Starting over

Chapter 8: Confusion

Chapter 8

Charlie

So beautiful. The most beautiful thing I've ever seen in my entire life. The most beautiful smile and the glitteriest eyes. Nova Summers. I can't think of anything else; it's now been a week since I met Nova Summers. Okay well officially. Unofficially I guess we've met before, but I've gotten hurt all those times. Not that I care, her clumsiness is adorable. I've been looking for her since the first day when she bumped into me, and I spilled my coffee all over my shirt. She looked like she was so embarrassed, and I wanted to tell her that it was okay, but I couldn't find her. She found me though, all of the other times. But she was always gone just as fast. It made me a little upset that I couldn’t tell her that couldn’t tell her that she shouldn’t be embarrassed. Since art class last week, I haven't been able to get her out of my head at all. She's so beautiful and so gentle. So innocent. Yet, I can see in her eyes that something is troubling her. There's deep sorrow in her glowing eyes, and it makes my heart ache.

"Earth to Charlie!"

I jerk. "Huh?"

"Come on dude, snap out of it", Jake says and falls backwards onto my bed.

"You were thinking of Nova again", Grey says and sits down onto Jake's bed, which is across from mine.

"How do you know?" I hiss, feeling the heat spread across my face.

"You had a big goofy smile at first and just now it changed to a frown", Jake says, playing with my football by throwing it up in the air and then catch it. "It was obvious that you were thinking about Ms. Nova Von cuteness".

"Nova Von cuteness?" I say, choking on a laughter that wants to escape my throat.

"Okay you're right, you think more of her than that she's cute", he says and starts correcting himself. "Ms. Nova Von smartness sexiness cuteness and clumsiness Summers".

"Shut up!" I say and slap his arm, causing him to miss the ball and it hits him right in his face.

Grey starts laughing so loud at this, almost folding double.

"Oww", Jake whines.

"Serves you right", I mutter. "And how about you two?"

"What about us?" Grey asks, still chuckling out of breath.

"I know you like Nova’s friends Paisley and Katie", I say.

"I'm going to ask Paisley out today I think", Jake says, takes the ball and hugs it as he pulls himself up and lean against the wall. "I think I may have a slight chance on her".

"I already asked Katie out", Grey says, and I drop my chin to the floor.

"What?" I ask surprised. "When the hell did that happen?"

"Well... Yesterday", he says. "I was going to tell you guys, but I just forgot".

"Hm", I say. "When?"

"Next Saturday", he says.

"Why not this Saturday?" Jake asks.

"Nah she said that the girls where going to have a girl’s night, movies and junk food and all of that", Gale says.

"Is it weird that I think that sounds hot?" Jake asks.

"Perv", I mutter but can't stop to think the same thought has he just said. I just keep it in my head.

"What kind of pajamas do you think they have?" Jake continues eagerly.

"Jake!", I say and throw a pillow on him.

He laughs and throws it back at me. "Just kidding", he says.

"No, you weren't", Grey says slyly.

"Okay maybe not, but I don't want to know, I really do like Paisley", he says. "No matter what you two think of me, I do really like her".

"Yeah you do talk about her a lot", I admit.

"Who would've thought? When we came here, we didn't think we'd find three perfect girls all at once", Grey says. “Or that they would be friends like we are”.

I didn't think there was anyone like Nova. The way she walks and the way she talks. The way she smiles and the way she looks at me. The way she laughs and the way she giggles. Her silver eyes, her dark hair, her pink cheeks, her red lips.

I never thought there could be such a beautiful yet gentle girl. Clumsy and cute girl. I never thought that I could fall for a girl who gave me a sprain in my pinky finger. I never thought that I could fall for a girl who tackled me or threw a football at my head. And I definitely didn’t think I could fall for a girl in the matter of days. But then there is Nova Summers. A girl who changed all my believes in about three seconds after looking at her in art class. Looking at the way she moves, how lightly she walks. Her gentle voice. Nova Summers. I thought I knew girls, but when I met Nova, I realized that I know nothing. Absolutely nothing.

I've had girlfriends before, but I've never been in love. My brothers have told me all about it. My eldest brother Rich is married and has a five-year-old daughter. And my middle brother Nick is engaged. I'm really close with my brothers so we talk about everything. Of course, I've already told them about Nova and how I feel when I'm around her. They told me either to get closer to her or get out of her sight, because it looks like I'm already "falling for her", like falling in love. But I don't know. A crush yes, I could say I have a crush, but in love. Nah I don't think so, it seems like it's too early for that. My brothers have always been drama queens and always been teasing me and all of that. Like brothers do. I don't know right now though. That's the thing. I don't know anything right now. And that's all because of Nova. She's making me so confused. Like I said, she's made me change all my believes. I don't know what to do. I get all babbly when she's around. I get nervous and don't really know what to say so I just word vomit instead.

Ugh. This is frustrating. So frustrating. This has never ever happened to me before. Never! So why now? What's so special about Nova, that's not so special about every other girl? Everything! A voice inside me says. She's perfect.

She is perfect. She really is. I've known her a week, and she already got my knees all weak and my legs all wobbly. God! What is this girl doing to me? I've never thought about a girl this much. No girl has ever occupied my mind like this. Usually I have a hard time getting rid of girls who are just trying to get into my pants. Now I sound like a girl, but I don’t just do it with anyone, although a lot of girls has tried. Like I said, I’ve never been in love before.

Nova Summers, what are you doing to me?