Flames In The Fire

NINE

John POV

*Flash Back*

Ellie’s father took her off his insurance the day after she left. She was lucky and got a job in the school system a few days later. She was a nervous wreck which made her headaches worse. There were a lot of horrible nights until she was able to secure a job. Jeff thinks I do not know, but he paid for her medication when he heard about what her father did to her. I do not know how I will ever repay him for what he did. I can add Ellie to my insurance after we are married. I wanted to give her the wedding she dreamed of, but we cannot wait months to get married in reality. We need to get married right away.

“We can just go to the courthouse, John,” Ellie says to me.

“I do not want you to think you have to get married in the courthouse. We can have a small wedding here at the farm, just family,” I say to her. 

“We do not have to be in a rush just because my father is crazy. This is what he wants. He wants me to panic and come running home,” Ellie says.

“I know you are marrying me because you love me not to spite your father. We can do it here with our family,” I say.

Ellie reaches for me, tears in her eyes. “John, I have no family,” Ellie says. She is serious. The moment she chooses me over them, they are done with her. 

“You have my family and me. We are all the family you will ever need, I promise you, Ellie. My mother loves you, and Crissy loves you. Hell, I think Jeff even kind of likes you,” I say to her. 

“Okay, let’s plan a small wedding for the farmhouse. Do you think your mother and sister would help me?” Ellie asks.

I shake my head. “Be prepared for both of them to take over the entire event,” I say.

Ellie jumps up from the couch. She grabs me and hugs me tightly. “I wish they would just plan it for me. I am not good at planning things,” Ellie says.

“Oh, I am sure they will both love that. My sweet Ellie, you have no idea how happy it will make both of them to plan this wedding,” I say. 

Ellie kisses me softly. I pull her close to me. My breathing becomes labored as I touch her body. We decided to wait until we are married, but it is getting harder not to want more from her. I want to be with her in every way. Ellie’s hands slide down the front of my shirt. I can tell she is getting uncomfortable. 

“I am sorry,” I say. 

Ellie leans forward and kisses me again. I kiss her back with more passion this time. We stand in the living room, kissing as her hand finds its way into my hair. She lets her hand wander from my hair to my neck, down my shoulder. She steps back from me and unbuttons her top. She exposes her white lace b*a to me. I am in awe of her beauty. There is nothing I want more than to take her right now. 

“I want to wait until we are married, but there is no reason why we cannot have a little fun,” Ellie says to me. 

“I do not want you to do anything you do not want right now. I can wait,” I say, looking at her beautiful body as she begins to undress in front of me. 

“I guess I can allow you to see the goods before you marry me,” Ellie says, laughing. 

She is in front of me in her white lace b*a and panties. She is so incredible. She takes my hand and leads me to her bedroom. This is probably a good idea because her room is much cleaner than mine will ever be in this lifetime. 

“Ellie, you don’t have to do this,” I say to her as she leads me into her room. 

“I want to be with you tonight, John, in every way except one. I do not want us to have s*x until we are married, but there are so many things we can do to be together and love one another besides that, okay,” Ellie says softly to me.

“Okay,” I say to her. 

Ellie leads me into her bedroom. She unbuttons my shirt and lets her hands run across my chest. She kisses my lips and then my chest. She is so sensual and sexy. I feel a rise in my pants as she continues to touch me all over. She removes my shirt and lets it drop to the floor. Her kisses are amazing as she unzips me and removes my pants. 

I get into bed with Ellie. I have no idea what this night will hold or what she has planned for us. I kiss her neck and move to her breast, still in her b*a. “May I remove this?” I ask her. “Yes,” Ellie answers. 

I remove her b*a and touch her soft skin. I kiss her breast and then begin to suck her n****e. Elli arches her back. “John, I am a virgin,” Ellie says to me. I already knew that, but she needed me to know. 

“I don’t want to give myself to you, and then you change your mind about marrying me. It would crush me,” Ellie says.

“There is nothing that will stop me from marrying you,” I say to her.

Ellie pulls me closer to her. I am between her legs, pressed against her. The only thing between us is the thin fabric of our underwear, and I want her so badly. I kiss her neck, and I cannot help but grind myself against her sweet spot. Ellie lets out a soft moan. 

“I want you so bad,” Ellie says to me. 

“I want you too, but I won’t. I know how bad you want to wait,” I say, breathing heavy. I would love to plunge into her and give her pleasure. 

I let my hand wander between her legs. I touch her middle and begin to massage her. Ellie moans as I massage her. I let my fingers slip under the fabric of her panties. I kiss her as I let my fingers dip into her. Ellie bites my bottom lip and moans as I finger her.

“Damn, John, you are making it hard for me to say no,” Ellie says. I stop. I kiss her on the lips. “Why did you stop?” Ellie asks me. 

“Because I will not have you regretting it when I make love to you,” I say. Ellie smiles at me. “You are going to love me forever, aren’t you?” Ellie says. “Yes, I am,” I tell her. 

Ellie pulls me back down onto her. “Make love to me, John,” Ellie says softly.