Luckily I fell asleep quickly that night. Somehow I never had any insomnia issues, no matter how disturbed I was. I always fall asleep, no matter what. It was the same case. Despite the new place and a man who made me precipitate with anxiety beside me, I fell asleep.
But the next day was not so lucky. I had to face the 'how-was-your-first-night' looks and sly glances all day the next day. No one dared to ask me directly, but everyone had the same question on their face, 'did you consummate your marriage and how it was?'
I just had to look down and make a blushing face. Somehow after the sixteenth time, I faced this question, the blushing came naturally.
Shiva was whisked away by his cousins and friends who gave me time to get to know his family in peace.
So, Shiva's father is a politician and his mom is a housewife c*m social worker. He has two younger siblings - a brother and a sister. His brother, though younger to him by a couple of years is going to be his father's successor in politics whereas his sister is yet to get married to some NRI.
Apart from all these people it was his grandparents whom I liked the most. They were the coolest grandparents ever. Unlike the other relatives, they actually gifted me a one-piece knee-length Gucci dress along with the diamond set. They live in the village but often go to the US and Canada to visit their kids who have settled in these two respective countries. Last time when they visited Canada, they liked this burgundy off shoulder dress and bought it for their soon-to-be-wife of their beloved grandchild Shiva, which is me. And the best part of it all, it's of my size. I couldn't control the smile on my face.
I instantly fell in love with them and also felt sad when they had to leave.
"You will meet them again," Shiva said from beside me, "don't worry". Was my face that readable? I wasn't planning on hiding it though.
His words of encouragement though didn't make a huge difference, they felt different. Good different. I don't know how else to describe it.
Will things change now? Have they already changed? I have never been clueless before. And now it doesn't feel great to be.