Rent a christian boyfriend

He was so undecided

My day was too good.

Weird because I had only known Nicholas for just a day or just hours but I felt like I had known him forever. I didn't want to jump into conclusions and compare him to Eric or Robbie because fact is he had not made any advances or asked me out. He was just genuinely a nice fun person, I admired heat of imagination and mental excitement. When I said I was avoiding Eric... I really meant it.

After I was done with my shift at five pm, I went to Laura and Sam's apartment. Sam was mad and grumpy because apparently I ruined another... session. I wasn't sorry about it, Sam was an ass and one way or another this was put back for all the times he snatched my bestfriend and made her not show any interest to hang out with me or call me because she was booed up. I mentally rolled my eyes at the thought, being friends with someone who is in relationship not just any relationship but a serious relationship is annoying. Sometimes I felt like hitting Sam with my shoes whenever he teased me. Apparently all the times I called Laura while I was in New York with all my garbage, that loser Sam was listening on it and sometimes he would make snide comments like-

'Ohhh you have it turf Leona.'

'Tragic, Leona.'

'But like seriously you need to get a life, have you heard of tinder or a dildo?'

'Stay in New York, Ed Sheeran doppelgänger.'

'Goodbye Bella Thorn wanna be.. mom and dad need to sleep, we have a life remember?'

Nothing absolutely nothing, annoyed me like when Sam made fun of my hair or just me in general. He was just an annoying ass and the fact that my best friend was head over heels for this door knob, meant I had to tolerate him. In addition, I gained two best friends because I knew Sam was always joking and he cared about me even though he would never admit it. He was a brother, a very annoying brother.

After Sam practically shoved me out the door saying I needed to go home, I did. Laura and I had been entertaining ourselves with a series on Netflix called s*x Education... we ended up dozing off after all the talking but Samuel wasn't having it. He woke me up and told me, it was time to go home. Like I said, I will hit him with my shoes one day. He called an Uber for me atleast but that didn't make him less of an ass.

I had texted my parents that I was eating supper with the Johnston's, maybe with only one Johnston and that's Laura and door knob Sam. I know it wasn't fair on Eric, constantly leaving him alone with my parents. If anyone did that to me, I know I would feel very awkward but this was Eric, I'm sure he would survive because I can't survive or breath when he is close to me and I need to think about myself first.

Getting home at ten pm and making sure to open my bedroom slowly as to not make any funny sounds. I got in my room, it was dark, I heaved a sigh of relief as I gently closed the door but that relief didn't last long as I switched on the lights. Eric laid on my bed, in his boxers, one of my novels beside him. He slept peacefully, I really wanted to snuggle up in his arms but I immediately shook my thoughts away.

"Come?"

I didn't realize he was awake as he gestured for me to come lay with him.

"No, I'm fine." I said walking away to the bathroom to change. I don't know how much of a quick tap, he did to stand up and pull me closely into his arms. I felt-

awkward, feeling his rigid member.

"I'm really mad at you." He whispered in my ear. My skin shivered but I had to look unaffected.

"Whatever!" I tried pulling away but he kept a tight grip on my waist.

"You're the pettiest girl, I know!" He added in a husky voice that made my heart flatter, it was also because of the proximity.

"Okay." I said still trying to pull away but what he did next left my knees weak. He laid a soft kiss on my bare neck. He knew it was my soft spot, why was he doing this?

"What's wrong?" he asked. Clearly concerned he turned me around to come face to face with him. His hazel brown eyes, stared me with so much emotion. I knew what was wrong and I really wanted to tell him-

"What's wrong Eric? Your really want to know what's wrong? I'm inlove with someone who is inlove with someone else. He is even counting the days till he leaves me and I dread the day he leaves because he brings so much light and meaning in my life. 121 days today. You must be really happy, Eric! You sleep with me and make me feel like I'm the only person who matters, you go and get tattoos with me. Sure, it must have meant nothing to you but it meant everything to me. I think about you all the time and I'm sure you think about her all the time. I regret making you open up to me because now I know the truth and it hurts. I just want to go back before I had known anything about you and I kept imagining that you felt the same way that I feel about you. I obsess about how beautiful your smile is and you obsess about how beautiful she is. I get it, we can't all get what we want. I just don't understand why it feels so right being with you even though it's wrong. You knowingly lead me on. You sleeping with me while having thoughts about your girlfriend in jail, isn't that considered cheating. I know deep down you're just using me and I willingly let you."

I didn't say that, I just looked away not being able to hold his gaze.

"Nothing, what made you think that?" I faked a smile.

"You aren't even trying to argue with me like you always do." He said with what seemed like a hurt voice.

I knew he always enjoyed arguing with me.

"Because it doesn't matter." I shrugged. "Can I go change now?"

He still didn't let me go, pulling me hard against his chest, there was absolutely no space left between us and my breath felt constricted because our lips were so close. My stomach flipped, the way he looked at me always made me nervous, the way he clenched his jaw after looking at me then biting his lip was a clear sign that all felt was nothing but lust for me.

"Why did you lie?" He asked, I could feel my face heating up. Lie about what exactly? Did he know that I had feelings for him? Sure he did. I was an open book at times.

"I don't, Okay!" I immediately defended my self pitying ass.

I don't have feelings for you.

"I knew you didn't because I'm negative. I would never lie to you or deceive you like that." He said finally pulling away from me. "It was just really petty of you to lie just to spite me, Leo."

That's when it dawned onto me that he was talking about the HIV status not what I was thinking about clearly. I felt my cheeks heat up, making me immediately turn towards my bathroom. I was thankful that I didn't expose myself.

"Good night, Leo." He said walking out of my room, why did I think he was going to follow me and grab me, push me against the wall and make love to me.

Clearly I'm delusional.