Shadows of Guilt

CHAPTER 03 : PLEASURE

 Fendice felt humiliated by his words and his current position. He slowly opened his mouth and stretched to have the thing fit on his mouth. His mouth was small and shallow so the moment he took it, it immediately filled him, it didn’t even reach the half part of the whole thing.

His brows squinted, the moist liquid at the tip immediately got contact on his tongue that made him twitch in disgust but he tried to compose himself sucked the thing deeper in his mouth. It didn’t even move an inch when he felt that it would no longer fit since his mouth was already full.

A hand reached for his hair and he could hear Shawn’s breathing, tried to conceal his low gasps and rapid breathing, his voice was already hoarse when he said, “Move.”

His hand suddenly took hold of Fendice’s hair, gripping it tight as he pull his head back slowly, guiding him on what to do. The sensation made his thing contract and become harder, even seeing Fendice on his knees while taking him could almost kill him.

“F*ck Fendice, do it right, or else I’ll have to do you.” He muttered against his breath

Fendice was already trying his best under him, his mouth was sucking the tip while his hands were wrapped at the lower part where he couldn’t reach by his mouth, rubbing it so that it could be easier for him to have this man released already.

           Shawn was silent but Fendice knew that he’s watching him and that made him flush red to the core. He just closed his eyes and took the thing out and in on his mouth. His head bobbing at the man’s waist, he knew this embarrassment was something he didn’t do in his entire life, making him curse himself but due to Shawn’s scent that felt like an aphrodisiac, he couldn’t stop himself and sucked his thing like a who*e. The heat between his thing and of the thing intensified, his movements became faster and he can’t help but close his eyes.

           It was just a short moment of darkness when a sudden scene came to his mind.

           He woke in a blurry scene and his vision, he saw a strange place, a strange room that was built in a peculiar, oriental design. He stood alone and was in a daze when Fendice suddenly heard himself sobbing. He was crying! Tears continuously flow down his cheeks.

           “Forget…forget everything.” He heard himself muttered but he suddenly snapped from the daydream when Shawn came inside his mouth. It burst full inside him that made him gulp a few, he immediately pulled back and coughed a few times before realizing that his mouth was dripping with white, sticky liquid.

           He immediately wiped it off and stood, he was about to zip his pants when the man behind him suddenly pushed him at the edge of the table, making him stumble and lean on support at his desk.

           “What are you…?” Shawn was already grinding behind him, making him blush, and felt his thing go hard again behind him.

           The scent coming from Shawn intensified and Fendice couldn’t handle his mind anymore once this scent overpowers his pheromones. “Shawn, I told you not to fool around.” He said warningly to him.

           Shawn leaned on his side and whispered close to his ears, “Just once.” He said and sucked his ears. This spot was the most sensitive, making him tremble and whimper under his touch and licks. “Shawn…” he called in protest but his voice already gave in from the heat, it was soft and panting and Shawn heard it differently that made him more lively. His thing sprung again and it already brushed at Fendice’s behind, poking at that certain spot.

           Shawn’s hand started to travel towards his front and Fendice used his remaining sanity to stop his hand from going further. “Stop.” he said as he turned to the side, “This thing should stop here.”

           It’s already enough that they both did something out of heat caused by their pheromones. They weren’t committed and things happened that made him feel that Shawn was entirely a stranger, with all the intentions and misunderstanding, Fendice already gave up on this marriage the moment he started an affair with Lin. He was determined to divorce him the moment this marriage started.

           But when Shawn touched him, took all of him, he couldn’t help but let the stimulation overwhelm him, letting Shawn do what he likes but at the end of the day, the feeling of regret only remained. He felt like he was cheating on Lin.

           He was lost in thought when his chin was suddenly grabbed by a strong hand, it forced him to turn sideways and his lips were taken. Shawn started kissing him, hard and rough, his hands roaming around his body as he press him closer to his body.

           Shawn was kissing him close and nonstop but Fendice had been weak in a long period of kisses that he immediately pulled away to inhale some air. His face was red and there were still some drops of semen on his face that made Shawn smile, he pulled him close again and took his handkerchief to wipe his face clean.

           “You looked very improper.” He said

           Fendice glared at him and pulled away again, but Shawn didn’t let him and grabbed his arm. “Will you walk out looking like this?” he asked behind him and reached his hand to pull his pants, buckling his belt back and zipping his pants to their proper order.

           “I can do it,” Fendice said and took his hands away on his waist but Shawn persisted and took his hands away instead.

           “Didn’t I tell you I will take all responsibility for the things I do, mm?” he said on his ears

           “Stop whispering,” Fendice said since every time he sounded like this, it would be when after or before they do something.

           They were both so close and this intimacy seemed to be usual as they both became silent. Shawn was about to zip his zippers close when the door in front suddenly swung open.

           “Hey Ugly, Four has been waiting for…”

           Jules and Ferrel has something to do after the meeting and they waited in the office for Fendice since the man said that he need to see Four but they’d been waiting for almost an hour! Jules has no patience and decided to get the man himself out of here but who would have thought…

           Jules shamelessly stared at the two figures sticking so close together, the man behind had his hands on Fendice’s waist, right on his zippers. Jules clearly saw that the pants weren’t that tidy anymore and Fendice was still red from the heat, and it immediately reddened seeing him enter.

           Jules made an awkward smile and cleared his throat, “Continue what you’re doing. We’ll leave first, Four has been itching to go out. Best of luck!” he said and immediately went out.

           He shut the door close and saw Mierin right in the entrance, the lady tried to stop him from entering but didn’t chase him further when he got in.

           “It’s a good thing you stayed here.” he said to her, “Seems that your boss is having a good time.”

           Right after Jules left with an amused face, Mierin pondered. After a long while, when she was about to knock to update Fendice, the door swung open and revealed two people.

           “Cancel all his schedules for today.” Shawn said as he drag Fendice but Fendice wasn’t in a good mood and turned to Mierin, “No, proceed of what’s today’s plan.”

           Shawn turned to her with a darkened expression, “Do as what I said.”

           Fendice tried to break free and seeing he couldn’t do so, he turned to Mierin, “No cancellation.”

He then turned to Shawn, “My business for today is all related to my proposal for Humsvan. I cannot miss it.” He said in authority

           Shawn just curved a smile, “Everything about your project lands on me, so whatever means you have to finish even if I like it or not, it’s all in me at the end.” He said

           Seeing Fendice’s glare intensify, Shawn smiled, “You should come with me.”

Seeing them in tension, Mierin spoke, “Understood Sir, I will cancel all of Director Reel’s schedule for today.”

Fendice turned to her in disbelief. Eyeing her but Mierin completely disregards his gesture.

           ‘Mierin just sold me off!

           …

           Fendice had somewhat predicted that there’s only one place that Shawn would take him to and that is the nameless café by the ocean side. The old tower didn’t change and so does the people there, they were all quiet and solemn as they sat on their spot. Reading some old newspapers while the others were reading with some ancient scroll on them. Some of them had an appearance of old people and cultures.

           Fendice had several things to think that he forgot about this and Shawn didn’t give any explanation.

He turned to the man, “Why do we keep coming here?”

           Shawn wasn’t a man full of words but rather, will directly act it accordingly so he didn’t have time to refute.

           “Is there any places you want?” the man asked back

           “What?”

           “This is the only place I could think of when we date out, do you have any suggestions?” Shawn asked again

           Fendice eyes narrowed, “You’re weird.” And turned away, he spotted the rice cakes he once tasted here and immediately grabbed one.

           “By the way, where’s Sophie and Ruby?”

           “They had their matters.”

           Fendice took a sip on his juice and continuously munched, “What kind of matters? Is Ruby helping Sophie handle the matters here?”

           “This place was just a sideline business. Sophie was a designer while Ruby is a shaman.”

           Fendice almost choked and turned to Shawn, “What are you talking about?”

           Shawn wiped the white powder by the side of his lips, “I’m not joking. In modern times, Ruby can be called a psychic.”

           “A rich one. He’s in demand on his field.” He added

           Fendice eyed him as if he’s gone crazy but just nodded to cut the weird conversation Shawn saw it and curved a smile as he pull him closer, “Don’t you believe me?” he asked him

           “Do you even believe in that?” Fendice asked back.

           Shawn smiled and sniffed his hair, “Do you believe in reincarnation?”

           “No.”

           “How about being reborn?” Shawn asked again

           Fendice firmly said no as he tries to pull away from him but Shawn just played with his struggle.

“Then what if I tell you that all of the people inside this very room were reborn ones.” He said close to his ears

           “And they could even remember the memories of their past lives.” He added

Fendice immediately broke free from him saying those things, “You’re too weird when you’re outside your building.”

           Shawn just smiled and didn’t utter any more words.

           Fendice munched another rice cake taking his words into a joke and asked, “Then are you reborn?” he asked

           Shawn was observing him and upon hearing his question, he asked back, “What do you think?”

Fendice thought that he’s going with the flow and took out his trump card, “Then, this Yun Xi… is this the lover that you want to find?” this time he asked with a smiling tone.

           Fendice may not be bright in any aspect but he takes notes of everything that is somewhat useful to him in the future. From his encounter with Shawn’s ex, that he barely remembered the name, that person took cheap tricks just to tell him that Shawn was searching for someone, that he disregard any relationship just because of this person. And those moments when Shawn was too indulged in their bed session that he mutters this name from time to time.

           Fendice smirked in his mind, he never expected anything from this man and he would never do.

Seeing that Shawn didn’t say anything, Fendice smiled widely as if he just won on something big, “You’re such a pitiful man, if you want to find someone whom you dearly loved then you shouldn’t have gotten married…”

           Fendice’s words were cut off when Shawn suddenly pulled him and took his lips.

His eyes widened and tried to struggle but he won’t budge and continuously suck and bit his lips that it immediately became sore and even bled.

           He took all of his force to pull away, “You…” but he was grabbed by the chin again.

This time, he stopped speaking anything as he saw Shawn’s darkened expression, his eyes blank and deep just like the time when this man aggressively forced him to do it. He felt chills as if it wasn’t the same person anymore.

           Fendice’s lips had a bit of blood from his bite, he can smell the faint smell of blood coming from it but he couldn’t move as Shawn silently stared at him as if that if he ever move, he’ll surely grab him just like last time.

           But Shawn just leaned over, his lips went closer to his, and kissed his bleeding lips gently, just like damp of warm water on a scorching hot surface.