Starting Over

Timothy

Timothy

What the hell is wrong with me? She is 17, 11 years younger than me. When I leaned down to speak to the person within the wall, all I could see was those bright green eyes. She had such a husky voice that it sent a shiver down my back. After the ordeal with Gwen in college, I had lost all interest in relationships. (Yeah, I'm a bit bitter). So why now, 7 years later, I'm attracted to a girl. f**k!!!!

We left after the first bombings to help with the Nationalists. Yes, as a family, we were considered wealthy. Mom was an heiress she was the only child of a prominent businessman. Gramps was a smart old man he had his hands in all the cookie jars. He had only passed away a few months before the s**t it the fan. Dad was part of the businesses he had helped gramps run things till I graduated college. Then they turned everything over to me.

Gwen was my high school sweetheart, and we decided to go to college together. She was from another prominent family in our area. She was beautiful, smart, and a selfish b***h when it came down to facts. When I concentrated on my studies, she concentrated on the college experience. I caught her in bed with of all people my best friend. How cliché is that. Of course, it was my fault because I didn't pay enough attention to her. (Damn I feel so petty, it's been 7 f*****g years) They have been unhappily married now for 6 years and have 3 beautiful kids they are f*****g up.

Everyone thinks I'm a hardass and have no feelings. I'm just really good at turning them off. When we got to the hot zone, it was in complete chaos. Everyone wanted control but was unwilling to make decisions. I stepped up to the plate. My brothers and I knew we needed to plan things out, not just run in circles. So I ended up taking command. I ended up going through the ranks and have become a lt. colonel. When I return, I know I will be promoted again. The self-titled i***t General can't make a decision to save his own ass.

I think back to walking up the road to where our property stood before we left and saw a steel wall. Where the hell did that come from, I think to myself.

Dad was more vocal. "Where the hell did that come from?" He asks no one in particular because we have all been on the front lines for 8 months.

Sergeant Saundra Miller guessed, "It looks like the Muller's have been busy."

We see a person on the wall as a watch out they turn and call out something. A few minutes later anther figure appears. I hear Jeremy and dad call out at the same time, "Momma! Mary!" I am at the gate now when I hear mom scream."Darling, OPEN THE GATE, OPEN THE GATE, ITS MY BABIES"

That's when I hear that husky voice, "Hey, Mary recognizes her boys, my I speak to one please." I lean down about a foot and a half and meet those green eyes

I ask her, "Who are you?"

She said, "That isn't important I need to know that everyone with you is safe to enter." I raise my eyebrow in question

"Oh, really how do we know our mother is safe in there with you. I'm Timothy Mary's oldest." I see the most charming blush start on her cheeks

"I'm Jacquelin Muller from up the road. I need to know that everyone is with you. That you are not being coerced." She states bluntly

"Little Jaq, s**t! your growing up." I'm an i***t "No we are not being coerced in fact half these people are headed to your place. They are part of Franks militia." I tell her she asks for Saundra to verify and opens the gates. Mom catapults into my arms and is hugging and kissing my face repeatedly telling me I'm her baby and she loves me. Moms, what can you do?

I'm struck dumb at how beautiful she has turned out, f**k how old is she now. Her oldest brother is the same age as Bobby. s**t! He's only 22. I see her speaking to Sergent Saundra and then speaks into a radio. She was saying bye to some ladies and heading towards the gate. I have to stop her is the only thing going through my mind. I step up to her, and she is tilting her head back (she is tiny compared to my 6'6")

"You still haven't explained why you are here?" I ask her damn I'm an i***t but I just want to stay close to her.

"They all needed help, so we helped." She shrugs and turns to leave.

"Wait, is that all?" I ask her and can't think of anything else to say. I am really rusty at this s**t, I can't even hold a conversation with a girl. I know I look confused

She turns back and says "Yes, Glad to see you all safe and home. Tell Mary to enjoy her time with you. I'm so happy for her and the other ladies." She turns and runs off, pulling her horse behind her.

"What the hell is happening around here?" I here Dad ask

Mom is still bawling her eyes out but still holding onto dad. Dad finally scoops her into his arms and starts walking towards the house. Mom is a tiny thing also, she's about 5' 3" and dad is 6'4", all of us took after dad's side of the family.

Dad seems to understand what mom is saying even though the 3 of us have no idea. "She said she was lonely and scared. Jaq was giving the ladies lessons on farming and survival. To help them be more self-sufficient. She had a lot of fun the first day. They made the decision to throw their lots in together. Mr. Muller made plans for the wall, and everyone worked on it, even Mary." He was looking at her with all the love he had for her. Pride, he was absolutely proud of her. I was also, but more than that, I was envious. I wanted what they have trust, love, companionship, and need for each other.