The Mystery of You

Chapter Seven

Alpha Sebastian’s POV 

I pace the floor a few steps. The sound of her screaming in distress is ringing in my ears. 

I look to the left and see Natalia griping onto Aiden’s arm, a worried expression on her face. 

I try to steady my breathing and look down at the ground as I pace back and forth. 

“SEBASTIAN!!” she calls out loudly from the other side of the door before it all goes quiet. 

“f**k this!” I snarl in anger, walking towards the door and yanking the handle. 

It’s locked and doesn’t budge an inch. 

I take a step back and kick the door with all my strength breaking the lock instantly. 

I hear Dr Walters yelp in shock as I storm into the room in a rage. 

“Alpha!! What on earth?!!” she says in fear as she sits on the chair across from Summer. 

I don’t spare her a glance, my vision focused on my mate who is lying on the small sofa with her eyes shut. 

“WHAT THE f**k DID YOU DO TO HER?” I fume as I rush to her side. 

Natalia and Aiden burst into the room behind me. 

I kneel down next to Summer and see her chest moving slowly up and down. 

“SPEAK!” I shout out turning to face a terrified looking Dr Walters. 

“Please… please calm down she’s absolutely safe, she’s in a state of hypnosis. She wasn’t coping well. This will help her to calm down!” she explains fearfully, her body shaking like a leaf. 

I look back at Summer doubtfully and kneel back down to take her hand in mine. 

“Why did she freak out so much around you guys? She hasn’t been as bad as this before!” Natalia states, a determined look on her face. 

“I’m not sure why, it could be a number of reasons. Perhaps the fact that we are unfamiliar to her…or one of us reminds her of someone from her past. There are any number of triggers. Episodes of panic and distress are extremely common in cases like this, I can promise you. She’s in no danger. None at all.” she answers worriedly. 

I cast my eyes to Aiden who looks back at me with uncertainty. Usually my intuition serves me well but when it comes to Summer, I’m not my usual decisive self. 

He shrugs slightly and I can tell he has no idea what to make of all this either. 

“Get the other doctor in here.” I say to him and he nods, leaving to go retrieve him. 

“When will she wake up?” I ask Dr Walters, trying to settle my anger. 

“Whenever she’s ready, it’s different for everyone.” 

I pull a chair over next to Summer and sit down, holding her hand in mine. 

“I’m not leaving… from now on, I’ll be here in the room with her.” I state adamantly, regretting my decision to leave in the first place. 

“Okay.” Dr Walters whispers as the pack doctor comes into the room. 

I instruct him to check over Summer and he does so quickly, reassuring me that Dr Walters is correct in her methods. 

“We should leave you guys now.” Aiden says, moving to follow the doctor out of the room. He tugs on Natalia’s arm and she follows reluctantly. 

I stare at Summer’s face for a moment as my adrenaline dissipates and I calm down a little. 

“She means a lot to you?” Dr Walters asks, taking her seat again as she watches quietly. 

I nod my head and turn to face her. 

“She’s my mate.” I say proudly, deciding that I’m not going to hide the truth for anyone. 

If the Dr runs back to tell Ivan he can go f**k himself. 

“Oh?” she gasps in shock. “This must be very difficult. I’m sorry, if I had known that her panic would distress you both so much I would have told you to stay, of course.” 

Just then Summer begins to stir, her face twitching as though she is in the midst of a bad dream. 

“What’s going on?” I ask worriedly. 

Dr Walters pulls out a notepad and starts scribbling furiously as she watches intently. 

“She could be accessing memories.” 

My insides twist as I watch Summer’s face contort as small whimpers begin to leave her lips. 

She’s in pain, mentally she’s suffering and I can’t cope with seeing her like this. 

“We can’t leave her like this we have to wake her.” I say firmly as I move to touch her face. 

“No dont! Remember what I said. We can’t disrupt the process. I told you Alpha this won’t be pretty but it’s a necessary evil.” 

I grit my teeth in frustration as I suddenly understand why the doctor didn’t want me here in the first place. Seeing someone you care about like this leaves you with a feeling of hopelessness. The same feeling that consumed me when my parents died and again when Bee passed away. 

Suddenly Summer’s eyes shoot open and she springs up where she sits, confused and panic stricken. 

The large man accompanying Dr Walters moves closer and I shoot him a warning look. 

“I’m here. I’m here.” I say gently as her terror filled eyes turn to meet mine. 

“Sebastian…” she chokes out, her eyes filled with tears. 

Then she grabs me, throwing her arms around my neck in a desperate hug. 

I wrap my arms around her shaking body and hold her close to my chest, stoking her hair gently. 

Despite the situation, I can’t help but marvel at how it feels to have her in my arms, to have her need me. 

“It’s okay, I’m here. I’m here and I’m not leaving.” I say gently, leaning back to look in her blue eyes. 

She nods softly as I move onto the sofa to sit next to her. 

She allows me to take her hand in mine as she wipes the stray tears that runs down her face. 

It is then that the Dr subtly clears her throat and I remember we are not alone. 

“Do you remember me Summer. I’m Dr Walters.” she says gently. 

“I’m sorry… I’m sorry about before.” Summer answer sadly, looking towards me for reassurance. 

“Don’t you worry about it at all. It’s perfectly normal. You have been through a lot and I’m here to help you if I can.” 

Summer nods and takes a deep breath. 

Dr Walters positions the notepad over her knee once again. 

“Now… when you were asleep it seemed like you were having a dream. Can you tell me if you saw anything? Did you remember anything at all about what happened to you.” she asks softly. 

“Just take your time.” I state carefully. 

She takes a second to compose herself before beginning. 

“I remember a dark room… the lights flickering. There was no windows. Only steel covered walls…” she chokes out. 

“And what else Summer?” Dr Walters adds, writing down notes. 

I squeeze her hand reassuringly. 

“Uhh my arms… they were chained to a bed. A bed like that one.” she points, gesturing to the hospital bed at the other side of the room. 

“The place it smelled sterile, and it was bare. There was nothing else in the room. Nothing but the bed.” 

I begin to picture the scene, my mind conjuring it up around me as though I’m living it with her. 

“The noises… there was screaming. A lot of screaming.” she whispers, clasping her hand over her mouth as tears fill her eyes. 

“Keep going Summer you’re doing amazing. What else? Did you see anyone?” the doctor asks intently. 

Summer furrows her brows and shakes her head sadly. 

“Not their faces but I saw them. People in white coats, they had masks covering their faces. Like doctors except…” 

“Except what?” I ask her gently. 

She shakes her head and tears fall rapidly down her cheeks. 

“Except they weren’t there to help. They hurt me and I don’t know why. They did things to me. Cut me, hurt me, they stuck needles in my arms. They made me shift back and forth but I had no control of myself or my wolf. I tried but I couldn’t… I couldn’t get out. I couldn’t fight back…. Sebastian I tried! I tried so hard.” she states, breaking down into sobs. 

I pull her into my body at once and comfort her again. 

“Summer do you remember how you got there? “ the doctor asks urgently. 

She shakes her head burying herself into my shoulder. 

“Is there anything else anything at all-“ 

“That’s enough now.” I say, deciding that my mate has been through enough for one day. 

“But we-“ 

“I said it’s enough.” I repeat firmly. 

Dr Walters nods and places her things back in her brief case. 

“Okay… I’ll leave you for now. I’d like consult with your own doctor now anyway .” she says calmly standing up to leave the room. 

Her colleagues follow her out and I watch them close the door behind them. 

I look down at Summer as she clutches onto me, her tears soaking through the material of my shirt. 

I lay my chin on top of her head as I hold her in close. 

*** 

Summer’s POV 

I wake up and look around the softly lit bedroom before glancing over at the time on the nightstand. 

1am. 

I bring my hand up to my aching head and wince slightly at the pain that radiates from the area. 

I must have slept practically the entire day. After the doctor left earlier, I felt exhausted. I could barely walk or think straight. 

I cringe slightly as I remember how Sebastian had to carry me to my room and I clasp my hand over my face as I remember how I begged him to leave the lights on. 

I throw myself back down on the mattress and stare at the ceiling as the tears threaten to come once again. 

How in the world has this happened to me? 

I ask myself the same questions that I have asked myself since the minute I woke up here. 

What happened to me? 

Where did I come from? 

Who am I? 

It seems ridiculous to me. Like some sort of awful movie that you would watch in the cinema and scoff at. 

I don’t even remember my name. 

My own damn name. 

Ever since I woke up in the hospital here I’ve felt like a confused little kid. 

My emotions are extreme. One minute I’m filled with a deep sadness. The next I’m filled with unfiltered rage. 

Im all over the place… a mess. 

I know that I don’t remember who I am but for some reason I feel like that just isn’t me. 

That whoever I am doesn’t function this way normally. 

I wipe the tears from my eyes in frustration and shake my head. 

Im done with all this crying. It’s quite honestly draining me physically and I know I have to try and take back some control. 

Maybe if I’m able to gain control of my body once again… my mind will follow. 

It’s a hopeful thought but one I’m clinging to for now. 

I get up out of the bed and wander to the bathroom flicking the light on.

I turn on the shower and begin to undress before walking over to look in the mirror at my reflection. 

I look skinny and weak. 

Am I weak? Is that who I am? 

I bring my hand up to the small patch of red skin on my neck and stare at it intensely. 

I noticed it for the first time when Natalia handed me the clothes to change.

I know exactly what it is… it’s a mark. 

Left there by someone who I have no recollection of altogether. 

Did he love me? Did I love him? 

I wish I knew. Goddess how I wish I knew. 

I tear my eyes away from the spot and climb into the shower, allowing the water to flow over my aching limbs. 

I close my eyes and the image of Sebastian immediately enters my mind. 

Since I arrived here he’s been the only thing that’s kept me sane. 

His touch… it calms my mind and brings me back to reality. When things get too much, he’s the only one I want by my side. 

He’s my true mate. 

I knew it the moment that his hand touched mine for the first time. 

All the memories I have lost. All the things I don’t know. But our bond… I recognised it straight away and if I’m honest it scares me. 

It scares me how much I look for him when he’s not there… how much I rely on him already. 

He’s a perfect stranger! 

But then I suppose everyone is right now. 

I leave the shower and dry off quickly before putting on pair of shorts and throwing on the yellow sweater that Sebastian bought for me. 

I’m wide awake yet again and know there’s no chance of sleeping so I decide to go off and explore once again. 

As I wander out into the hallway the darkness sets my nerves on edge instantly. 

I shake my head and push the fear down, determined that I won’t let it stop me. 

That I won’t let it hold me prisoner any longer. 

I tiptoe down the corridor and make my way back to the piano room. 

As I get closer I hear the sound of gentle music playing.

It’s Sebastian. I know it is. 

I stop outside the room, leaning my back against the wall and closing my eyes as the gentle melody soothes my jumbled mind. 

I could listen to it all day. 

I carefully take a step towards the door and push it open slowly. 

Sebastian stops and looks towards me with a grin. 

His handsome features momentary render me a little shell shocked and I stand staring at him like an i***t. 

“We have to stop meeting like this.” he jokes, standing up from the chair. 

I smile back slightly and walk into the room. 

“You’re wearing the sweater.” he smiles nodding his head towards it. 

I bring my hand up to tug at the sleeve nervously. 

Urggg why does he turn me to jello with only one look?

“Yeah, I told you I liked it.” I shrug with a smirk. 

He nods carefully and takes a cautious step towards me. 

I can tell he is just as nervous around me. Although I think it stems more from a place of not knowing how to handle me and my mood-swings. 

I can’t blame him if I’m honest. 

“How are you feeling?” he asks rubbing the back of his head. 

“Uhh better.” I answer honestly. 

“Good… Good.” he says awkwardly. 

There is silence for a few awkward moments. 

“I kind of just want to forget about it for a while…” 

His eyes look into mine and he nods, rubbing his chin as he thinks. 

“Okay, well are you hungry?” 

I chuckle slightly. “Starving actually.” 

He beams back at me and takes my hand in his. 

The contact sends ripples through my body and I can’t help but smile again. 

“Come on then.” he says dragging me off down the corridor quickly and through the large lobby of the silent house. 

“Where are we going?” I laugh as he pushes through a large door and heads down another lengthy hallway. 

“You’ll see.” 

As we enter the last door, I look around to see that we are indeed in the pack house kitchens. 

“Well I guess this is the place to come if you’re hungry.” I laugh as he directs me to a high stool by the large wooden table. 

“Yeah although Michael the head cook would have a fit if he knew someone had been in here.” he grins as he walks to open the huge fridge. 

“Oh I’m pretty sure you’d get away with it, considering you are the boss.” I shrug in amusement. 

“Ahh maybe you’re right.” he winks before reaching into the drawers and pulling out some tubs. 

“Ice cream.” I say happily as he tears the lid off of the container. 

“Of course… is there anything better for a middle of the night snack?” 

“I guess not.” I laugh as he hands me a spoon. 

“What’s your favourite flavour?” he asks nonchalantly. 

I open my mouth to answer but find I have nothing to say. Nothing comes to my mind and I furrow my brows in annoyance. The same helpless feeling crawling upon me once again. 

Sebastian examines my demeanour and shakes his head.

“Don’t worry… this an easy one to fix.” he states grabbing tub after tub from the freezer drawers and setting them down on the table. 

I look back at him waiting for an explanation. 

“You can try them all… see which you like best.” he grins. “You up for the challenge.” 

I laugh in response and nod eagerly. 

“Oh I have I feeling that I will excel in this challenge.” 

I lift the first spoonful of vanilla ice cream to my lips and nod appreciatively as the creamy taste hits my taste buds. 

“Not bad?” Sebastian asks curiously. 

“Yeah… but I think we can do better.” I grin in return. 

“Good… because of that was your favourite then I’d have to rethink letting you stay under my roof.” he jokes with a perfect smile. 

He passes me the next tub that turns out to be mint chocolate chip. 

“Eww that is not it.” I state shaking my head after putting it through the taste test. 

“What?! You’re kidding right. It’s one of the best.” 

“Absolutely not!” I protest as he tries it after me. “Sebastian it’s awful.” 

“Okay okay… time to pull out the big guns.” he states opening up the next tub and digging his spoon in. 

He holds the spoon up in front of me and raises his eyebrow challengingly. 

Our eyes meet for a moment and I blush slightly as I lean my head closer to taste it. 

He watches me intently as I do and I can’t help it when my heart rate spikes just a little. 

I move away quickly and smile widely. 

“Yep… that’s the one to beat.” I grin. 

He’s quiet for a moment. His eyes just looking into mine deeply. He seems lost in thought. 

“Are you okay?” I asks carefully. 

He shakes his head and smiles. 

“Chocolate? That’s a reasonable choice.” he chuckles, taking a seat as we get stuck in to the remainder of the tub.

“Thanks for this.” I say sincerely. 

“You don’t have to keep saying thank you. You know that don’t you?” he asks curiously. 

“I know… but just for everything. I can’t thank you enough for helping me the way you have.” 

He nods and looks down at the table for a second, clearing his throat. 

“Summer there’s been something I’ve been wanting to ask you.” 

I gulp a little in preparation. 

“When we touch-“

“I know.” I interrupt softly. 

“You do?” he asks, his green eyes opening wide. 

“Yes.” I reply quietly. 

He clears his throat again and rubs the back of his neck. 

“So how do you feel about it?” he asks. 

I bite my lip for a moment and realise that I have absolutely no idea what to say in return. 

“I don’t know Sebastian… I can’t deny that I feel a connection to you. When I feel scared… your touch seems to help me but I… I don’t know what to say because I don’t know anything at all right now.” I say honestly. 

“I know, you don’t have to say anything else right now. I understand.” he nods in reassurance. 

I instinctively bring my hand up to the mark on my neck as I think once again about it’s mysterious origins. 

“You want to know what happened first?” he asks nodding towards my hand. 

I pull my hand away and look back into his eyes which now look sad. 

My heart aches at the hurt he must be feeling. 

“I do… I’m sorry Sebastian. I need to know what happened to him. What happened between us. I’m sorry that you have been given a bond with me. I would fully understand if you wanted to reject it… if you wanted to reject me. In fact it would probably make much more sense-“ I say genuinely. 

He screws up his face instantly and shakes his head. 

“No Summer… I’m not even thinking of that right now. Not a chance.” 

“But Sebastian… what if I never get better? What if I never figure this whole thing out?” I ask sadly. 

“Then I’ll wait…” 

I let out a breath before I say the next sentence… the one that I know will hurt the most. 

“And what if I do remember? What if I remember and I can’t move on from him?” 

He drops the spoon on the table and clenches his jaw a little. 

“I don’t know… honestly I don’t know.” he says calmly. 

We sit in silence for a few moments longer before I stand up carefully. 

“I think I better go.” I say sadly. 

He follows my lead and stands up too, moving around the chair to stand in front of me. 

“No wait. Don’t leave like this. I shouldn’t have brought it up.” he says, looking downward seeming frustrated with himself. 

I bring my hand up to his face and lay my palm on his cheek gently. 

His eyes come up to meet mine and lock in place. 

I can’t move. Even though I know that I should, I’m frozen.

Damn this bond is so powerful. My connection to him is already deepening. 

“Please don’t be sad. I hate to see it.” I say softly. 

He brings his hand up to cover mine. I can’t stop myself from enjoying the tenderness of his touch.

The sadness disappears and is replaced by his usual strong demeanour. 

“Then I won’t be. Don’t worry about me. Let’s get you better.” he answers with a nod. 

He grunts slightly and pulls away from me to put everything on the table back in its rightful place. 

“Let’s get out of here. We are meeting with Dr Walters again tomorrow.” he says before we head back to out rooms quietly. 

***

Alpha Sebastian’s POV 

“Thanks for handling the training again today Aiden.” I say waking into the lobby of the pack house with both him and Dan. 

“No worries. That’s what I’m here for.” he answers with a shrug. 

“It was good to have a training session with Major Pierce again… just like old times.” Dan chuckles as he rolls his shoulder with a wince. 

Just then Natalia comes downstairs with Rosalie to greet us. 

“Hey… how is she?” I ask them immediately. 

They look at each other and smile. 

“She’s fine, she’s just coming.” Natalia chuckles. 

“Why are you laughing?” I ask in confusion. 

“Nothing it’s just adorable… she asks how you are… you ask how she is… did something happen between you both?” she asks suspiciously. 

I shake my head as they all examine me with interest. 

“No we just chatted but it was good. Good to clear the air a little.” 

Natalia nods before looking over my shoulder to the driveway. 

“So is Dr Nina whatever coming here for the session today?” 

“Dr Walters? Yeah. she’s already here setting up in the study. I thought Summer would prefer it to the hospital.” 

“Hmmm.” she says slowly. 

“What is it? I know that look.” Aiden says immediately. 

Natalia folds her arms across her chest. 

“I don’t know… don’t you guys think Summer’s reaction was way extreme when she set eyes on those people?” 

“The doctor explained it all. Summer will be prone to episodes of panic. Especially around unfamiliar people. I know I lost my head for a minute but I don’t think there’s anything to worry about.” I answer honestly. 

“Okay.” she answers, nodding her head. “Well you are going to be there from now on anyway?” 

“Yeah… 100%” 

Summer then comes downstairs and walks towards the group. 

“Morning.” I say carefully and she smiles with a smile that doesn’t reach her eyes. 

It’s full of nervous energy and I can’t blame her. 

“Are you up for this? I can always cancel…” 

“No I need to do this.” she says adamantly. 

I nod in response and the others offer their support before disappearing, leaving us alone. 

I take her hand in mine and we head to the study to meet Nina. 

I open the door and Summer draws in a breath as she sees the doctor and her team. Her nails digging into my skin as her hand squeezes mine tightly. 

She allows me to lead her to the sofa to sit down and Nina walks towards us smiling softly. 

“Good morning Summer. It’s good to see you looking so well this morning. Now we are going to do the same as yesterday but this time I’d like to place these little probes on your head just here and here.” she says, pointing her finger. 

“The machine will be able to tell me a little more about what’s happening when you are under. Is that okay?” 

Summer nods slowly and crushes my hand as the doctor sets up the equipment. 

The doctor then takes a seat as her colleagues monitor the machine. 

“Okay… let’s begin…”

I look back at my mates face and wonder… I wonder what else is hidden in those forgotten memories of hers.