Luna of the Golden Moon

Legacy

“You are so beautiful.” Caleb was still admiring me when I blushed again. I had never heard anyone say that to me before, ever.

“Emilia. You are my Luna and deserve the reverence that comes with it. I will break the neck of the one who does not show you respect.” He said the words seriously when I swallowed hard from the heavy feeling that what he was talking about was far from the reality we were facing.

“So far, I'm just an unknown Delta you don’t even like in public...” I said the words, exhausted. I wanted to be with him and everything that came against it; people would not have respect for me, and that was just how it would be until he marked me.

“You’re no Delta. I already felt that before you arrived, you are an Alpha.” He said it as if he believed it himself when I snorted at his way of saying things that sounded more absurd than anything else I had heard him say.

“Caleb, my father, is a Delta; you know how this works… “I smiled sassy to his face, which was thoughtful, as if he had already been thinking of this somewhere in his head when I shifted before him.

“Deltas are not white wolves, and you can’t blame everything on shifting or me; you are an Alpha who just waited to wake up….” He looked at me proudly when I laughed, disbelieving before almost choking on it when his eyes were serious. I blinked like an i***t. How could I be that?

I was crystal white when I was a wolf; was it my mother's genes that had broken through my father's? That sounded even more absurd!? We had been around for thousands of years, the chance of that being even smaller since my mother was an Alpha herself, making it almost impossible for me to be one too!

“Okay, this is just too much.” I looked at him, frightened now. This scared me, not everything else we had talked about… but the thought that I was an Alpha already. It was like taking all I knew in the world and throwing me straight into unknown waters without knowing how to stay above the surface. It already felt like I was drowning!

Caleb was caressing my hair, talking comfortingly with me in his head, feeling the panic that had increased with every minute that I had begun to realize he was right. I wasn't a Delta!

“We'll find out together.” He said the words firmly when I nodded after starting to calm down; I still did not understand how it had happened, but I was an Alpha.

“An Alpha Luna.” He said the words proudly; it was not impossible, but usually, Alphas had Beta females as mates; it was not unheard of that it was an Alpha Luna, but it was rare and had not happened during my lifetime or my mother's.

“Apparently.” I looked proud, too. I was still shocked by what we had discovered, but that did not change the fact that I was an Alpha.

The water made my hair look like a stream of white-blonde hair swirling over my shoulders and back as I pulled myself up again and kissed him playfully. I was so happy and did not even know why, as if my whole being had just blossomed and I never wanted to return to my shell again.

“Don’t do that, even if we can’t be together yet. You are meant to be an Alpha, not a shy Delta hiding behind her mother.” He said the words seriously.

I was ashamed of how I had been, with no pride. I could not bow down to anyone else if I even tried anymore. When I gazed into his burning eyes, it felt like we were the same, he and I, and that would be a problem, not just a good thing.

“I'm still stronger and faster." Caleb grinned when I laughed at his way of always answering me; whatever I thought, I promised I would get better at hearing him.

"You're not used to it as I am. I've heard other people’s thoughts all my life, and you've heard me one day.” He said the words encouraging when I shrugged; it was true. He heard everyone. I didn’t, even if I was an Alpha; it was not my place to do it. I was not the head or the heir.

His hands stroked over my wet hips and made a growl that I knew he was thinking about forgetting everything about a plan. Just mark and take me here in the shower wrapped up together.

“You can have me if you want me, Alpha...” I said when Caleb observed me greedy as I tilted my neck again so he could access me. He grinned as if he had already done something, and I sighed because I heard him say it loud inside his head.

“A hickey?!” I ran my fingers over the spot; it hurt, and I looked at him, irritated. How would I explain this to my mother?! She would see it and know that I had been with someone!

“Don’t say I didn't mark you …” Caleb snorted when I sighed and left his hand on the mark or bruise he had made, as it was when I made a grimace by moving my fingers. This would be interesting.

“Okay, let me down,” the words were harsher than I had intended when he looked at me, hurt as if I had said something stupid more than he would let me go.

“Caleb!” I snapped at him, again something I had never dared to do before. He snorted a little and let me down slowly. My hips were stiff, being apart so long that I hissed when I corrected them.

His chuckle darkened when I heard what he was thinking of me when he saw me loudly as if he had said it in my face.

“Just wait, my Luna; you will not be able to walk after I have marked you.” I gasped, still not used to him making those kinds of promises to me; I wasn't used to anyone talking to me like that!

I don’t know how long it was until he finally returned, leaving me to shower alone. I turned off the water, looked at the clothes in his hand, put them on the sink, and sighed when he could no longer touch me. I stood completely naked and glistened from the water.

“Dry yourself. I took more clothes from Melody; she will go to Beta Brad's pack tonight, so she will not notice it is gone.” He said the words heart-breaking when I understood that he would miss his sister, and I looked at him comforting and wished I could caress his face and ease his pain more than just looking and talking to him.

A pair of jeans fit me unexpectedly well when I sighed and looked at the bruising on my neck again. He had chosen a tank top on purpose, and I knew it as much as he did, that sneaky bastard.

“I never said I wouldn’t leave a mark on you, Luna; now others will know you are taken before I get you the real thing.” He watched me with lustful eyes when I rolled mine. Instead, I would have taken his mark because then I would be able to admit that I was with him and he could be with me; now, I would have to put up with questions and glances from people who did not know or would guess who it was.

“We can’t, not yet… cousin.” He said the words painfully as they hit my chest so hard that it was killing me, and I looked at him, suffering. I felt his pain when we stood without being able to do more than stare embarrassed at each other now.

“Can we even have children?” I said it out loud as if I was asking myself as much as him.

Caleb's face turned to stone like my words had made him frozen, trapped like me; it was too close.

That was the absolute truth we both seemed to have forgotten in the heat of being mates. I loved him, and still, I couldn't give him what he wanted: an heir, a legacy.

"Oh, goddess..." I couldn't stop the tears from falling when I felt so stupid; I knew all this. Still, my mind had just pushed it away, not caring that simple biology had ensured that I couldn't have a pup with my mate in the future.

“Don't cry, Luna… don’t cry….” Caleb's voice was soft when I shook my head. I had no purpose, and everything I had wanted to give him was gone just because we were related.

“You should be with someone else, a Beta female….” I looked at him, devastated. I did not want to destroy his legacy, which has existed longer than anyone could remember. I knew that! Mother never let me forget that she came from one of the most potent packs and that her legacy of strong Alphas had lived for generations before us.

“Forget it! You are my mate and not some Beta female!” Caleb spat the words where I was crouched down before him. I could just as quickly end my life right here where I was sitting, crying my eyes out in front of him, standing like a statue before breaking into a flaming rage.

“Don’t you f*****g dare!” He scolded me as I was still sobbing and jerked back from the dark Alpha voice that made the whole house hear him without a doubt, even though it was just him and me in the bathroom.

He knew I was right; we could never have children together, and it hurt so much that I wanted to die.

It was the only thing that echoed around in my head. Pulling myself up from the floor, I wiped away the tears that made my blue eyes look red when he blocked the door. He knew I wanted to walk away, escape, or whatever; I couldn't handle the pain of looking at him anymore, knowing that it could never be him and me.

“Emilia!” He said my name firmly. I stopped crying and glanced at his crumbling, handsome face, his eyes begging me to stop whatever was going on inside my head, killing him the same as me!

“Caleb. Move.” I said the words tired. I didn't want to see him; I just wanted to go, escape, and die alone, being denied my mate.

“No!” All of him was stiff, like he would never let go of me, not for any reason. I just looked at him reluctantly, and I was utterly devastated.

“f**k the legacy. I’m not letting you go, not ever, Emilia.” his voice was desperate now; he would give up his legacy for me? I stared at him; that would not work for him and the pack. He knew it just as much as I did, standing in front of him with my head hung and arms around me as if I was trying to make myself invisible again.

“I don’t care; it’s just politics…” he said honestly when I looked at him. Was he serious? My eyes fluttered in surprise. He was so stupid; it did not matter if he wanted it! The pack came first, even before him and me, and he was the next head Alpha, and he knew his place.

“Caleb…" he had already heard everything I said in my head when I sounded more pleading now that he would understand we could not be together. He had to find someone else to be his Luna, and I would lie down and suffer from his rejection.

“My rejection?!” he sarcastically snorted, and I looked helplessly at him. He knew what I meant—the biological rejection that would make me unable to think more than the pain in my chest later.

“When I said I don’t care, I don’t f*****g care, please… Emilia…” he said my name, appealing now as if he really did when it didn’t matter. I did this for him, and I knew my place.

“Your place. Is by my side, mate.” He repeated the words hard when I sighed. I wished it could have been so, but he had to have another Luna—even if it would kill me.

“No, my place is as a Delta at the bottom of the pack, Alpha....” I said the words toneless; I would no longer be an Alpha. I would be a Delta, spending my last time alone yearning for him. Every breath I took would burn with longing for him until it finally ran out.

His face got darker as he saw me collapse more for every second, straightened up, becoming his full length, and stared at me more firmly now than I saw him before.

“Get over here. Now!” He used his Alpha voice when I looked at him, and I would not come, no matter how much he scolded me now that he stood and blocked the door with his incredible body that I longed to touch again.

“You may be an Alpha, but you are my female. You listen to me!” he said, demanding as I smiled faintly at him, still crying, and crossed my arms. I was not his, and I had never been.

“Get over here, Emilia...” His eyes sparkled, making me lose my breath. He couldn't do that, and he wasn't supposed to... I felt myself coming closer, my heart screaming for him, my wolf pushing me to get to her male; there was no way I could stop this! No matter how much my head was screaming at me to get away from him, I didn't want to leave; I was his, and he was mine.