A Hybrid's Scent

I’m on my knees... My body is numb.... My eyes hurt... My breathing was ragged.... I can’t fathom what happened to me… I don’t know what happened to us… Salted tears running down on my cheeks… Left by you, slowly engraving your pain on my skin... I held the bouquet of red roses in my hand... I still remember how you smile every time you touch and smell the flowers I gave you... How your eyes looked at me when I made love to you… Every touch and kiss we shared are embedded in my mind.... You were happy, so was I. You were smiling, so am I... Still and all, I got used to you, I got used to us… I got used to everything… Hence, I sought for something else... It was too late for me to realize… It seemed like I had been lost… What seemed to be happiness to you became madness for me... Wasted are the memories we had together… Rather, I wasted those memories... Now all that is left is darkness… All that’s left are fragments of you and me... There won’t be anything between us, nothing but silence, nothing but cold and pale lips. Nothing but a soulless body… Nothing else… Sorry, can't save me anymore… Forgiveness was too late… I was drowning in sorrow and pain… Tears fall as it rains... I held the bouquet of red roses in my hand tighter… Letting the thorns bleed my skin… My life without you is a world without colors… Endless darkness, endless desolation... Nothing else can be done… Nothing else at all... Only torture… Only suffering… Only agony...