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The next morning, I woke up with a heavy head ache. I stood up to sit from the bed with my both eyes still shut close and I swear, I think I regretted what I did. I'm feeling like I'm about to throw up.
I snapped my head with so much pain. "s**t!" I cursed under my breathe.
This was the worst morning that I've woke up my entire life. I have never felt this so much head ache before. I opened up my eyes and then my hands were trying to find something in the bed but I had cupped something hard and hairy. When I turned to look at the hairy and hard thing that I have just touch, my eyes widen in shock.
"OH MY GOD! HOLY s**t!" I cussed.
I saw a man lying beside me. His face was turned to the other side so I can't fully saw his face. And what shocked me earlier is the thing that I have just touch. His big buddy down there.
And then I suddenly remembered what happened last time. As I remembered thee crazy thing happened, my mouth went gaped.
Thinking that the man would caught me, I slowly went off the bed and wore my clothes. As I was about to put my underwear on, I can feel the pain between my legs which made me twitch and cursed in pain. "s**t!"
I don't know what should I do if the man suddenly woke up and saw me putting on my clothes.
When I'm finished, I took my purse and slowly tiptoed, not causing any noise to not make the man woke up. I wanted to run as fast as I can but I can't because I can still feel a lot of pain in between.
I couldn't believe what I just did last night. Did I just really give myself to someone? To a stranger?
I wanted to regret what I did but remembering what Isaac did makes me think that I deserve to do what I did last night to that stranger.
And when I was thinking to what I saw yesterday on Isaac's room, I wanted to cry again. Tears were starting to form in my eyes.
I was already out of the hotel and I took a taxi to went straight home. When I was inside of the car, I thought again of Isaac.
He didn't even find me last night right after I left. Did he did it on purpose? I thought he love me? Was that the surprise that he told me the last time? He should have just told me if he wanted to end our relationship if he don't love me any more. It should have been more acceptable. I should have let him be. Not like what he did last night.
He made me look like a fool. He made be believe that I was the woman whom he truly loves and would marry and spend the rest of his lives. But I was wrong.
I trusted him. I trusted his words. But too bad for him. I did not trust him that much because I did not give myself to him. That's one thing that I'm thankful of. Because he don't deserve it. He don't deserve my womanhood because he is worthless.
He just proved to me that he is worth being with for the rest of my lives. And I was so wrong for trusting him and spending my seven years with him.
I heaved out a deep sigh as I remember the things and days that we spent together. Who would have thought that we will end this way. It's such as shame.
Minutes of travel, I have arrived from my house. I paid the taxi driver before I got off the car, and honestly I wanted to get back inside when I saw who was the person waiting right in front of my house.
Isaac.
He looked so devastated but when he saw me, his face suddenly brighten. He plastered a wide and bright smile on his face and for a seconds, I forgot what he did last night and smiled back. But upon remembering, I put a cold face and look at him with a plain look. The smile on his face then suddenly disappeared, and starts walked towards my direction.
"Love." He called me on our call sign but I did not bother to answer or even look at him.
I just walked straight to my front door.
"Love, come on. Talk to me." He pleaded.
Again, I did not answer not look at him. What he did is totally painful. The pain is truly undeniable and no words can explain how much it hurts. It tears me into pieces.
When he knew that I don't want to talk to him, he grabbed my arm lightly to face him. I turned to him with a cold and dull expression, showing him that I'm not happy not interested in his presence.
"Love, please don't be like that. Talk to me." His voice is begging.
"There's nothing to talk about, Isaac. Leave." I said.
He shook his head. "No, no. I'll explain. Just listen to me. Don't be like this. Let's talk about this. Let me explain okay?" He said.
I scoffed to what he said. I looked at him with eyes full of hatred. "Explain? Explain what, Isaac? Explain how you cheated on me and even showed me on how you f**k other women in your bedroom? Is that what you want to explain?!"
"No, no! You got it all wrong. It's not what you think it is, love." He held my both hands but I struggle to let go.
He disgust me.
"Ha! It's not what I think it is? Then what do you think I thought when I saw you lying in your bed, naked with some woman? What did you do then? Did you read bible verses? Did you teach her how to play a guitar? F**k you, Isaac. F**k you and your reasons. How dare you lie to me!" I shouted as I catch my breath.
I don't care if my neighbors could hear me. I wanted you get rid of this pain that I am currently feeling.
"No. I got drunk, okay. I don't know what I'm doing. Please forgive me, love. Please." He reasoned out.
I wanted laugh at what he said. "You're making me laugh, Isaac. You know what, I'm glad I did not give myself to you after those seven years of being in a relationship with you. I should have had regretted it so much. A stranger deserves it more than you do." I said and I saw that his jaw tighten.
"What did you say? A stranger?" He asked but I didn't answer him, instead I hurriedly walked right in my door, hurriedly opened it and shut the door closed without him trying to explain to me.
And when I entered my house, my tears then starts to fall one by one and I burst out crying.
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