Chapter 25: Not The Same PersonThat I Know I Love
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Rudra
It's been a week since Rani has woken up and moved her to my bedroom so she can be more comfortable. She hasn't been herself lately. She hasn't been eating or drinking and hasn't spoken a single word during that time. She hasn't even drank any blood neither. The nurses has been cleaning Rani's wounds and changing her bandges twice a day. The blackness from Rani's veins has started to fade away however, she has been healing slowly for my liking. The doctor said it will be a slow process cause of the poison affected her healing ability and will heal like a human; so it could be weeks or months until she recover fully. It also doesn't help that she ain't eating, drinking and not taking blood. I haven't left her side for a single second and taking g care of her.
Everyday I've tried to courage Rani to eat or drink but she hasn't budged. I'm worried about her. This is not my Rani that I know I love. Yes she's here but as same time she's not. She just empty shell of a person. There's no life nor a soul. She doesn't sleep but if she does then she has nightmares; screaming and slashing about in her sleep. Always in a visious cycle. I try to comfort her to the best of my abilities but it has little affect. During the week I haven't felt her wolf or her demon. My dragon and my wolf mourn for their mate. They tried many times to reach for their mate but they got nothing. So now they stay back of my mind, whimpering and feeling remorse. I don't blame them. I feel the same thing. When I ask the goddesses to bring Rani back, I didn't expect this; an empty shell of a person. I expect to get my fiery, confidence, loving little demon that I love.
Right now I'm trying to feed her some soup. It's chicken and vegetables soup, her favourite. I put a spoonful of it, blowed it so it won't be too hot for her and put on to her lips but she didn't even attempt to open her mouth to taste it.
"Please eat Rani. It's your favourite, chicken and vegetables soup. Eat a spoonful at least? For me?" I begged but I got nothing. She just stared into space, not looking at me.
"You got to eat something my love. I can't stand to see you like this" I said remorsefully. I still got nothing. There was a knock at the door.
"Enter" I commanded, while I put the bowl of soup on the side bedroom table. The doctor poked her head in.
"Any changes prince Rudra?" The doctor asked softly. I just shook my head. Her face fallen a little. She walked over to Rani and checked her over. She cleaned and changed her badges. She checked the scar on Rani's left eye. It looked a bit better than the first time I saw it. It makes furious and heart broken seeing it. I'll make sure I'll find the people who done this to her and wish that they would never exist in this world. I feel so much regret. If I just listened to my beasts to go back to Rani then ahead wouldn't be like this now. This nobodies fault but my own. I damned myself every day for my stubbornness and should of swallow my pride. I signed feeling hopeless. I just don't know what to do or help. I never felt so useless I my life.
"Rani, honey. Can eat something for me please? just a little bit of food?" Asked the doctor gently but still nothing.
"How about some blood Rani? It will help with your recovery" she asked nicely. Again nothing. She signed.
"I'll check on her later prince Rudra" the doctor said respectfully and giving me apologetic look. I just gave her a small nod to her. She bowed and left the room, closing the door behind her.
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It's been a couple of days and still no improvement. Rani still not eating, drinking and sleeping and still having nightmares when she does go to sleep. Everyday the doctor comes and check on Rani and asking her to eat something but she gets no reply from her. I just don't know what to do to help and bring her back to me. My parents called me in my father's office and they said that they wants me to put her into a asylum. I went berserk and destroyed the whole office. How dare they say that. They had audacity to say such thing to me. I will never do that to her. Over my dead body that would ever happen.
Right now I'm in the bathroom pouring warm water in a bowl to clean Rani with so I don't get her bandges wet. I brought out the bowl of water with a cloth and started cleaning Rani. I cleaned every part of her skin that isn't bandged, making sure I don't hurt her as I'm cleaning. As I was cleaning her I couldn't help but feel guilty for not protecting her when I had the chance. Every scar I see is reminder of my failure. Once I done cleaning her body, I started clean her face. She looked so pale. Her lips were cracked due to dehydration. Her eyes are sunken and has bags underneath them due to lack of sleep and the scar on her left eye looked aggressive. She must of been in so much pain. I cleaned it delicately. She didn't flinched or had any reaction from her. I signed, feeling defeated and useless. What am I going to do? how can I fix this?
"Please say something, my pretty little demon. I don't know what to do. How can I fix this if you don't talk to me?" I whispered to her; lifting her chin so she can looked at me. I just want to hear her angelic voice. Then all of a sudden Rani's lips was parted like she was going to say something to me. She looked at me dead in the eye. I just want to hear her angelic voice. I was thrilled that I got some reaction from her. She might not be much but it was better than nothing. However, what I heard from her that I would never expect to hear from her ever. That shocked me to the very core.
"You Should of let me die"
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