Chapter 2

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2 When I woke, I rolled over and wasn’t surprised to see Jesse beside me. Images of the night flashed in my head as I relived the erotic moments. There was a bittersweet taste in my mouth. I couldn’t stop myself from looking at his back. He was turned away from me with his arms bunched around the pillow under his head. He was on his stomach and I could see the sculpture he had created over the last year. He’d been ripped before, but he was defined, molded, and a piece of art now. I sighed and wet my lips. The night had been one big blur of blind primal need. A carnal lust took over when I was near him, and that was the problem. Jesse hated me. He needed me on the nights when neither of us could escape Ethan’s ghost, but the next morning would be another story. As he stirred, I hurried out of the bed and dressed. When I couldn’t find my shirt, I spied a sweatshirt on the chair and grabbed it. “What the f**k are you doing?” The savagery in his voice stilled my hand for just a second. Then I turned around as I pulled the sweatshirt over my head and gulped. He sat on the edge of the bed with clear hate in his eyes. “What?” The small hope I’d had for morning pleasantries, maybe more, died inside. I looked away as I felt tears coming. I shoved them down, deep down, and hardened inside as I looked back. He still glared at me, but the loathing had been blanketed. Slightly. He gestured to the sweatshirt. “That’s mine. You can’t have it.” “Are you serious? I don’t know where my shirt is. I need a shirt.” He rolled his eyes and stood. His stomach muscles contracted from the movement, and his arms bulged for a moment before then went back to his lean build. Then he disappeared into his closet. He came out a second later with a different sweatshirt in hand and threw it at me. “You can keep this one.” It was white with a green four-leaf clover on the front. “How generous.” He flashed a smirk and rolled his shoulders back. “Whatever. Go in your bra for all I care.” He stuffed the other sweatshirt in a ball and tossed it across the room. When it landed on the bed, I gasped as I saw the front for the first time. I launched for it. He caught my wrists in his. “That’s my brother’s! I want it.” My body was pressed against his as I strained for the shirt behind him, but he held my hands above my head and nudged me backward with his hips. “No!” He kept going with his head down. I tensed as I felt his lips skim my shoulder, and then I realized I was against a wall. Body aligned with mine, he leaned closer. His hips pressed against mine, his chest was against mine. Slowly, my hands separated, and he slid them down against the wall. They curved behind me with him still holding on to them. I breathed deeply. I was trying to calm down, which was useless. His lips softly touched my shoulder again. His hand curved over my waist, skimmed up my arm, and cupped the side of my face. He tilted my chin so I was forced to look at him and then sighed. His pain was evident. It shimmered on the surface, but he shook his head. He rasped out, “I’m keeping it.” My eyes clasped shut. “I’m sorry. I really am.” I felt his coldness before he stepped back. He had already retreated behind a wall. I looked up but wasn’t surprised when there was no emotion on his face. The moments when he allowed me in were fleeting. I wondered when he would stop altogether. “Do you need a ride to your car?” My voice was hoarse. “I’ll call a buddy.” I jerked my head in a nod. We were done. Our needs had been scratched for the night. As I left, an empty feeling filled me once more. I knew it would stay there until Ethan’s birthday, when Jesse would let me in once again. The mansion was just as I remembered it. Dark and cold. There were paintings on the walls, all of them in dark colors. A few sculptures had been placed in corners, but none of them were happy. All of them seemed sad and depressed. It wasn’t until I was almost to the front door that I realized none of the windows were open. All the curtains were pulled shut. It was as if the sunlight wasn’t allowed inside. When I left the front door and saw my car in the open garage, I suppressed a shiver. Jesse’s home was big, cold, and empty. I now understood why he lived with us most of the time since seventh grade until last year. His mother had died when he was in eighth grade, but I never considered what his home had been like. The few times I heard him mention his father, he never referred to him as Dad, just ‘the dick.’ When I drew close to my car and opened the door, I saw the cars lined up beside it. A Lamborghini, a Porsche, another Ferrari. Jesse only drove his black Ferrari, so those must be his father’s. My dad drove a Sable. Something told me our fathers were very different. My phone beeped, and I knew it was my alarm without having to look. I had to be at work within the hour. As I got home and rushed inside, my mom was in the kitchen. The aroma of coffee filled the air, and I heard the coffee maker still brewing. Before I slipped upstairs, I peeked around the corner. My mom still had her robe on, and she stood at the sink with a cup of coffee in her hand. I knew without seeing her face there was a blank stare in her eyes. It had been there for a year. As I watched, her head dropped down, her shoulders sagged, and she placed the mug to the side. A disgusted sigh came from her before she reached inside a bottom cabinet and poured something in her coffee. It wasn’t creamer. That empty feeling doubled inside me. I went to my room. My arms and legs were numb, but I tried to shower and dress in a hurry. When I went back down the stairs, my mom was still at the sink. Her mug was raised back to her lips. When I went outside and looked through the window, I knew I was right. A blank stare was on her face. I raised my hand to her, but there was no reaction. Her eyes never blinked. She never wavered in her stance. So I left. When I got to the food court in the mall, I slipped underneath the counter at the coffee shop. Ben pivoted at my abrupt arrival and had an eyebrow arched high before I even met his gaze. I cringed at the curiosity in them and steeled myself. “What?” His mouth gaped open at me for a second before he snapped it shut in a dramatic fashion. Then he pointed over my shoulder. “Your BFF is here with all his godly basketball buddies.” Then he gestured toward the trendy clothes shop closest across from us. “And I think Casey and her winos are going to move in for the kill.” I cringed again at the sarcastic pleasure he laced each of his words with. “Sometimes, Ben, you’re too interested in everyone else.” He shuddered and clasped a hand to his heart. “I cannot believe you would dare say such a thing.” I rolled my eyes and filled a coffee for myself. He groaned as I put the lid on and sipped it. “How you drink that without sugar or cream is beyond me. It’s foul, Alexandra. Foul, I say!” I was about to respond when a customer approached our Coffee Hut, and I took care of her order. A steady line formed after that. It was an hour later before I was able to drink my own coffee. Ben reached over me for a lid as he handed the last order away, but then he checked me with his hip. “He’s still there. And he keeps looking over here.” I knew who Ben was referring to. He was under the same assumption as Angie that Jesse and I were meant to be. We weren’t. Obviously. Yet, I couldn’t help but to look over, and when I did, I was captivated by him. His friends were laughing around him, but Jesse stared straight at me. I sighed and looked down. I couldn’t handle him, not now, not after last night and how he basically threw me out this morning. Ben gasped and then he bent close to my ear before he hissed, “He’s coming over here.” And he was. A few of his friends glanced over, but no one stopped him. They went back to their stories or lounging in a cool way, the stance that jocks perfected long ago. His jeans rode low on his hips, but he had a simple black shirt on. It didn’t matter how simple his clothes were. He always looked beautiful. My stomach crumbled and shattered into pieces as I admitted that last thought, but then he was almost at the Coffee Hut. “Hi, Jesse!” Casey stopped in front of him. Her hands were poised on her hips, which were prominent under skin-tight white jeans and a pink top that fit like a second skin. She flipped her platinum blonde hair over one shoulder and laughed in a flirtatious manner. Her friends gathered behind her. All of them looked just like her, and Ben had once whispered that he thought their secret mission was to copy the leader until they took her down. When I caught a few of their hungry gazes, I wondered if it were true. If they waited in line until it was their turn to be the leader. When that happened, what guy would they go after? Ben hissed again beside me. “Succubi. They’re all succubi.” I nudged him as one of the girls flashed us a dark look. “If they are, you don’t want to take on a demonic beauty queen.” He shifted to the side and lowered his voice. “That’s true, very true.” Jesse had moved around Casey, and she followed behind him. As he neared the Coffee Hut, she looked up. The light in her eyes dimmed and her smile slipped. “Oh. Hi, Alex.” I gave her a polite smile but gritted my teeth on the inside. “Hi, Casey.” “How are Angie and Justin doing? I heard they had a fight last night.” My eyes narrowed at her. “If they did, I’m sure they’ve made up by now. You know how those two are, always hot together.” She snorted and flipped her hair back again. “Whatever. They’re not going to last. Justin was with me before. Everyone remembers the two of us. We were the perfect couple.” The corner of Jesse’s lips twitched, and I knew what he was thinking. My eyebrow arched. “Then why’d you throw yourself at my brother?” Casey’s smirk vanished, and her eyes grew heated. “Your brother was a good guy. And he shouldn’t have been with that ditzy airhead. I was doing him a favor when I broke them up.” “And when you dropped Justin, your perfect boyfriend, at the same time?” Her fury blasted me, and she slapped a hand down on the counter. “Hear this, Alexandra Connors. I’ve always liked you and I will always have a special place in my heart for Ethan, but if you piss me off, you will have me as an enemy.” I held my breath. I didn’t care about anything Casey threatened, but I couldn’t look away from Jesse. He had been amused at the beginning, but a wall slipped down again. The same blank mask was in place, but he reached forward and removed Casey’s hand from the counter. Then he moved to stand in front of her with his back to the Coffee Hut. Her eyes snapped to his, but the slight delight that sparked drained along with the blood in her face. She grew pale and backed away. His voice was soft. “I think you should leave.” A chill went down my spine. He was quiet, but there was a lethal undertone to his voice. Casey reacted to it. Everyone reacted to it, even Ben, whose eyes widened as he backed against the farthest corner we had. His hands shook, but he pressed them behind him and turned away. I caught the blush on his chubby cheeks and grinned. Then I turned and my smile left. Jesse placed my shirt on the counter. He lifted dead eyes to me. “I found it.” “Thanks.” A few of Casey’s friends arched their necks to see what he had put on the counter, so I snagged it quickly and stuffed it underneath the counter. I knew my own cheeks were red, and I looked away. “Did you want something else?” I couldn’t look. I shouldn’t have been embarrassed, but I couldn’t help it. He had returned my top in a public setting, at my job, at the mall. I groaned as I heard Ben’s sharp intake of breath, but then I noticed the lack of response from Jesse and looked back. He was gone. He was already at his table with his friends. “That. Was. Awesome!” Ben breathed out and jumped to my side. He sounded so excited, but the embarrassment was gone for me. Oh, no. Instead, I kicked myself. I should’ve known he wasn’t coming over to chat with me or see how I was. He found my shirt. Of course, that was the only reason he came over. I felt the onslaught of a few tears. Hell no. I wasn’t going to cry over him. He didn’t deserve it, and I knew that whatever twisted tradition we had on the days that celebrated Ethan’s birth and death was done. As I watched him stand with his friends, I knew I couldn’t allow it to happen again. He didn’t give me a second look. He walked out as if we were strangers again, which we were. And I couldn’t forget it, even though I knew I was in love with Jesse Hunt. I always had been.
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