Never too late: a lesson learns from a rejection.

Chapter 06: Rejection

Jack’s P.O.V

It was around 6.00 AM when I got up the next day in the morning. I stared at her beautiful, calm and innocent face for a while and sneaked out into the bathroom. I could see how hard she was working, so I did not want to disturb her sleep. I took a quick shower and went down to take a coffee. I took the coffee at the lobby downstairs. My mind went thinking about her.

“I told you she is amazing. She will be a perfect mate for us. She knows how to take care. She knows how to give”. Xander told in my head.

I did not reply.

“She is indeed a perfect mate, will make a lovely wife and a mother. She is innocent, kind, and caring. She is everything someone looks in an ever-loving partner. She is the definition of that. Do I really want her?” I thought to myself.

“Of course, you do. What else do you want more?” Xander again. I ignored him.

“But I do not want that. I am not ready to commit myself to a single woman. I do not want to end up like my dad or my brothers. I want to fully enjoy myself. I am not ready to restrict myself to a single woman. Why would I? I am not like others. Girls are all over me. The whole world is in my hand. What else I want? It is not worth to just commit myself for this single girl. She is indeed a good girl and also a good f**k, but I cannot.” I thought to myself.

“But she is your mate. Do you really think that those things will matter to you always in the long run? Don’t you want to start a family? Are you going to throw away our future that you have in your hand right now for something not certain and trashy? Xander told me. I can feel that he is burning in anger. I somehow felt that whatever he was telling me was the truth. 

“Yes, I would. I will never miss her”.

“She knows you are a playboy. She knows you are a d**k, but still she trusted you, trusted the mate bond between us, and gave her innocent to you. Is this how you going to repay her?”. My wolf again, burning in anger. I knew that if Xander was a separate person, he would beat the crap out of me. 

“She had her fun. I had my fun. You had your fun. I did not do it without her consent. We did it mutually. I did not tell her anything about keeping her.”

“But also, you did not tell her that you want to reject her either”

“That is enough. I do not want to hear more. I will reject her. She will find her own way and I will have mine. Either you can help me or just leave me alone.” I was angry at Xander.

I took another coffee for her and went back to the room. She was not in the bed. I placed the coffee on the bed stand and waited for her. She came out of the bathroom.

“Hi, Good morning jack”. She told me. She looked content. I felt bad doing this to her, but I had to get over with her soon, the sooner the better.

“Hi Lucy. How are you? Did you have fun last night?” I asked her. I saw she was looking at her feet from her shyness.

“I am doing good. Yes, I did. How about you?”

“Me too, but we cannot do this Lucy. I cannot do this”. She was shocked.

“But why? I thought that we were meant to be together. Last night felt like we knew each other for ages. Did you not feel the same way?”

“Yes, I did, but it does not mean that we have to be together for the whole lifetime. It was fun. You had yours and I had mine. It was just s*x between us. Nothing more. I even do not like you”. I lied. I obviously like her. She was lost for words.

“We can figure it out together. At least we can try. You are my mate.”. She said. I can fell the sadness and hurt in her words.

“But I do not want to. Don’t get me wrong. You are a good girl and a good f**k. You will make a wonderful partner, but I do not want to commit myself to a single person. I do want to live my life fullest as possible. I do want to enjoy myself anyway I can. It involves a lot of women. Do you think you can give me that?”

“No, but”

“But what Lucy? You see. Here the problem is with me. I will never satisfy myself with just you”.

“Still…”

“No Lucy, I cannot. Even though I want, I cannot take you as my mate. You are an outcast. The girl we used to joke around. Can you imagine the situation you will put me through? I am sorry I have to say this, but I do not want to humiliate myself in front of my pack, my family and my friend. My pack will never accept you. I am a pack warrior”. I can see tears were forming in her eyes. I hate the sight of her crying, but I had to hit harder. Otherwise, she will never accept the rejection and move on.  

“I trusted you and gave you my innocent. Do it mean nothing to you?” I could see the anger in her voice.

“I never asked you for that. You gave it to me willingly. Remember?  No, it was nice, but I cannot continue further.” She was trying to hold her tears and anger.

“Either you have to accept my rejection and move on or you can dwell on that. I really do not care. You may take this mate thing seriously, but I do not”. She said nothing. I could sense my wolf is burning in anger. If he was a separate person, he would snip my neck on this right spot to protect her mate. It will be hard, but he will come around. He has no other choices. He has to respect my decision and move on.

“I, Jack William Hawlok, youngest son of the beta of Moon Diamond Pack, reject Lucy Caroline Madison, as my mate”. I told those words I have been preparing from yesterday. She could not hold her tears back. I realized she needed some time alone.

So, I prepared myself to leave. At the door, I took another look at her for the last time.

“I have paid for the room. You don’t need to worry about that”. I lied to her. I did not want her to come searching for me again. It also gave her the implication that she was no different from other girls I slept before. With that I closed that door and left, without looking at her.

“You will soon gonna regret this very badly”. Xander said angrily and madly. I did not take the time to respond to him.

I came to the packhouse. I could not concentrate on anything. My mind ran again and again to that moment. My wolf did not come to talk to me. I could sense him. He was very angry and mad at me. I will let time heal things. I was amazed at how this innocent girl could do this much emotional disturbance in me. I spent the whole day in the training hall beating around. At night I hanged around with my friend and went to the club. I just wanted her to accept my rejection and moved on with her life. I also wanted to show her that she still meant nothing to me.

Lucy’s P.O.V

I woke up in the morning, after having the best night of my life. The feeling incinerated in the next couple of minutes and replaced with the anger and sadness, realizing that I did the worst mistake of my life.  

 When I woke up, Jack was not there on the bed with me, but his things were around. So, I knew that he went out. I got up from the bed and took a shower. I was feeling happy. I thought that I would have a relationship like my parent used to have, with Jack. Jack was sweet, caring, and loving. Every negative thing I built up around him vanished last night, but I did not know that this happiness was a fake act and not gonna last as I anticipated.

 After I came back from the shower, I had the conversion with Jack I thought I would never have with him, after yesterday. He rejected me.

  “I, Jack William Hawlok, youngest son of the beta of Moon Diamond Pack, reject Lucy Caroline Madison, as my mate”

I was in complete shock. Nothing came into my mind. He walked toward the door.

“I have paid for the room. You don’t need to worry about that”. He casually slipped those words, not even wasting time to look at me and left.  

I was alone in the hotel room. I was angry and sad, mainly not because he rejected me. My own mate f*****g used me as one of his many girls. I felt used, disgusted. I could sense that Chandra was in extreme pain. I could not comfort her. I had my own emotions to deal with.

I was a fool to believe those beautiful words of him. Whom I was kidding, he was Jack. The well-known playboy in the area.  I am just an outcasted she-wolf with no pack. I somewhat understood his reasoning. If he rejected me in the first place, it would not make this much pain in my heart, but instead, I just used me. He just f*****g used me. He just used the damn mating bond to take my innocence. The feeling I got from that really hurt. It was unbearable.  It made me angry and disgusted toward him, toward all men. Whatever sweet things I thought about him in the morning, evaporated at that very same moment he rejected me.

I knew from my first instinct that he was gonna reject me. I went against it. I knew Chandra was the one who encouraged me to go with the flow. I did not want to blame her. She just wanted to be with her mate. 

I cried; God knows for how long. I came back to reality when I heard my phone was ringing. I answered it without checking who it was.

“Where are you sis? Are you alright? Are you in trouble? It is getting late”. My sister told me.

“I am on my way home. I will explain things later”. I told her and cut the call. It was really late. My sister had to go to school. I washed my face, took my things, and left the room. I took a taxi home. I knew that it was really late for my sister to go to school. I asked the taxi to wait and go inside.

“What happened sis? Are you alright?”.

“I will explain things later. Now go to school. I will tell you everything once we are home together”.

“I am coming home early today”. My sister said. I nodded and took her to the taxi. I gave her the money needed to pay for the taxi.

“Take care, my sweetie. Study hard. Do not think too much. Goodbye”. I told her.

We kissed each other’s’ chicks and waved hands.