my wolf, but she did not reply

“Chandra…”

“I am fine Lucy, but like you were, I was in much pain and anger. I forced and prepared you for our mate. I am really sorry about that”.

“Do not be Chandra”.

“Listening to your thoughts, I realized that you are right. He put both of us in so much pain. I am with you Lucy. We will do whatever needs to be done”.

“Thank you, Chandra”.

“You do not have to thank me. We are one. We stand for each other. I am sad but I need you the most and I will support you, through both good and evil times.”

With that, I stood up and kissed my mother's forehead. 

My lost appetite came back. I finished breakfast Lily prepared and started my day. I finished all physical exercises doctors and physiotherapists advised us to do with my mother, in order to prevent further muscular atrophies. I fed her and gave her medicines. When she was taking her nap, I attended to my online course. I have already finished a few courses in these past few months, which will help me to find a good stable job in an office.

After that, I prepared our lunch. My sister came home early as she told me. Like me, she was the brightest student in her age. All the town knew that situation we were facing. So, the school always gave her permissions to come home early when she needed, without going through the whole procedure of investigations.

“How are you, big sis? What happened last night? I was dead worried and could not sleep for a second? Do you want to talk about it?” My sister jumped to me soon after she saw me in the kitchen.

“I will tell you everything. Just take a wash. We will have our lunch together and then I will tell you”. Without arguing she went to her room and came down after 20 minutes.

Because of my working schedule, we rarely got time to eat together. We both set the table together and had our lunch. To easy our moods, she told me some fun random things that happened during her classes. Lily is a very patient girl. She always takes her time and waits for the right moment to ask questions. I am happy for those qualities of her. It makes things easier between us. Once we finished our dishes, she prepared some tea for both of us. After checking our mom, we went to the garden, holding our teacups.

“Care to tell me what happened”. She asked.

“I found my mate last night.”

“But you do not seem to be happy. Who is he and what happened with him?”

“He is Jack. Jack Hawlok”.

“The famous playboy of all the time?”

“Yes, that is him”.

“Did he reject you? What happened?”. Even though she is a human, she knew everything about werewolves like I did. My father taught both of us together. She even wants to be a mate to a werewolf, like my mom to my dad.

“Yes, he did”

“I am really sorry sister”

“Don’t be”. Then I told her everything that happened last night. Surprisingly, I did not cry during or after I told her the story. I realized that I am much stronger than I thought I was.

“That bastard…”

“Watch your language little sister” I told her in a restricted tone.  

“I don't care sis. I…, we do not want to polite to him. He does not deserve that”. I did not argue with her on that more.

“I thought that bonds between mates are scared”.

“They are scared sis, but he did not want to accept it. You have seen what it was like between mom and dad”

“Well…, he is a fool then. He does not know what he is going to miss. You are an amazing person sister. You are the best sister anyone can ask for. You are the best daughter any parents want to have.  You will be the best partner anyone wishes for.”

“Thank you, sweetie.”

“So, what are you gonna do? Are you going to accept the rejection and move one”?

“Well, I thought about that. I did not want to rush on it and regret my decision later. So, I decided that I will give him a week. In case, if he changes his mind about his rejection, he will still have time to fix it, to take it back. Otherwise, I will accept the rejection and move on. In that case, I will not have superpositions to worry about later in my life.”.

“Hmm… I can understand you, but honestly he does not deserve it. I support your decision, for your sake, not his”.

“I am doing this to myself sis. I do not want to regret late in my life about some silly decisions I made in my youth, because of my anger and my sadness. Do you remember father? He always said that we need to think of our long-term runs. We should avoid anything that we will regret later on. We both already have many regrets in our buckets. I do not want to add one more to mine.”

We hugged each other for a while, and I got ready to go to work.