RAFAELA'S
I woke up early the following day ignoring what happened last night. I have to be strong at hinding hindi ako magpapa apekto sa taong kinaiinisan ko at mas lalong hindi ako magpapatalo sa mga pang iinsulto at pang aalipusta niya. So ano naman ngayon kung magiging asawa ko siya, it was just for legal purposes and business' sake. We will merge our companies as part of my dad's plan. mas lalo silang yayaman, sila masaya, while me on the contrary, will be devastated for the rest of my life.
"Maám Mr. Marcoe Villegas wants to talk to you" nanlamig ang mga kamay ko pagkarinig ng sinabi ng sekretarya ko sa intercom. agad naman akong nakabawi and composed myself as the man enters my office.
"what can I do for you Mr. Villegas?" I asked impassively
"I believe your father had already told you everything. I'm here to discuss some important matters regarding our up coming wedding"
Straight to the point.
"too excited Villegas? " I snorted
"well, not for the wedding but for the event after that" he smirked at me forming a lopsided smile. I know what he meant by that. ARSE!
"how sure are you na matutuloy ang kasal na hindi ko naman ni minsan pinangarap?" noon pinagarap ko na makasal sayo, bago mo ako ginago.
"the feeling's mutual don't worry dahil hindi naman ikaw ang pinángarap kong pakasalan, you are just lucky that my parents picked you to be my wife"
"hindi ba namamanhid ang pakiramdam mo Mr. Villegas, parang nangangapal na kasi yang pagmumukha mo, anong lunch mo kanina? helium ba? oh napupuno kalang talga ng oxygen sa katawan? "
"tss. I don't have enough time to argue with you Dom, lets just go straight to the point. okay" he said dismissing the subject.
"shoot, will I be able to benefit from that? or paiiralin mo nanaman ang selfishness mo? at ikaw lang ang makikinabang" duda ako sa proposal ng gungong na to. kasal nga namin pero dinadaan sa business like negotiation.
"will you just let me discuss it with you first before complaining" he said , his voice is already irritated
"first you will be my wife for three years, after that we will file a divorce---
"sandali bakit patatagalin pa natin? pwede naman tayong mag divorce six months after that, ma legalize lang everything na dapat ma settle ah!" I cut him off. bakit niya pa patatagalin ang pagdurusa ko sa piling niya!
"will you just shut up and let me finish first" nagtitimpi na siya ng galit, his jaw clenched as he shifted his eyes to murderous glare.
"k."I replied shortly. BaKIT ba ako papaapekto?
"first of, hindi tanga ang mga magulang natin para hindi malaman na pwede nating pag planuhan ang divorce so they made a pre nuptial agreement na we are going to stay married for atleast three years. they are Shrewed Dom. at yung mga investors natin are also involve here, they see to it na magiging strong ang bond ng marriage natin because it will be as strong as the bond of the merging companies they will be investing with " mahabang litanya pa niya.
napatanga ako sa haba ng paliwanag niya so all this time business parin pala talaga ang tumatakbo sa isipan niya. I shoudn't have hoped na kahit papano ay gusto niya akong pakasalan.oh syeteng malagkit! what am i thinking!
"after the wedding you will give my compensation as your husband, be my s*x slave wife" Nanlaki ang mga mata ko sa sinabi niya. how could he? s*x slave? no way!
"you will never get what you want VILLEGAS! don't you think thats quite unfair on my part? i wouldnt agree to this arrangement if its only you who will be compensated!" I uttered through gritted teeth.
"nah ah Dom, are you hearing yourself out? dont act as if you are still a freakin' virgin. Dont you remember the night that you almost surrendered your virginity to me seven years ago? and oh i must say RAm had already claimed that beforehand. so will you stop pretending that you are pure. hindi bagay" he said mockingly.
"there's no way i'm gonna deal with that Mister, you are already getting into my nerves. kung gusto mo pang mabuhay, umalis ka na ng opisina ko. NOW! " nasasaktan na ako sa mga paratang niya at akusasyon sa pagkatao ko. I was ruined to him. I'm not what he thinks of. but I cant say that to his face dahil hindi din naman niya ako paniniwalaan.
"you will never have a choice Dominique, whether you like it or not, you are going to marry me, and there's no way to get out of this.. so just sit there and listen to me" he hissed.
"and i'm not giving you the permission to talk until I'm finished" he ordered, his eyes were still dark ang murderous.
geez! inis na inis na ako sayong damuho ka! I should have known better!
"so I have just given you the first two conditions, and I already made it clear to you, the third one will be beneficial for the both of us.. means to say.. you mind your own business as i mind my own. you have your personal life and so do I. but we will put on a show that we care for each other if there's a need, besides you already mastered being a pretend girlfriend right? so kaya mo rin maging pretend wife"
"yun lang ba? " ang nasabi ko nalang. Dahil kanina pa naninikip ang dibdib ko sa mga sinabi niya. he doesnt really want me. he just treated me like a business deal. he didnt even care kahit na nasasaktan ako. although hindi ko naman pinapakita. he always make me feel vulnerable when it comes to him para akong isang kandila na unti unting nauupos.
"yeah.. that's all for now. I have to go. so see you on our wedding day Dominique" Yun lang at tumalikod na siya paalis, kasabay niyon ay ang paglandas ng mga luha kong di ko na napigilan na kanina ko pa pinipigil na tumulo. He always hurts me like this.
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Sumasakit ang ulo kong humiga sa kama habang iniisip ang mga pangyayari kanina. HE's an asshoe, lahat ng ginawa niyang kondisyon pabor sakanya. what should I do now? I dialled Ram's number---he's been one of my closest friends seven years ago when MARCOE left me broken. at nagtataka ako kung pano nasangkot si Ram sa usapan kanina, at parang ngayon lang nag-sink in sa utak ko about what he said. wait? did he said that Ram has claimed my Vcard beforehand? what does he mean? hindi ko na natanong sakanya dahil pareho ng mainit ang ulo naming dalawa kanina. bahala siya sa buhay niya isipin niya gusto niyang isipin. I don't wanna bring up things that already happened in the past.
"hello?" Ram answered the phone with a bedroom voice, sa tantiya ko ay hindi niya alam kung sino ang tumawag sa kanya
"Ramon Lucas Garcia! magtatampo na ako saýo! you never showed up for the whole week! you've been missing a lot! I guess you owe me an explanation"
"hey babe! kalma lang ano ka ba masyado ng obvious yang pagka miss mo sa akin" natatawa niyang sagot
"sus! magseselos na ba ako diyan sa boyfriend mo ha? Ram? " .He is a SHE. ang sabi nga niya ipinanganak siyang lalake ngunit lumaki siyang babae. I still can't imagine his face when he confessed to me four years ago, he managed to hide his true self for three years but I already suspected it.. siya lang ang bukod tanging lalaki na hindi nahuhumaling sa alindog ko haha!
"babe naman eh marinig ka ng mga tao sa paligid mo! alam mo namang kayo lang ni Anne ang nakakaalam ng totoong ako" napabuntong hininga nalang ako. sayang ang lahi ni adan kay ram, he's a head turner, whenever we go to certain places like malls and restaurants, I can see women drooling over him.
"Ramon ang oa mo, nasa condo ako imposibleng may makarinig sa akin, anyway I called you because.. i need some withdrawal right now, i am stressed. can you pick me up here? i need a lift ayoko mag drive and we will go somewhere else"
" o siya sige na nga for you, para namang may magagawa ako para tumanggi"
I immediately took a quick shower and get dressed. simple lang ang suot ko. a simple knee lenght dress paired with a three inch wedge shoes. i just put on a light make up to cover my eyebugs. i want to be fresh looking in a way kahit na sobra na ata akong stressed. wala pang thirty minutes ay dumating na si ramon.
"hey you look gorgeous?"patanong niyang sabi as i opened the door for him
" i see that you are not so sure with the adjective you've used to describe me ramon" nagtatampong sabi ko.
" no babe you are really pretty in my eyes. you are more than gorgeous but you look pale is there something bothering you? " sabi ko na nga ba wala ring lusot kay ramon.
"can we talk about it over dinner? tara hindi pa ako nagdidinner my treat" aya ko nlng sakanya.
Nagpunta na kaMi sa isang restaurant near greenbelt. we just ate our dinner and talked about my dilemmas. I knew Ram would always be there for me, he's like my knight in shining armor, he's always there when i needed him most, he's the brother I never had. He told me that He is already planning to come out and I supported him with his decision. I know matatanggap din siya ng dad niya in time.
we were busy havin our chit chats when an uninvited intruder barged in "mind if i join you? " Marcoe asked .
Bago pa man ako makasagot ay nagsalita na si Ram " sure pare! babe is it just okay with you?"
"o-okay lang" I stammered
Ramdam ko ang mga titig sa akin ni marcoe na para bang anytime ay mamamatay ako sa sakit ng mga titig niya. pakiramdam ko may kasalanan akong ginawa.
"ram right? I am Marcoe in case you dont remember"
"ah how can I forget you, you were the same guy raf raf had introduced to me seven years ago"
"i was her boyfriend that time " he looked at me straight in the eye. I just rolled my eys.
you became my boyfriend because you have to protect hannah that time. that b***h.
"you dont have to bring up the past here Gabriel!"
"so you are now calling me by my second name as far as i remember that was your endearment to me Dominique" he said with amusement in his eyes.
"that's not an endearment, everyone can call you by your second name" I answered defensively
He just smirked at me and turned his gaze to Ram
"well anyway pare you are invited to our upcoming wedding this August "
hindi pinahalata ni Ram na hindi na siya nagulat dahil nasabi ko na lahat sakanya bago pa man magpakita ang anak ng kadiliman sa harap namin.
"ah ganon ba pare! well congrats. I Didnt know you two would end up tying the knot" Ram looked at me as if symphatizing with my situation.
"hindi ba nasabi sa'yo ni Dominique na magiging asawa niya na ako in two months time? "
alam kong umiinit na ang usapan kaya bago pa madulas si ram ay sumabat na ako
"uh well i guess gumagabi na,meron pa kasi akong gagawing importante GABRIEL mauna na kami ni ram "
Bago pa mandin ako tumayo ay hinawakan na ako sa braso ni Marcoe at inalalayan patayo."Ram ako na ang maghahatid sa fiance ko" nagulat at nanlaki ang mga mata ko sa sinabi niya.
"ah ano kasi. hindi pwede. si Ram ang maghahatid sa akin" matigas kong sabi
"no! you are going with me okay?" he sounded like a possesive husband
wala ng nagawa si Ram kundi tumango at sabay sabay na kaming lumabas. we parted ways sa parking lot. He guided me to his car since wala akong dalang sasakyan , I have no choice. "bakit mo naman ginawa iyon ha?" gusto ko na siyang umbagin talaga.
"ang alin? ang pag volunteer ng paghatid sa'yo? o ang pang iistorbo ko sa date niyo ng LALAKE mo?" He almost yelled at me with his sharpd and nagging tone.
inirapan ko lang siya. siya pa ang may ganang magalit.
"you shouldn't have done that akala ko ba napag usapan na natin yan? walang makiki-alam sa isat isa? you are being unfair Gab"
" so you were saying na pwede kang makipag landian in public? is that what you are trying to impose? hindi ka ba nahihiya na baka may makakita sa iyong media at gawan ka ng report na makakasira hindi lang sa iyo kundi pati sa mga pangalan natin? hindi ka ba nag iisip? "
" hindi ako nakikipag landian!"
"eh ano sa tingin mo ang ginagawa mo ha! "
"we were just having dinner and a little catching up!"
"you can fool everybody but not me okay! dont do the same mistake you did seven years ago!"
"and if i did? you will ditch me again in front of many people? and humiliate me like I was the worst girlfriend you ever had? " puno ng hinanakit niyang panunumbat.
"ayoko ng maulit ang nangyari noon. Let's just be civil to each other" naging kalmado na siya sa pakikipag usap just to cut the annoying conversation.
"yeah I guess wala na din namang halaga ang mga nangyari noon" nasabi ko nalang to save my pride
Hinatid niya ako hanggang sa pintuan ng condo ko, i didnt bother inviting him inside my unit when he suddenly walk pass through me and lie down on the coach.
"hey!get up! wala akong natatandaan na inimbitahan kita sa loob ng condo ko!" but instead of answering he just grabbed my hand and pulled me on top of him. hindi ako makagalaw sa higpit ng pagkakahawak niya sa mga kamay ko, then he immediately encircled his left arm to my waist while the other is holding my hands tight. nakatingin lang din siya sa akin at sa mga labi ko , then he grabbed my nape abruptly, the next thing I knew-- he's already kissing me hungrily, I didnt respond at first dahil ayoko, pero unti unti ay gumaganti na ako sa mapupusok at gutom niyang paghalik. nag umpisang maglakbay ang mga kamay niya paibaba sa katawan ko, we shifted our position, now he's on top of me, he unzipped my dress expertly . while we were kissing savagely, he cupped my left breast . pinipigil kong mapaungol sa nararamdaman kong kakaibang sensasyon. His kisses went down to my neck down to my mounds.
"ohhh gabriel" I let out a moan.he chuckled. he is sucking my right breast while caressing the other, hindi ko na alam kung anong sensasyon ang naidudulot ng ginagawa ni gabriel. right now i am under his spell gusto ko siyang sampalin at itulak palayo pero di ko magawa.
" You like it honey?" mas lalo pa akong napaiktad nung bumaba pa ng bumaba ang mga labi niya sa ilalim ng puson ko and when he went down there, I felt a unfamiliar sensation occuring inside me... he licked in between my thighs and sucked the juices.. "oooohhh" para akong naliliyo it was unexplainable feeling.. "you've just reached your climax hon" he said while putting back my undies.
"Get dressed, that's all for now, I cant take advantage of you not until we're married"
ano bang pinagsasabi niya? eh ano sa tingin niya ang ginawa namin kanina lang? duh! he just took my first climax!
aminin mo nabitin ka din naman eh. oh! shattap annoying mind!
hindi na ako nakapag salita habang pinapanuod siyang lumabas ng pinto.
you are still the same man I have loved before. you are still a JERK.