Becoming the Alpha

Episode 5- An old love to a new love

Chapter 5- An old love to a new love

Finally, after an agonizing night of self-restraint, I finally had Luca to myself. We made our way up to his room. As future Beta, his bedroom was more like an apartment. It was surprisingly much cleaner than I expected. I was expecting some kind of super macho bachelor pad with pizza boxes and Coke cans lying everywhere. The living room had a big TV and a cute little kitchen and dining area. 

I wandered around the corner to his room… which was now our room. The thought just occurred to me that I would be staying here… sleeping here from now on. I peered around and tried to soak it all in. The bed was neatly made and the decor was masculine but still cute and comfortable. He had a hunter green bed spread and matching curtains. I walked towards his night stand and my eyes landed on a picture he had sitting by the lamp. It was of Luca, Alex and myself. We were all hugged together about 4 years ago at the lake. I remembered that day like it was yesterday. It was one of the only times I had ever been that close to him. I can even remember what he smelled like. I remember him having on too much cologne in an effort to seem older and more manly but at the time, I thought it was the best smell in the world. I remember him taking off his shirt to jump in the water. His muscles had just started to fill out and I couldn’t stop staring at him or his body. My mother caught me a few times and teased, “maybe someday you will find someone just as handsome.” 

“Who knew you could be such a home maker,” I said with a grin. 

“My mom actually decorated the place while I was training a few weekends ago. She said I needed somewhere comfortable to start my life, just in case I found anyone special”, he replied.

I loved his mom, she was so sweet and kind. She shared his beautiful green eyes and dark hair. She was a lot shorter than him and around my height. She always treated me so kindly and now, I would be her family.

I formed my lips in to an “O” in understanding. I turned once again to look at the picture.  I must say I was surprised to see my face in his bedroom. Wait, excuse me, OUR bedroom.  We always have known each other and it was with Alex too. 

Luca softly spoke from behind me, “I remember that day. You looked so beautiful. I think it was the first day I ever really thought you may be my mate.” 

Wow… he really thought that? Then? What the hell was he waiting for? I was all but drooling over him all the time. He had to have known I had feelings for him.  

I felt Luca behind me. He slowly wrapped his god like arms around my waist. This man was so perfect. I still could not believe he was actually mine. Nothing else mattered now. My body felt a surge of electricity as his skin made contact with mine. Just a simple stroke or touch felt like nothing I had ever experienced. I was sure that if he continued, I would faint. I always liked him. I always dreamt of him but I never imagined it would feel like this. I never thought one person could have such an effect on my body. 

He slowly began to kiss my neck. He gently pressed his lips on the very spot that would soon bear his mark. I felt his tongue flick the curve of my neck. I turned around. I looked in to his eyes. 

Luca gently spoke, “Elina, are you sure you are ready for this? We can wait, as hard as it is, if you’re not ready, I will wait for you. I know this is your first time and I don’t want to force you in to something you are not ready for. I know I have made mistakes in the past with other women. I hate myself for it, for not waiting for you. I know that I will never be good enough for you. You waited, you are perfect. It just kills me to think I knew deep down all along that I could potentially hurt my mate. I knew that there was a chance that we may be together. It just didn’t seem like a real possibility. The idea of me actually finding a mate just seemed like a distant thought. I never thought I could feel this for someone.”

Panic began to fill his voice and my heart hurt for him. How could he think he wasn’t good enough? How could he think I was perfect? He was literally all I wanted for so long. He was the only person I ever really felt anything for. I never, in a million years, imagined he would be insecure or self- conscious. Now, here he was, vulnerable in front of me. 

I gently placed my hands on either side of his face and pulled it closer to mine. 

“No, you are perfect. I have loved you as long as I can remember.I was a little girl with a crush on you and now, you are my forever after. Although I don’t like the fact that anyone but me has been with you, I can’t change it. Neither can you. It is in our past. The only thing we can do now is move forward, together.I couldn’t imagine being with anyone else but you. You were made for me and I was made for you.The moon goddess herself destined it and it will be so.” 

I did hate the thought of anyone else putting their hands on him. I always felt a twinge of jealousy when I saw him with another girl, especially Deanna. She hated me and that just fueled the anger inside me. However, it was in the past. Luca and I were not mated nor together so I couldn’t very well hold it against him… as much as it pained me, I had to let it go. 

“See,” Luca replied, “You ARE perfect.” 

A warm feeling rushed over me. All I wanted was him, to give myself to him. I wasn’t sure if I wanted to wait or if I was even capable. 

“Luca, I am sure I want to be with you. I want all of you. Your mind, your soul and your body. I don’t want to wait.”

“Are you positive?” Luca asked one last time. 

“Yes, I have never been more sure in my life.” 

With that, he wrapped his arms tighter around me and lifted me to him. It looks like the night was about to get even better. 

es and teased, “maybe someday you will find someone just as handsome.” 

“Who knew you could be such a home maker,” I said with a grin. 

“My mom actually decorated the place while I was training a few weekends ago. She said I needed somewhere comfortable to start my life, just in case I found anyone special”, he replied.

I loved his mom, she was so sweet and kind. She shared his beautiful green eyes and dark hair. She was a lot shorter than him and around my height. She always treated me so kindly and now, I would be her family.

I formed my lips in to an “O” in understanding. I turned once again to look at the picture.  I must say I was surprised to see my face in his bedroom. Wait, excuse me, OUR bedroom.  We always have known each other and it was with Alex too. 

Luca softly spoke from behind me, “I remember that day. You looked so beautiful. I think it was the first day I ever really thought you may be my mate.” 

Wow… he really thought that? Then? What the hell was he waiting for? I was all but drooling over him all the time. He had to have known I had feelings for him.  

I felt Luca behind me. He slowly wrapped his god like arms around my waist. This man was so perfect. I still could not believe he was actually mine. Nothing else mattered now. My body felt a surge of electricity as his skin made contact with mine. Just a simple stroke or touch felt like nothing I had ever experienced. I was sure that if he continued, I would faint. I always liked him. I always dreamt of him but I never imagined it would feel like this. I never thought one person could have such an effect on my body. 

He slowly began to kiss my neck. He gently pressed his lips on the very spot that would soon bear his mark. I felt his tongue flick the curve of my neck. I turned around. I looked in to his eyes. 

Luca gently spoke, “Elina, are you sure you are ready for this? We can wait, as hard as it is, if you’re not ready, I will wait for you. I know this is your first time and I don’t want to force you in to something you are not ready for. I know I have made mistakes in the past with other women. I hate myself for it, for not waiting for you. I know that I will never be good enough for you. You waited, you are perfect. It just kills me to think I knew deep down all along that I could potentially hurt my mate. I knew that there was a chance that we may be together. It just didn’t seem like a real possibility. The idea of me actually finding a mate just seemed like a distant thought. I never thought I could feel this for someone.”

Panic began to fill his voice and my heart hurt for him. How could he think he wasn’t good enough? How could he think I was perfect? He was literally all I wanted for so long. He was the only person I ever really felt anything for. I never, in a million years, imagined he would be insecure or self- conscious. Now, here he was, vulnerable in front of me. 

I gently placed my hands on either side of his face and pulled it closer to mine. 

“No, you are perfect. I have loved you as long as I can remember.I was a little girl with a crush on you and now, you are my forever after. Although I don’t like the fact that anyone but me has been with you, I can’t change it. Neither can you. It is in our past. The only thing we can do now is move forward, together.I couldn’t imagine being with anyone else but you. You were made for me and I was made for you.The moon goddess herself destined it and it will be so.” 

I did hate the thought of anyone else putting their hands on him. I always felt a twinge of jealousy when I saw him with another girl, especially Deanna. She hated me and that just fueled the anger inside me. However, it was in the past. Luca and I were not mated nor together so I couldn’t very well hold it against him… as much as it pained me, I had to let it go. 

“See,” Luca replied, “You ARE perfect.” 

A warm feeling rushed over me. All I wanted was him, to give myself to him. I wasn’t sure if I wanted to wait or if I was even capable. 

“Luca, I am sure I want to be with you. I want all of you. Your mind, your soul and your body. I don’t want to wait.”

“Are you positive?” Luca asked one last time. 

“Yes, I have never been more sure in my life.” 

With that, he wrapped his arms tighter around me and lifted me to him. It looks, like the night was about to get even better.