My Man,My Devil,My Lover
1645 Words
Alan apologised to me.I wouldn't forgive him,at least not so easily.
I slept with Tobey that night.I was angry on Alan but to be honest,I was scared.He pushed a knife in my stomach.He killed an unborn child inside my stomach.
All these times,he would just go to office,after arriving home he would again leave to hunt down humans and murder them.As he was changing,he would murder people less.No denying that he was a criminal mastermind.He was the most wanted man in the country.Yet,no one could trace anything that would lead to him.No finger prints,no witnesses,even his choice in victims were undoubtedly incredible.He would usually go for the people who had no purpose in life,no roots,no friends or people who defied him.I wonder what Tobey's mother did to defy him.
There is no way anyone could ever understand that the rich multi-billionaire,Alan Braxton,who owned the country almost,is a serial killer.
I woke up at 11 am.I jumped out of the bed thinking that Alan had office and I had to prepare his breakfast.I went to our bedroom and saw Alan sleeping.Will he not go to office today?
"Alan..." I shook him gently.He didn't open his eyes.
"Hey Alan..." I called out again,shaking him a little harder.
"Al...?" I started to worry.Why wasn't he getting up?
"ALAN!" I called loudly.
"What?" He slowly opened his eyes.
"Why are you angry?" He asked again.He was massaging his forehead,as if he had a headache.
"Why aren't you getting up? Don't you have office?'' I asked.
"I am not going today."He said as he laid down again.
"Alan..."
"What now Stace?'' He asked rudely.
He saw that I was upset upon his behavior.
"I am sorry.What happened Stacey?" He said gently.
''Nothing,you scared the s**t out of me.'' I said as I got up from the bed.
"Let me know when you'll wake up..." I said as I went to check on Tobey.
"Tobey.baby..." I called him as he woke up.
"Momma?" He asked.He was so cute that I cried.How can Alan be so heartless?
"Yes baby,momma is here." I said as he jumped and hugged me.I took him to the bathroom and brushed his teeth.Fed him breakfast and took care of him.
It was 1 pm when Alan woke up.He came out looking like a homeless beggar.I didn't pay attention to him and continued playing with Tobey.
"Hey baby." He hugged me from the back and kissed my neck which was followed by an yawn.I didn't reply to him.However,he took Tobey in his arms and said,"Come to daddy."
I went to the kitchen and warmed his breakfast.
I was setting the table when he came,"Did Tobey have breakfast?''
"Yes." I said without making any eye contact.
"Did you have breakfast?" He came closer and hugged me from the side.
"No,I--" It was obvious.No matter how angry I was on him or how scared I was of him,I would still be enchanted by him when he comes closer to me.
''Why?" He whispered in my ear as his hot breathe ran through my neck.
''Bec-because I-um I wasn't hungry." I said as I tried to get out of his embrace.
"Mhm,lies huh?" He whispered.
"Alan!" I tried to stand up for myself.
"Do you know all the things I can do to you if you defy me?" I got extremely scared at that moment.
"Alan,please." I said as I sobbed.
''Stace." He said as he hugged me tighter.
''Please Alan,I am already afraid.I can't sleep,I can't eat.Please don't scare me Alan please!" I cried as I pleaded.
"Fine!" He said and pushed me,making me lose balance and I fell to the ground.I wiped my tears and ran to the bathroom.I was so scared that I could barely move and I forgot to breathe.
I was not sure that I still loved him or not.I just didn't know.
I wondered that what if we knew that I was pregnant.Would he tell me to abort it?All these thoughts ran around my head as I fainted on the bathroom floor without even realizing.
I woke up with a sharp pain on my head and as well as my stomach.
Alan was sitting next to me working on his laptop.I was on his bed.
"You were sleeping on the bathroom floor.'' He said casually,without looking at me.
''I wasn't sleeping.'' I protested.
"You fainted? Same shit."
"Alan,I said as I put my head on his lap.
"I am busy."
"I don't care." He looked down at me when I said that.
"Did you know that I was pregnant?"
"Yes."
"Yet you stabbed me in the stomach,knowing it would kill my baby."
"Yes,I killed your baby." He said as he narrowed his eyes and came closer to my face.
I tried to hold back my tears.When I looked at Alan,I realised that he was just as sad as I was.In fact,he was feeling guilty,he was blaming himself for this.He was aware that I was pregnant,but when he stabbed me,he completely forgot that I was pregnant.
''It's not your fault,Alan." I said.
"Stop taking responsibilities for things you can't control.''
"Stacey!Can you for once stop with your excessive drama?" He said.
"Right,now you're gonna cry,faint in the bathroom and might as well suicide,huh?''
"Alan,why are you behaving with me like this?"
"You blame me for the child,yeah?You deserve every bad thing that happens to you."
"Alan,I--" I cried again.
"Shh." He shushed me like he doesn't even care.
"Do you even care?" I asked him
"Care?You don't say this word,you ungrateful slut!After everything I've done for you I am still the villain huh?Well,let me give you a taste of cruelty." he said as he pulled me and got up on me.He choked me hard,not caring about my pain which was still raw.He started to mount on me.It was so painful that I screamed my lungs out.He still wouldn't stop.
"Alan,please,it hurts!"
"Oh yeah?Well take more." he said as he pushed it in and out harder.
In no time,I was unconscious again.
I woke up the next morning in the same way.Next to Alan.
"Where's Tobey?Did he have dinn--Ah" I groaned in pain.
''Yes,he had dinner he had breakfast."
I looked at Alan.He was completely changed.In a bad way.Maybe the death of our unborn child hit him hard.When I saw him,all I saw was the cold-blooded serial-killer.
I got up from the bed and walked to Tobey's room.My wound was very painful.When I looked at it,I was wearing a new wound dressing.
Tobey was playing with his toys and eating chips.His room was all messy with chips lying on the floor and water spilled.
"Who gave you chips?" I asked him.Even though I knew it was him.Maybe I just wanted to hear his name.
"Daddy did."
"Oh daddy did? And what did you have for breakfast?"
"Daddy made pancakes."
"Really?He never makes me breakfast." I laughed.Why was I even talking about him.Why was I even thinking about him.he made it clear the very first day that he will never ever love me.Why can't I just accept the fact that he didn't love me?
That day passed by quietly.He didn't come out the whole day.He didn't eat.I don't know what he did all day.I spent the day with Tobey.
When nighttime came,I put him to sleep and went to Alan's room.
"Alan...'' I knocked on the door and entered.
He was smoking a cigar.The smoke flew across the room and the heavy smell entered my nose.
"Alan." i whispered as I sat beside him.
"I hurt you so much,you should stay away from me.Stacey,I will pay all your bills and will get you settled somewhere good.Please just--"
"Shh." I said as I placed my finger on his lips.I stood in front of him and leaned forward.
I kissed him hard.His warm lips melted me and I never wanted the kiss to end.Soon,he carried me onto his lap and I circled my legs around his waist.
I touched his muscular figure and he kept teasing my breasts.
He gave me lots of hickeys but it was just beautiful.
"Oh my god!What have I done?" He said as he put me on the bed and turned on the lights.He took a look at my neck and there were his fingerprints from him choking me last night.
"I almost killed you twice.With what purpose are you still staying with me?"
"I am willing Alan."
"Look,Stacey,you are the only person I care about.I would turn the world upside down just to protect you.So,I don't want to hurt you.You are all I have."
''You won't hurt me." I said as I kissed him on his soft,warm lips.He was unique.he was non-comparable.
Two months later.
There was a search for Tobey.It was said that he was seen alive and well.Of course, he was.
''Alan..." I said.Tobey was sitting on my lap eating a lollipop.
He looked at me with sorrow in his eyes.We were watching the news,we had to return Tobey or else the suspicion will rise on Alan.
There was a number on the news.Alan called them and faked a story about how one of his men found the boy and Alan decided to keep him as he couldn't tell who or where his parents were.To my surprise,the media and the police bought his story.
The lady Alan killed,her name was Maggie.Her boyfriend left her when found out she was pregnant.Typical.
In the afternoon,they arrived along with some policemen.The girl's name was Aliza.She was around my age.When I handed over Tobey,my heart broke and I burst into tears.
"Mommy?" Tobey called out.
"Baby."I said as I hugged him for the last time.
"Mommy,when will you come to take me?" He asked.I couldn't control myself anymore.
Aliza calmed me down and said,"You can visit him whenever you want.He will always be your son." she said as she smiled.
"Actually,I've lost my baby and that time I found Tobey.It is so hard for me to let him go.'' I said as I cried.Aliza hugged me and then went with Tobey.
After they left,I sat beside Alan who was also pretty upset.I was happy that he didn't murder anyone in the past 2 months.
"Wanna go on a dinner,beautiful?" He asked me.
"No Alan,I am just not in the mood."
"Come on,Stace.Wear something hot.I'll get ready.Also don't take much time to get ready." He joked.
"I never take much time to get ready." I replied.
"Oh yeah?"
"Oh yes mister." I said as I pulled him into a kiss and went to get ready for dinner.
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