BATTLING FEARS

The Most Hated Feeling In The Word Is The Feeling Of Helplessness And Anxiety. “Talk you b***h!”I heard his yell from a short distance across the room.It was my boyfriend doing this again.What I hated so much.Four other eyes stared on at me in the most irritating and uncomfortable way making my anxiety get rather worse.They were part of the school touts. My so called boyfriend thought being close to them would help me get over my social anxiety disorder. He was so wrong! How would that be of help? It would only make things rather worse. “Please Leave Me Alone!”I pleaded with my head bent over my hugged knee. The room was cold but that hadn’t mattered to me.My mind was so focused on this rather than what temperature it was. “No! Never! You have to stop being a loser Maureen.You’re my girlfriend.You’re the girlfriend of the coolest guy in this university. What’s wrong in getting out of your stupid cowardice attitude and become as cool as I am. What’s the big deal with talking to four different strangers? They don’t have guns” “I know…I know okay. I am just not use to it” I tried explaining with my face still buried. My hands had gone cold and sweaty. Drake did not bulge a bit. In fact, he didn’t care. All he cared about was himself and his stupid reputation. How did he become your boyfriend? You may ask. Well, it’s a long story. It was a decision I made out of my own free will same as other girls who feel intrigued by a guy. The only  thing is that mine didn’t really bring me any good luck. It only crushed my self esteem to the least possible level. “Get use to it you fool!”He urged me up from where i sat and nudged me toward the four guys who  smiled at me in the most innocent way they could. The guy i slapped seemed to be faking hos though because i could still see the rage in his eyes as he tried so hard not to make it obvious. Perhaps his cheeks still burns  Drake was embarrassing me and making me look like a fool! Why? For what reason exactly? Without any warning, ten other students walked in with their gazes on me. They were pretty innocent, perhaps paid by Drake to just greet me hi but my brain couldn’t boot this. “Intruders alert! Intruders alert!” This was a signal my brain kept blaring at me. I felt my head go dizzy due to excessive blood pump from my heart. I felt myself get short of breath and instantly fainted. “You’re going to talk to each and everyone of them Maureen! MAUREEN!" Those were the last words i heard before passing out.