Colors Of The Night

Chapter 2 Evidences

Atheya

I can’t sleep tonight, marami ang gumulo sa aking isipan. I decide to check George at home.

"Hello mommy, gusto ko sanang tanungin if nakauwi na ba si George diyan sa bahay? Tanong ko sa mama ni George

Si George? Di naman nakapunta dito, bakit di pa ba nakauwi diyan?" Para wala lang na sagot ni mommy, by her words, its clear that George never gotten in their home.

"Ah ganun ba mom, ang sabi kasi niya diyan muna siya sa inyo uuwi, wala ba siya diyan sa bahay kagabi?

No, di siya nagawi dito matagal na." My heart beat rapidly sa sobrang lakas nito parang mawawalan ako ng hininga.

What does it mean na nagsisinungaling lang si George at ginamit lang niyang alibay ang pamilya niya para makaalis sa poder ko?

"Sige mom, i just call him"; nagpaalam na ako sa kanya. Para akong nanlumo ang sinabi ni mom, what she said is a confirmation na di siya kailanman nagawi dun. Pero last week sinabi na natagalan siya kina mama kasi may handaan, kung bakit inumaga na siya nakauwi.

"Ilang beses mo na ba akong niluluko George, ang sabi mo sa parents ka muna uuwi? Is Leslie right all along na may iba ka ng kinalulukuhang babae? Is she right na nagbulag bulagan lang ako dahil sa pagmamahal ko sayo?" I have hint pero ayaw ko lang tanggapin kasi nasasaktan ako. Kaya ba gusto mo ng makipaghiwalay kasi may iba ka na?

Its only Leslie na pwede kong mapagsabihan kasi kung pamilya namin mas lalaki ang gulo at nahihiya ako. My dad like him baka bigla nalang magbago ang pakikitungo nila sa kanya.

That night umiyak lang ako ng umiyak. Ilang beses na ba ito nangyari, na umaiyak mag-isa and had no one to comfort me? I decide not to work today my eyes is so fluffy, but i go to his work station to ask.

"Oh I’m sorry he is not working today, he called off for 2 days now"; saad ng HR nila. Sunod sunod nalang talagang nagsibagsakan sa akin ang mga palatandaan, but i still refuse to believe.

"Where are you George? You are not working and you’re not at home. Why you have been doing this to me, wala akong alam na maling ginawa ko." I came home na sobrang lata, information are getting into my senses now.

Then i decide to check his social media account to check kung may kakaiba. I cannot search him anymore. What happen? Ang alam ko friends kami but i can’t find it anymore. Di kaya naka-block ako sa kanya kaya i can’t find him? Di ako mahilig sa social media. Faceapp lang ang alam ko at bihira ko lang gamitin or tingnan.

I decide to create new account with different name, it’s a dummy account. I search his name at nakita ko yun, so it confirms nakablock ako sa kanyang account.

"Why you have been doing this to me George? What are your secret that i need to unveil?" Di na ako mapalagay. I look at his profile, nakita ko na in his recent post, all related to his work, somewhere in different places but none of those post speak about us. As i scroll down ang last post niya related sa aming dalawa is yong family together ng kanilang side. I was sitting beside him and that was more than a year ago.

Most couple they have post every now then kaya naiinggit ako kapag may ganun na sweet post kasi ganun kami dati eh but what happen now? I remember two years ago we had celebrated our anniversary and he posted it at nakatag pa sa akin yun. But now i can’t find it anymore, he deleted it. Sumasakit ang puso pati na din ang ulo ko sa mga nalalaman.

His current post this year, may nakita akong isang babae na constant nasa post niya, di man sila magkatabi pero palaging andun. I look at all the comments so katrabaho pala niya ito. I decide to do the investigation. Leslie is right i should investigate, it's time for me to know. Para akong mahihibang sa kakaisip kaya i called Leslie.

"Les, George is not at his parents’ home at i gone to his work place, he is not working and had filed a leave. I saw a certain post in his Faceapp account that a certain woman always appears in his recent post."

"Atheya, sinabihan na kita, yang asawa mo may iba, ayaw mo lang kasing maniwala. It’s clear na, he has all the sign na lalaking nagluluko. Remember i have been there too. Please open your mind. Yang asawa mo has no love for you anymore because he found somebody else."

"What you should be doing now is mag-inbestiga, get some evidence para di ka dehado, you can file a case against him for adultery. Huwag kang magpakatanga ngayon. You're a smart woman, for God sake. Sasamahan kita bukas, we will spy on him."

Kinabukasan nagkita kami ni Leslie, we download George pic and Les ask some George colleague if kilala ba nila ang babae. Di ako nagpapakita kasi kilala na nila ako.

Somebody knew her and we also found out her real name, where she works as she just resign recently.

We had gone to the company where she works and we find out na the girl is also on leave for two days, nagkatinginan kami ni Leslie kasi tumpak. Leslie face says, i told you so.

We search the girls name on Faceapp. We look at her profile, walang mukha ni George pero my post ang babae about pregnancy. When i see it, nagsipatakan ang luha ko. Kaya pala gusto na niyang makipaghiwalay kasi buntis na ang babae, things i can’t give to him.

"See, ano pa ang evidence na gusto mo? Kailangan pa ba talagang makita mo on the act para matauhan ka?" Sermon ni Les sa akin.

"Atheya, nakita mo na ang pagbabago ng asawa mo, you think kahit bumalik siya sayo, bumalik kayo sa dati? He is an asshole and would remain that way. He will always treat you like that Atheya, so move on."

"You are still young and pretty, makakahanap ka pa ng right guy na mamahalin ka. Look at yourself now, you look old and miserable, kaya ka niya ipinagpalit kasi may nakita siya na mas better sayo, mas exciting. Please bring back the old Atheya that i know who's funny, sexy, hot and jolly. Don’t waste your life to someone that is not worth it. Please bring back the old you."

"The best revenge you could have is let him feel like a loser. Meaning you will not go after him, make him feel na di siya kawalan sayo kundi siya ang nawalan ng isang precious gem like you, coz that’s you are."

"Huwag kang manghinayang sa memories niyong dalawa na nawala na. Mas manghiyang ka if you wasted your life on someone that is not worthy. Malay mo your destiny is just there, waiting for you to find out."

"Les, may asawa na ako, maghahanap pa ba ako ng destiny?" Rebut ko sa kanya kasi grabe na ang mga advices niya sa akin at na-appreciate ko lahat yun. I have a great friend.

"Yes kasi di siya ang destiny mo. My gut feeling says, andun lang siya naghihintay tayo and same with me." I wish i could have her mindset, easy going at practical.

When Les goes home, i get our photo album including our wedding pictures. "Di ko akalain na itong lahat na ito na mawawala lang na parang bula, pinaghirapan natin ang bawat detalye ng kasal natin. Ginastusan ng ilang buwang saving plus nagkakautang pa tayo. And now it was just easy for you to say that's not working anymore, na wala na. Just a piece of paper that shows that we are married, with our signature on it and now its take one signature at mawawalan ng bisa yun."

"George ang sakit, di ko alam kung kakayanin ko. I haven't seen you doing the act in front me yet but para ng pinupunit ang puso ko sa sakit, ano pa kung aaminin mo sa akin ang totoo? How can i unloved you when all those years na magkasama tayo, nakatatatak na sa aking isipan na tayo hanggang sa huli?"

I return to work the day after, all day since George got out of our house, wala akong narinig na call or message from him, it’s been like that since last year, when i started seeing his changes.

I tried calling him last night, sinagot niya pero pinagalitan lang ako and i heard a woman voice in the background calling him. With that i know magkasama sila. Tama si Leslie ilang evidence pa ang kailangan ko para matauhan ako? Or i just choose to do it that way coz what i didn't know wouldn’t hurt me.

Days have gone pass and I'm out of life. Walang gana sa buhay, palaging umiiyak. I have so many questions, i question my worth as a woman and as a wife. I lost confidence in my self. It's not easy because that man is my husband who i vowed to love for life.