My Alpha Mate

Sig Sigwald Harold is the second child of a werewolf pack leader. Sig was born when his brother Tor was 1 year old. Sig grows with heavy shoulder pressure, as an alpha dominant and also a white werewolf with extraordinary strength since childhood, Sig has always been the hope of the elders to become the next werewolf leader. Because Tor's older brother is a black werewolf who is considered unfit to be a werewolf leader, Sig is a hope for the elders of the Harold family. Sig has tremendous strength since childhood, because of that the werewolves became afraid and respected him as the next leader. But who knows someone who can be said to be perfect must suffer deep wounds because of his painful love story. Gabriel Bastieer, an male omega who has to accept the harsh reality since the age of 13 years. For the first time in his life he will feel the heat but the heat that should have happened stopped for 7 years. Gabriel could not feel the heat and could not fall in love with anyone. The person who caused it is the person who became his first and last love, his fated mate. A love story between alpha and omega which is a fated mate but circumstances and rejection that make the two separate before even starting a relationship. _ •Sig • As alpha dominant my life is quite tough, my responsibility as one of the dominant alpha in my family is driving me quite crazy. People always have high expectations of me just because I'm a white werewolf and an alpha dominant. I want to avoid responsibility, but that's impossible. I have a brother who is also alpha dominant and his ability as a leader is better than mine, but just because my brother is a black werewolf makes him immediately ignored. Me and him are quite close because we are only one year apart, especially if you could say that my family is very affectionate. My mother and father never discriminated against their children, always loved us so that my brother and I did not feel any hatred or envy. Especially since our younger brother Kin was born. Brother Tor and I really like him and make him our priority and we always spoils him. Since my mother died, Brother Tor has become replacement of our mother and father in the family, indeed my father is still alive, but there were times when my father didn't seem to want to see us and was always busy. I myself do not know for sure whether my father did not want to meet us or what, but since my mother died and we moved to the village, my father rarely came home in a month, Father only came home for 2 or 3 days. That's why for Brother Tor has protected and cherished Kin and me like a father and mother at the same time, especially for Kin who is much younger than me and Brother Tor. When I first entered a rut I was really in torment until brother Tor couldn't see me who couldn't control myself and was tormented by it, there was only one way to stop my rut going crazy, that was mating, not only mating but I had to mate with omega dominant in order to match my pheromone and we should to make a mark too. With various considerations made, I, who was never close to omega for the first time i getting closer to omega. Brother Tor introduced some dominant omega that had clear origins and were suitable for being my partner. I was young back then, I was 15 years old so getting married was impossible. I was left to choose my own partner, since then I always spent my rut with a different omega every time. It's not that I want to do that, to be honest I really want to sleep with only one omega but the circumstances don't allow it. The omega that sleeps with me are all dominant omega, but after the night we slept together, many of them gave up and didn't want to be my partner anymore. Some even got scared when they woke up and immediately left me. That's why I always switched omega, until I met Pear. Pear is a dominant omega who worked as a nurse in the military hospital where I attended school. It was the first time I spent the night with omega of my own choice. Pear is older than me but I'm okay, for me age is not a problem even though Brother Tor warned me not to have a relationship with Pear but I said that I like her. Pear and I dated until I graduated high school and got married after that. Because Pear and I already marked each other, my rut got under control and I didn't go crazy during my rut anymore. But who would have thought the happiness that I thought would forever be destroyed after just a few years. When my daughter Leynn was only 2 years old, Pear met a dominant alpha who also her fated mate. At that moment as if my world was shattered, Pear tried to remove the mark from me. Since then, Pear fled the house repeatedly to meet her fated mate. However Pear is still my omega, she will not be able to relate to any other alpha besides me as well as me who cannot relate to any other omega besides Pear. In front of other people, especially my family, Pear and I looked just as fine as when we loved each other. Even though Pear and I don't love each other anymore, we have to stay there for Leynn, not only Pear who wants to get away from me, I also want to get away from her but I want to keep everything for Leynn's sake. I was fed up with everything, I was hurt because Pear, who previously always said that she love me, easily turned away just because she met her fated mate and after that Pear wanted to leave Leynn. Even before Pear and I got married, I also met my fated mate but I was already committed to Pear so I tried my hardest not to look into my fated mate. Luckily, at that time, my fated mate were still very young and haven't released any pheromones that can attract me. But just glancing at him is driving me crazy. Still I'm committed to Pear so I'll stay to her. I don't want just because of a fated mate, my relationship with Pear that has been going through to a mess. When Leynn was 4 years old, Pear went crazy and took marks off me by force. Pear performed a mark removal operation without my knowledge. At that time I was on duty overseas as a government spy agent, but suddenly I felt excruciating pain and it was as if I had lost part of myself. I immediately fainted and was unconscious for 3 days, when I woke up the doctor told me that the reason I was unconscious was because the mark on my omega had been removed so automatically the relationship between myself and my omega also disappeared which made me physically shocked. At that time I was very angry and immediately returned home and looked for Pear but to my surprise that Pear had the heart to leave Leynn at home alone, luckily that Brother Tor who was working in the city would definitely stop by my house and find Leynn alone in her room without anyone else. When I returned to my house, the house looked deserted no one was there. At first I thought Pear took Leynn with her but when I saw the note on the living room wall I was shocked because the note was from Brother Tor. Fill in the note, "Leynn with me, come home. TOR". I immediately returned to my family's house and found Leynn who was playing with Kin. Kin saw me and said hello. "Brother Sig has come home?" Said Kin. "Yes, brother Tor at home?" I asked Kin while holding Leynn. "Brother Tor is in there. Since 2 days ago when brother Tor came home with Leynn, Brother Tor always seemed annoyed. It's scary", said Kin in a whisper. "Then I want to talk to Brother Tor first, I'll leave Leynn to you", I said while handing Leynn to Kin. Kin nodded his head and held Leynn's hand. The two of them play together again. I immediately walked into Brother Tor's room. When I entered I saw Brother Tor and Brother Ben talking about something seriously but when they saw me enter, both of them immediately became silent. I walked in and sat on the sofa in front of Brother Tor's desk, "Brother". Brother Tor got up from his chair and sat beside me, "Sig, what happened to you and Pear?". "Pear took off our mark and went somewhere", I said weakly. "Haah", Big Brother Tor sighed and patted my shoulder. "Then this report might as well be true", said Brother Tor giving me an envelope. I opened it and saw that it contained a report that a woman who was a member of our pack was found dead in an apartment. I saw some photos, her face and body were unrecognizable because they were covered in wounds and blood but I could see from the necklaces she was wearing. A pear-shaped necklace with a diamond in it is a necklace that I gave to Pear on Pear's birthday, since then Pear has always worn it. I was suddenly shocked by Pear's death. I took a deep breath as if I wanted to maintain my sanity. "I've ordered people to pick up the body and do an autopsy to find out her identity," said Brother Tor, hugging my shoulders gently. _ Pear is now completely leaving me and Leynn for good, I feel sad and guilty for Pear and Leynn. I should have volunteered to remove the mark between me and Pear from the very beginning when Pear asked for it so that none of this might happen. The fact that Pear died of self-injury and went crazy alone made me feel like a failure as a man. I let Pear suffer for this. I also feel guilty about causing Leynn to lose her mother. I walked slowly leaving the funeral, everyone tried to greet me and say their condolences but all I felt were those who wanted to scoff, insult, blame, and no one was really sincere. I seemed to no longer believe the words of anyone other than my own family. Tears I can no longer hold back when I'm alone, I hide behind a shady tree which is located some distance from the cemetery. I don't know what tears I shed, sadness, regret, anger or whatever. Right now all I want to do is cry, I haven't cried for a long time. The last time I cried was when I held myself back from running towards my fated mate. The face of my fated mate was still clearly painted in my brain, his cute face that was still very young at that time. If I choose him whether everyone will be happy, I will not be hurt. I seemed to want to run back to the past and reach for that tiny hands and grow up with him. I heard gentle footsteps approaching me, but when I wanted to turn around that person immediately stopped me. "Don't look at me, please", said the man in his soft voice. As if I found comfort and the safest place in my life. I paused and let that person approach me without me seeing it. That person stepped closer to me and suddenly the person hugged me gently from behind. I can feel the warmth of his tiny body, I look at his arms that are hugging me. Just by looking at his hand I know if this person is my fated mate that I used to meet, before I never heard his voice but now I hear his soft voice that makes me feel safe. I let him to hug me and I held his hand which is on my stomach. I felt that he was shocked, but I still held his hand. "Don't cry anymore", he said softly. "Sure, thank you", I answered quietly. He hugged me for a few moments until he let go and walked away from me. I still didn't turn around to look at him. I don't deserve to see him, someone I didn't choose before. Even if I want to chase him, I still can't because I'm not a person worthy for him. _ The days I live as usual, Leynn now lives with Kin. They look very good together and happy when playing together. Leynn also rarely asked where his mother was. I choose to work near our pack area so I can come home each day and see Leynn. I tried to find out the identity of my fated mate, but I also did not dare to know his true identity because when I found out who he is, I would definitely try to contact him or I would definitely try to meet him. I continue to experience turmoil inside of me. I want to meet him but I'm also afraid to meet him. The envelope containing biodata of my fated mate has been in front of me, I still don't dare to see it. I feel unworthy to approach him now let alone ask him to be with me. Now I only know that his name is Gabriel, his name is the name of an archangel. I think he deserves the name of archangel because he himself is like an angel to me. I kept thinking about what I should do but in the end I decided not to look at Gabriel's biodata and let fate decide the path between me and Gabriel. If indeed we are fated mates who are meant to be together then sooner or later we will both be reunited and can start our relationship. _ Almost a year since Pear left, I still have mixed feelings but I feel calmer and accept it all. I didn't search for Gabriel's whereabouts and let everything depend on fate. Me and Leynn have returned to the City because Leynn has entered school time. Leynn has a fairly fast growth. At only 5 years old, Leynn has been transforming smoothly. I enrolled Leynn in a human school and the place is close to where I work now so it's easier for me to drop and pick up Leynn. Leynn and I now live with my father in town. Because my father felt lonely living in his own house in town and only came back to the house in the village on weekends or when there was an something to do or urgent, he asked me to stay with him instead of returning to my own house. I always drove and picked up Leynn from school, the school has child care too so I can relax. I'll pick up Leynn after I get home from work around 7pm. Who would have thought that after a while Leynn went to school there, I just found out that Gabriel worked as a teacher at that school and what surprised me even more was that Sister Hera knew Gabriel. _ The night is getting late, I just finished my work. It's 8.40pm now, I've called the teacher at Leynn's daycare that I'm going to pick up Leynn late. I immediately picked up Leynn, I saw that the day care was deserted. I entered one of the waiting rooms for children who had not been picked up, I immediately searched for Leynn's whereabouts. Leynn was seen playing with a teacher, I only saw the teacher's back but somehow I felt familiar with that person. I faintly smell the pheromone scent that is so familiar, I'm sure I've met a person who has this pheromone. I do not know why I am very sure who the person who is right now in front of me, the person I had wanted to meet but I did not have the courage to meet him. I walked toward the person slowly, my heart was beating fast. Only when I walked a few steps Leynn saw me and immediately ran towards me. The teacher who was playing with Leynn immediately saw me and immediately stood up in shock. "Dad, why daddy is late?", Asked Leynn. "Sorry Leynn, Dad had a lot of work," I said, hugging Leynn. I looked at the person in front of me while holding Leynn's hand. I saw his face that was still the same as when I met him before, an innocent and cute face. Even though I don't know him, I know that he is a very good person. I looked into his eyes deeply as if I wanted to hint at my longing for him and my desire to meet him. He looked at me with an expression of shock and anxiety, as if he wanted to get away from me. I tried to be reasonable and greeted him, "Good evening. I am Sig Sigwald Harold, I am Leynn's father. Nice to meet you." The sweet man looked at me and smiled awkwardly, "Good evening, Mr. Harold. I am also glad to meet you". He didn't mention his name even though I knew that he was Gabriel but I still asked him and tried as if this was the first time I met him. "This is the first time we meet Leynn's teacher, may I ask what your name is?", I said politely. "Ah, yes. My name is Gabriel Bastieer," he said softly and awkwardly. "Hmm", I smiled at him. I was confused about what to say to him and this awkward atmosphere was really uncomfortable. I tried to start a chat but Gabriel looked very uncomfortable and wanted to get away from me. I knew that he was uncomfortable, I decided to hurry home with Leynn. "Leynn, have you eaten?" I asked, crouching down and carrying Leynn. "Leynn has eaten, Dad. Teacher made omlet for Leynn earlier," said Leynn cheerfully. "Really? Is it good?", I said with a smile. "Delicious, very good. Better than daddy's cooking. Hehe," said Leynn with a smile. "Is daddy's cooking really bad?", I said pretending to be sullen. "It's good, but the teacher's cooking is better," said Leynn, hugging my neck. "Mr. Bastieer, thank you for making a nice dinner for Leynn," I said, smiling at Gabriel. "No problem, Mr. Harold can just call me Gabriel", said Gabriel shyly. "Of course, Mr. Gabriel can also call me Sig", I smiled seeing Gabriel's cute face flushed. I felt Gabriel's pheromone which Gabriel might have unknowingly pulled out. I stared at his face for a long time, until Leynn patted my cheek gently. "Dad, I'm sleepy", said Leynn. I immediately woke up from my daydream, "Oh Leynn is sleepy, then let's go home. Bye bye first to the teacher", I said softly. "Teacher, Leynn is coming home. Tomorrow, make Leynn another delicious omlet," said Leynn, moving her tiny hand. "Of course, Leynn. Be careful," said Gabriel, looking at Leynn. "Then we'll go home first, Mr. Gabriel. Good evening," I said with a smile. "Be careful on the road. Good evening," said Gabriel with a face that was difficult for me to know what he was thinking. "Bye bye, teacher", said Leynn, waving both hands. "Bye bye, Leynn. See you tomorrow", said Gabriel with a smile. I walked out of the room while looking at Gabriel a few times for a moment. I'm glad to see Gabriel again. This time I think fate really wants to bring Gabriel and me together. I'm grateful to see him again and hope that I can start our relationship well. I hope that Gabriel also wants and wants to go back to walking with a destiny that brings the two of us together.