Five
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I was lying in my bed the whole day. Did no do anything nor stood up from it. I don't know but everytime I'm getting up from lying down, my tears will burst out again.
It's been two days since Isaac went here. It's been two days since we talk, and I'm already getting my hopes down as minutes passed by. He did not even called me nor just text me.
I'm overthinking already that what I saw three days ago was his purpose in order to get rid of me. A sudden pain hit my chest again. I still don't get it. Why does he have to do it?
Seven years. We spent seven years of being together. He said that we will be with each other for the rest of our lives but he broke our promise. He's the one who left. He's the one who let go. And what's makes it more painful is that he cheated and f**k other girl.
Was I not enough? Was I just a joke to him. I thought he could wait? I thought he'd really wait. But I was wrong. And I was such a fool for believing his words. For thinking that we were really gonna be together until our last breathe.
It's such a shame that we just ended up like this. The days that we spent together were tye best days of my life. He's the only person who made me feel loved and made me think that I'm worth to love, but what he did made met think the other way around now.
And now, all of those days that we spent together together was just a memories now. Bitter sweet sad memories of seven years.
I heaved out a deep sighed. I closed my eyes but I think I regretted that I did because Isaac's face was the one who's appearing on it.
No matter what he did, I really can't deny the fact that I still love him so much. I still love him. And that can't be changed even it we put it in way that he cheated. Seven years is not a joke. It feels like lifetime to me. So saying that I can just forget him band tell that I don't love him anymore because of what did to me is totally a lie. I love him so much.
I wiped tye tears that went down on my cheeks. I'm crying again. For two days lying in my bed. I did not do anything except to cry and think if where did I go wrong. If what I did and what's still lacking in our relationship for him to be able to do it with other woman. And to the fact that he said he will be having a surprise for me. Well, I was surprised.
Memories then starts to flashback again in my mind. And as I think of it, I'm getting more hurt as moment passes by.
I was overthinking when my phone suddenly rang. And when I took it on the table beside my bed and saw who was calling me, pain hit my chest. Tears starts to fall one by one.
Isaac is calling me.
I answered the phone but decided not to talk to him. I just wanna listen to his voice. I just want to hear him.
"Love?" He said by the time I answered the call.
"Love, please talk to me. Let me explain to you, okay? Don't be like this." His voice were pleading and it sounded so restless. "I know I was wrong. I know that it's unforgivable, bute I didn't do it on purpose. You know I wouldn't do that to you. I got drunk and I thought the woman who approached me was you. I thought you went to the party. You think I enjoyed what I did then yes, it's because I thought it was you. But thinking that I did it with someone else, I totally regretted it. And if I can just turn back time, I will. You know how much I love you. You're the only woman that I want and to spend the rest of my lives. You remember? We promise each other that no matter what happens, we will still love each other. That if someone did some thing wrong, we'll let other party explain first. And I'm here right now trying to explain to you because I know that I did some thing wrong. Please love." He said.
His voice were so full of regret and pain. And honestly, as I heard his voice, it feels like I wanna run to him and hugged him tight and tells him that it's okay. But it isn't. Is not.
I just cry silently. I'm trying to hold my sob so that he couldn't hear it.
I can hear his heavy breathing from the other line. I can also hear his sobs and it's the very first time. Hearing him cry is the first time.
"I know you're listening to me. I'm here in front of your house. I know you're angry with me but don't let anger ruined what we have now. I love you, love. Please, I'm begging you."
When I heard that he was outside, I hurriedly went to the window and took a peek and I saw him standing in front of my gate. He was wearing the same shirt and pants the last time he went here. And it makes my heart skipped a bit seeing him in that position.
Did he not went home?
I heard him took a deep breath. "Okay. I will let you think first. I will not force you to speak now to me and will give you time to think of it. But just always remember, no matter what happens, I'm here and I love you so much. And I will continue to love you until my last breath. I love you. Don't forget to always eat okay? Always drink water and take more rest. I love you again." He said and look at the window where I was standing.
I took a step back so that he would not see me. I heard him breathe again and then the call ended. Iook out of the window and saw him slid him self inside the car and took one last look and drive away.
Seeing him walked away from me makes ne wanna run to him and tells him how much I love him too. I hope it was that easy. I hope I just can forget the pain that I'm currently feeling right now.
I hope that this was just a bad dream. I just hope.
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