I went home feeling resentful and down. I can’t explain how I would feel. Shouldn't I be happy because finally, for so long, after a few years and I can go back to the Philippines. But I feel the opposite.
I haven't taken the kids yet from Aunt Carmelli because I want think carefully first about what I would do better.
I thought what if I go home to the Philippines first and leave the children with Trina? My contract with the company will end after 6 months and then after that I will come back here to New York. I will feel more secure then. Because I also won't be comfortable when I take the children with me to the Philippines because I have no one to take care of them there.
I sighed and went to the bedroom. I don't know where to start packing.
I just lay in bed thinking too much.
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