It's difficult to choose

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After the class me and Atish we're doing a discussion about how to build up the speed of any student? How is your speed so fast and why is my speed slow? why! what is the reason behind this, he replied I think of that see whether you are doing a study by yourself at home, you are not facing any type of competitive environment in yours, you only thinking that you have to study a lot and score good marks by yourself but you are forgetting that you have to face a big competition.. competition feeling is not coming in your mind when we are in the competitive environment at that time we are facing different feelings. because at this time presented in this class in which we are studying from our class only 10% of students were preparing for competitive exams so in our class the environment of the competitive exams was not created. but when we are in the coaching we are preparing for the JEE IIT exam at that time, you have to face that competition because from whole India students were participating in this exam because of this student thought that the competition is too high so their speed went fast, then the normal because they were understood that they have to face a very quick competition in the second half so we have to solve fast in our class no one sees the timing of solving the question but when I was in the coaching at where they gave time to us like you have only 2 minutes for solving this question and bring out the correct answer when this happens we build our speed from the normal speed and this nature is very much useful for any competitive exam. Accuracy is a very good thing but if its speed is much important because without speed you would not be able to solve the question paper in 3 hours. After listening to this my mind was thinking that if I want to give this IIT exam then I have to do something because by this speed I can't do this exam at any condition. I set my mind that I was studying well at home. but without coaching. I didn't get that much speed for solving the questions, when I was a thing that I Should, I join the coaching or not? Is there any profit from coaching or not? How do I speak to the parents about this? All these things are stored in my mind this will not go like this anymore, I have to build my spirit at any condition without speed and I do nothing. I was continuously thinking about this now. What should I do?

Our school was over now, everyone was going out from the classes when I and Atish went to the bike Stand bike when we came to the bike stand. We saw Mustafa, Viraj, and Kameel sitting here. All three of them are very good-looking people in a school. Mustafa is a very stylish boy from the commerce section. They are all very good looking and some of his faces are like a godman. He has very shiny hair. They have so much attitude because of their good looks. They were not good at studying but they thought that they were good at sports, but it's not true other people didn't think that. They are also involved in other events other than studying. but the problem is that in today's life good looks doesn't matter you have that much power for facing any problem they only see good properly shaved man but today's properly shaved, the person who have all the things they also not get too much attraction, they have a focus on his pretty good face but some of the people treated them as a child because they have a cute babyfacesa . they all three were sitting on their bikes in Mustafa's bike his girlfriend Alina was sitting behind him the other side Priya was standing she is the girlfriend of Viraj and kameez doesn't have any girlfriend but he is also a very good looking guy they all are sitting in the circle. We are sitting near our bikes. Atish said to me that brother sees this, this is the original life with these guys living, what we are doing. We are preparing for the exams. These stupid guys have all the things: they are sports bikes, they have girls. They don't have any attention to their studies. I also want this life. I told him not to get tense about this. This is not that important. We are doing studies then we get the proper gift of our studies we all three Me, Aatish, and Pratik are also good looking people but we don't show off about this. Our hairstyle is normal compared to three of them. Their hairstyle is like a typical BTS pop star. Then suddenly Pratik. Why are you talking about this guy you know Mustafa is a mother f***** after listening to this we all laugh that what did Pratik said it is said that this is not good there is nothing in girlfriend and all then Aatish speak in the middle of me that, you please shut up We all know about you and Shreya. What did you people do last year? We all know about you in between us, Pratik also said. We exactly know what you and Shreya doing all the time about you Pratik said this thing very loudly that I will know about you and share is standing back side of waist and she suddenly listen what Pratik said then I kicked Pratik food and set please keep kite Shreya is beside us immediately and she said that Aman Hai Pratik Atish how are you all then she said you have all talking about me talking about she said Aman are you sleep said how many are you doing like this she said Aman are you doing like this with me first thing you and not talking to me from many days now you are talking about me and with behind me you are talking are talking are talking About me and tell me what are you doing what are you guys talking tell me then I said no there is nothing it's pretty suddenly loud shouted share shouted loudly  then ok then ok no problem or say something how is  say something how is going at that time when she was coming to us I want to run away from that place because I doesn't want to do any conversation with her because in 11th class there is something happened with System Solution of mine and Shreya wouldn't talk to her but because Pratik everything disturbance now she is in front of me I was not interested to any kind of conversation with her I was not ready at all but if she is standing is standing for talking to me why I I talked to her from 11th class sheet to that thing which doesn't get how to talk to her before 6 to 7 month sheet to something now I doesn't forget that thing she said me something after that I don't want any relation with her infect I don't want any friendship with her she doesn't give me any hurts she honest every time with me with me time with me me with me every time with me with me  that's why I was doing  friendship with her but because she doesn't give any because she is honest with me every time every time   I was a friend of her friend of her but she but she is behaving like she want to become my half girlfriend but I don't want this was not in this position that again I do conversation with her I was my mind was not ready for that I was seeing her his body is man who's goanna tell you are attracting me this whole thing catching me for her I catching me for her I me for her I was becoming strike and that doesn't not a dozen what to do it again I was very cry because of our I will feel very struggles and feel very sad because of her I was not again camped in his letter was making my head strict and her that yes all things as  I was good with what about you how are you I was behaving very normal at this conversation share understood that I was keeping me back from her then she is crying on MI reset OK then do you like to go outside with me I said that no I don't want to do I don't want to go outside because I have to do a lot of it and she said why are you doing that much sister study every time I am not go out for with friends for children change your environment at that time I got angry on her that I was not doing that thing but I said her that I have to do a lot of study because I have many times and this all are joined with joined with my study but you doesn't understand this thing because your stream because you are from commerce stream I have no intention to see her like that after listening this rare Court angry and she shouted on me why are you doing this much Ego of your subject we are also doing a lot of study  we study in a limit but you are studying free that talking to you it doesn't matter make any sense that I said to have no my intention is not like that I was very busy because our papa is very much stuff At age age speak in between us that has its to our exam is going tough buttocks at Southern at so what you can go for there is no issues in one day if you go for anywhere you where you also as saying that you must to go for roam. Infect you were saying to me for going outside after school. I get angry with him and I speak in gestures, tell me what's wrong I do with you. Why are you doing this? I told to him why are you saying this.? Keep quiet for a while. There is nothing like that Shreya. I wish I had a car with which I had spoiled this guy. What's wrong I did with this man, by which he is giving this result to me.

In fact, we have one friend shruti. She is an Ex-girlfriend of Pratik. I was the guy who met them, shruti to Pratik first they were the good friend but after some time they become a couple but There relationship is no longer they broke up early in 11th class, I was thinking that I am the only person who mixed both of them, and what is it doing with me? I wrote all the assignments of him, taught him, and what is this doing with me? I'm saying keep quiet, keep quiet, I do not want to talk with her about it yet. But he is still doing things like this. Suddenly I saw Shruti, who was going in front of us. I said to Pratik go! Go see shruti is going, you go just behind the shruti. Pratik said I was not going to go. She is now your best friend. You go behind her, this creates such fear on my face this creates a little bit shock after listening to Pratik the shock has happened because there is something in my mind for Shruti but I wouldn't say her after seeing my own face. Shreya said yes! Yes! She is not interested in me now. He was interested in Shruti. First, you and Shruti where the brother-sister, you told me that now you are interested in her. PRATIK heard this very carefully and he said oh! seriously is all like that, you changed your line seriously, you are the person who met me and Shruti. Atish controls the situation and the conversation. Hey! Where are you going to talk about this? see them, they are chilling with each other and you are fighting with each other. I said that he started talking about rubbish, then Shreya was also saying anything. Shreya is the prettiest girl in the school , suddenly she said yes Mustafa is sitting with Alina, but he is very big Boron everyone laugh after hear this maybe I like her this thing very much and it was a very good quality of her but I was explaining myself, that this quality brings me in the dark light. I don't want to do this again now. She is talking again like that, but now I don't want to fall again on her net. I want to end the conversation because I told everyone that I have to go now. I'm going very late, a lot of study is pending, so guys will continue to see you tomorrow. I took my bike and went out of school, but this thing was running in my mind. when I was crossed the main gate of the school i see suddenly Shruti was standing there, I don't want to stop nearby her but she suddenly stop my bike and Said me , Where are you going stop here ? Stop! What you and Pratikk are talking about before? I listened to you shouting at Shreya. Where are you talking about me? What is the conversation going on with those guys? I told her that there is nothing important. We are all just talking about rubbish, for jealous atish we were talking about talking about girls. Shruti laughed after listening to this. She said, "think you guys were talking about me, no!" No! It's not like we are not talking or talking about you... Shruti tell me anything about how your studies are going? Our normal conversation started and we talked very happily. Suddenly, she said, "Listen to you Does You Say Anything To Anyone?" I said no, no! I didn't tell anyone this conversation where end them I carry forward from my bike, but these things are going in my mind like, What did she say before a while? What is the story behind this? I will tell you that creates confusion in your mind, then you should know the actual stories, which is that. Shruti has been my current girlfriend for 1 week. She broke up with me. You all didn't get the story. I will tell you what actually happens to us. Shruti was a common friend of mine and Pratik. I was the person who met Shruti and Pratik, Shruti like pratik and Pratik is very much attracted to Shruti. So I set up both of them but because of some issues they broke up with each other in the 11th class. Shruti and my relationship is like brother and sister, like that only, but no one knows about mine and Shruti was in a relationship. and Shreya and my relationship is public but something that happened last year changed everything we were happy with each other, but something happened at that time which disturbed all the relationship. I was very disturbed after that incident. I was sitting alone in a room. Shruti came me for give me a company and calm down and suddenly without any intention we come close to each other she doung for handling me at that time, We did something very wrong by which we both feel very guilty. I was thinking, Pratik is my best friend and I set up both of them, but now I am feeling guilty. What did I do? I was cheating on my best friend and on the same side, and Shreya is also worried about his image in school because everyone knows that, Shruti and me as a brother's sister relation. If they knew about this, what would they think about us? This is the reason behind that question, that she said outside of the canteen, you didn't tell anyone about this and, We promise to each other that we never often do this thing to anyone. Now I am in my home one thing is disturb my mind for a time that this Atish told that my speed is so slow, I was still not feeling good, thinking if this all going like this then nothing will be happen now I have to take a decision. What, should I do for increasing my speed, so finally I decided that, I have to join that coaching where Atish is going he is going Cambridge coaching for IIT JEE exams, i decided to join the Atish coaching, I was thinking that in the middle section the take admission or not? this is my big doubt which is created in my mind, I have to be appear on the exam at any point? But for that, I have to join coaching. This Is the End month of September and this is the first time that JEE mains exam where held two times in a year which is conducted by the NTA (NATIONAL Testing Agency). This is the new organisation which is conducting JEE exam, this is first time in the history that JEE IIT exam where conducted two times in a year. First exam was held im January and, second was on April month, this is September running only four month left for the preparation, and I was not able to apply as in first in first exam if my speed is that much slow, this only for growing my speed, for better writing. I have to do by doing anything, so I decided to talk to decided to talk to the father about this. How do I convince my Papa, Papa comes at night, I am very serious about this. I have told my mom about coaching that, have to join coaching because my speed is too slow and. I do not understand which question to solve and there is so many questions in it and preparing for all questions and exams is very difficult. So now, I have to prepare the concept in mind to give the paper to write in speed. I tell my mom the whole problem, then mom said me wait for a while , Papa comes from office then discuss with him about this. Papa has come in the night's time, I try to talk to him about coaching, I speak to papa that I must join coaching now, he said but Why do you have to suddenly join coaching? When i already told you to join coaching? Then you said that you do not have to join you, you can study by yourself. As soon as papa said this thing, I release that i said something like that. Long ago, when the 12th class started in March, April, he told me that if i want to prepare for the exam, should join coaching, I remember you said about this. And this was my biggest mistake, I had to mind joining coaching when I asked my friend before coaching why did you go to coaching. I was feeling that I would also go to coaching, but second side i was thinking that if i join coaching I will be very tired and my health will also get worse. And this is the reason that's Why? I left the old school ! It would be a matter when the i went to old school, took had a lot of time, I did not get the time for self-study. I came in a new school , got admission here since, I'm getting a lot of time. If I start coaching again, then when will I study? and when I go to coaching? and when will I come from school? It is also like that the coaching centers charge a lot of fees and it would have to go to the coaching center and my papa pay 1 to 2 lakh fees. After that I did not c***k the exam, then all the money will be gone waste. I have been watching from childhood till now that my father earns money by working hard. It's very difficult to earn. and I do not even know whether I will get the exam out or not. With my spirit , i have that much confidence by which, i can clear the exam by myself, but it is not possible. It may also be said that any teacher came to teach me and I did not understand her, it is also a problem because, So far, what happens is that I understand more in self-study than a teacher. I can not find competitive environment in self - study, that competitive environment saw in the class room, a proper race were saw in the classroom, this all case I forgot at that time. I just had seeing money and time at that time. It was not worth at all that I said was my very wrong decision i was releasing today. It was all a decision taken in a hurry. And now I have to join coaching and make this decision rigtht today. I speak to papa that I did not do the mistake again i understand that i was take a wrong decision at that time,. and now let me join coaching where my friend is going I am also to go in Cambridge coaching only just for april until I was appear in JEE Mains exam.I want to join it right now, or it will be very difficult, papa told to me, I will take time out of office for you to get admission tomorrow or the day after tomorrow, I am unaware of Papa doing it with me. I was shock that Papa is satisfied with my decision.