Leaving him
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I had made the decision to leave him, it had been on the cards for quite some time now. Is tried so many times over the years he’d made sure that I didn’t. Though he was barely around and our three eldest children had left home: Hunter now almost twenty he had found his true love even seen how hard it had been for me and his father he had begged me to give up the farce of a relationship only bound together by our siblings. He knew neither of us loved each other and his father had only seen it out for the sake of our five children. Now pregnant again I couldn’t afford to do this any longer, he only wanted me when he felt the need to empty himself, when he was to drunk to remember or when we were both drunk. Or it was just me.
The twins Carlos and Teagan were now off to university they too had begged for this lie to come to an end but I knew it never would. I’d tired so many times before I had Arron and Kieron but the birth control seemed to have no affect. He’d taken me at my most vulnerable moment when I was drunk and was throwing up everywhere and the pill taking no affect. I had hoped not to get caught again so he would just leave me. I’d told him to leave cause it was messing with the kids heads and mine. I knew he felt nothing for me, but I had to continue with this lie cause he chose to stay.
‘I want you out.’
‘No just remember how you got this place.’
‘You said if I wanted you gone all I had to do was ask and you’re still here.’
‘You’re incapable of looking after them on your own. You’re depressed and your anxiety is rising every day I won’t leave until I know that they are safe and the pills you are taking are working cause clearly they are not. Or we wouldn’t be having this conversation. They are my kids too.’ He said angrily.
‘And you can still see them. You don’t have to take residence on me or take pity on me.’
‘I’m not we’re in this long term do get used to it.’
‘Just leave Joker you don’t love me and you never will. I’m just here for when you get board and none of you’re whores are giving to you. I’m just here so you can empty yourself.’
‘Do you really think I think that little of you? Do you?!’ He said angrily his voice getting louder.
‘Yes I do. You’ve never been remotely interested in me. I let you be part of all of this cause you insisted now I’m insisting you leave, and we can make arrangements for you to see your children that still live here it is up to hunter, Carlos and Teagan if they chose to see you now just go.’
‘No I’ve stuck by you this long and I’m as hell going to stick to you for longer. Once they leave here then I will, but until then I’m going nowhere.’
‘God your so errr!’ I said angrily Storming out of the room.
That was two days ago now. He’d returned to work I could finally go taking Arron and Kieron with me. I’d secured placed in a school in the country side the cottage hold prospect it was so secluded even he wouldn’t find me. I hadn’t even told Amilia I was going cause he’d surely question her about it.
I’d packed all of the suitcases and the black car waited outside with tinted windows. The back doors opened and I told Arron and Kieron to get in. They slid across the seats I fasted them in by the seatbelts closing the door. He placed the suitcases in to the boot closing it I go in the passenger seat. He closed the boot returning to the car slipping in closing the door.’ He turned to me. ‘Are you sure about this sis?’
‘I am I need to get away cause he won’t leave.’
‘Only if you’re sure.’
‘I am. He’s kept me close to him for twenty years Cal. I can’t do it any more I need to breathe.’
‘You’re to good for him.’
‘Well I wish he would see it like that.’
He turned the key in the ignition. ‘I’ll ask you one more time before we drive away are you sure you are doing the right thing?’
‘I am.’
He smiled pulling away.
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