As I waited for Sam to return with the morning newspapers, I could feel my body tensing, my heart was beating rapidly, my throat dry. I tried to distract my negative thoughts about what they would contain by playing a game of hide and seek with Molly, but it was to no avail, even her shrieks of laughter when I found her did nothing to distract me from my anxiousness.
I began my breathing exercises to control my stress, In 1,2,3,4,5,6, hold 1.2.3.Out 1.2.3.4.5.6 repeatedly I felt some of the tension leaving me, but my body still felt like I was in fight or flight mode. My thoughts were now turning melancholy and dark, what had I ever done to deserve all of this, just as I was starting to heal, to move forward in a positive way, to finally allow myself to love again, then the reality of
