Grey Emerson
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I grew up at a rich , high class , sophisticated family.
I'm the only son , sometimes I wish they had many kids so the pressure on me , would have been less .
You know , it pisses me off when my dad aka the principal of Logan High School , points his fingers at me and say "Your a black sheep of our family, Grey
Never once in million years , I thought my son will turn up like this ."
Me and him , don't get along ,we used to try but now , we are like the opposite poles . If he says right , I will definitely say left.
So , my name is Grey and I hate it when people call me ,Mr.Emerson , I feel like I'm about to die out of my old age problems
You might know me as a bad boy , horrible person , a jerk or as an asshole , Oh yeah, maybe as The Principal's Son .
I wasn't always this rebellious
I didn't wanted to turn up like this ………
When my dad decided to send me to the boys boarding school when I was in my primary grade , I thought he hated me that he want's me to go away .I mean , I'm his only son , why can't I stick around my family ?
Those were the questions ,popping out of my mind , but I had no choice , I was just a small kid
But the best part was, coming home every summer to spend time with my family
Especially my mum
My mom was the greatest angel you could ever meet
When I wanted a cell phone and my dad literally didn't even hear my request completely, it was her who bought me an iPhone, as a gift for my birthday
She always knew what I wanted , even before I could ask her ,she knew it , she knew me like a mirror
Whenever i used come home , for my summer break she used to take me on this dinners , vacations ,picnic ,movies
It used be just my mom and me
And I used to look forward for it, throughout the year
Every day ,striking the days as I count and await for my holidays.
She used to always take my back , no matter what
Every day , she used to tell me that she loved me
"I love you Grey baby "
That's what she used to say before kissing me goodnight
But I never thought or imagined , one day I'm going to come home for my summer and she will not be there for me
Waiting for me , to pick me up , to take me out or mainly to tell me that she loves me
I was sixteen when I got a call, in the middle of my class
I was asked to leave immediately , to home
A part of me was freaking out
I thought, damn what will it be ?
My parents getting a divorce?
Hell yeah, being with a person like my dad really sucks and divorce, single parenting is like common
So I was expecting that
Or maybe , my dad got into some accident and got like a memory loss ?
If so , I would have be the happiest son
Those were the thoughts running in my sixteen year old brain
But the day , was something unimaginable
I saw my mum , on the hospital bed ,breathing with the help of a ventilator
When she saw me at the door , she raised her hands , a bit high ,calling me
But I couldn't take a step further
It felt like someone had crashed my whole world , upside down and I was holding on to the pieces
My dad had to drag me down to her , I didn't know what was happening anymore
I felt like , it was delusional
She kissed my knuckles as she smiled one last time at me
I stared down at her beautiful face , while tears flew down from her eyes , but yet she was smiling
She was smiling for me
"I love you Grey Baby " she mouthed at me and before I could tell her
That I love her too
That I need her
I want her
And not to leave me
She was gone
She didn't give me a chance to tell her something
She didn't
I wanted to scream to the world , that I love her and I want her back .I wanted to cry in her arms , asking her not to leave me , I wanted to beg her
But not even a tear dropped down my eyes
I felt numb
I couldn't process what just happened
I had spoken to her , just the previous night
She told me , that she loves me and she will be there whenever I need her
But did she break her promise already ?
Because she left
She's no more
I sat at the first row, at her funeral everyone walked towards me ,telling me there condolences and there sympathetic words
But it didn't reach my heart
Because a part of me was gone
My mother had a blood cancer
She was in the hospital from past six months
Why didn't she tell me ?
I could have been there for her
Was I a bad son ?
I know , I'm not a good person
But when it had come to my mum , I was the best version of myself
When they asked me to share my memories with her , I couldn't utter a word
I ran away , outside the church
I never ran that fast in my whole life
Like I was running towards something.
And I can never forget that day
It's been two years since , she left me
Two years since , I'm leading this life all by myself
You know everybody seeks a way to ease there pain out
But in my case , it's not the pain I'm easing out
But it's me, she didn't choose me to stay with her like how a good son should have
I don't have a reason to wake up every morning
And I don't find anything enticing in life
That's what changed me , to the person I am now
And forget about my dad
I don't even know , anything about him
Except that he pays the bill
I don't understand why I do some things
You know , like drunk and drive when your loaded with cocaine
When all this illusions starts in your brain , it feels like your riding a unicorn
And I love that feeling
I know , I was damn high to even stand on my feet
I shouldn't have drove the car that day
But , as I told , I always do opposite to what others expect me to do
I didn't know where I was going , my vision started to get blurred
I mean , I got back to my dorm safely the first two times
So I thought, nothing will happen
It was just a crazy drive
But third time , I hit a lady, a old woman
And I didn't stop to see if she was alive
I drove away
My father pulled so many strings , to make sure I don't end up in the prison , I was released with a warning and under observation on my head
I'm supposed to help in the public hospital after my school for three months
If I fail to do so or I am involved in any kind of malpractice, my warning will be taken off and boom
I'll be arrested
If I repeat the same , I would go to the prison , that's nuts
So my great father , had me transfer school
And brought me all the way back home and joined me at his own school , so he can monitor me
I don't know , what's worst
Whether me hitting a old lady or me ended up with my dad finally
Because both seems awful to me
So I packed my bags and drove home , my dad following me from behind my car
It's been two years since I came home
Because, I can't
Every inch of this place shouts me about the women, who brought me up
And the way she held the house
Me and my dad together
I trace down our family picture on the wall
I had almost forgotten her smile , the way those dimples fell on her cheeks
"Grey , go to bed
The school starts here at eight in the morning "
I close my eyes , as I hear my dad's voice
I'm not sure , how I'm going to survive here and the school run by him
And yeah , great because now everyone will call me
"The Principal's son "