Chapter 11
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Jason
Turn around, asshole.
I never expected what I would find when the Satan suddenly said that.
Jessica with two people; a man and a woman.
I didn’t know who they were but seeing Jessica looking at them without moving an inch and her face was ready to cry, I immediately knew who she was dealing with.
Her ex-fiancé and his new girlfriend, maybe the one who he slept with.
I f*****g hated it.
I didn’t like seeing Jessica in that state and I felt horrible because I left her to deal with them alone.
Fucking useless.
Jesus Christ, just shut the f**k up!
I did a mistake; I wouldn’t create another.
I kept pulling her out of the aquarium park. I couldn’t let her in there any longer knowing her nemesis was still there inside and the possibility of them meeting was still high.
This was not what I imagined.
We were supposed to be having a date, a memorable one, and it was ruined thanks to that scumbag. Now her mood would be ruined but mine was wrecked already.
“Jason, stop,” Jessica prevented me when we almost reached my car. I looked back at her, finding her head was hanging down. I hated this kind of sight. She shouldn’t be looking down like this. Now she looked like a cat that just got beat up painfully.
But when she raised her head to look at me, I found something different. She was smiling. What the hell?
“Thank you, Jason,” she said but her voice was cracked and ready to cry. She held my hand. “Thank you.” Her copper eyes were still watery. She was so ready to cry but she held it back. She didn’t want to appear weak, especially not after she met the man who she considered had ruined her. Who broke her heart. I knew Jessica didn’t want to cry or be emotional over him again. He was not worth it. Not worth her time and attention. Not even her love. She was trying so hard to be strong.
Her strength left me in awe. She was trying but I was so weak. I let my weakness take over me.
You didn’t even try at all and allowed me to take control of you.
He was right. Although I hated to admit it, he was f*****g right.
Because I thought I was incurable.
No one couldn’t pull him out from me.
That’s why meeting Jessica gave me hope. I thought curing her meant curing me as well. I indirectly put my hope on her. I was a selfish asshole.
But it was not that easy. It was never meant to be.
“Should we go somewhere else?” she asked as I blinked my eyes a few times.
“Uh, yeah, we should.” I escorted her to the car and deposited myself as well. “Do you have something in mind?”
“I don’t. You?”
“Me neither.” It was still noon and I remembered we hadn’t eaten lunch yet. “Should we go look for lunch?”
“Sure. I’m not that hungry and if you want to go back it’s fine with me. I…want to be far away from them.” I knew it.
I only smiled in agreement and drove us home. Jessica didn’t speak at all. This was so awkward and I couldn’t stand the silence so I turned on the music.
Now, how should I break the ice? It was clear as the sun Jessica didn’t want to say anything about Christian. I still remembered how shocked he was when I declared myself as Jessica’s boyfriend. Well, I couldn’t do anything and allowed my mouth to take control of me. Or maybe it was the Satan’s doing. Besides, he was the one who chose that woman over Jessica so it shouldn’t be so surprising if his ex-fiancée had sailed her heart to someone else – to me. It was him who let her go.
Now I had met the source of her nightmare, I should be careful from now on. Because for a moment there, I allowed him to do his dirty work as well. I knew that was the effective way to kick Christian away from her. Telling him Jessica had a boyfriend. To show him that she had moved on. Letting him know the pain he had given to her only made her stronger.
“Aren’t you going to ask something?” Jessica finally spoke.
“I thought you don’t want to talk about it and I won’t push you.”
“You’re so nice, aren’t you?” I was not. I was trying to be nice. “I was always hoping to be like you, acting like nothing is wrong even when you were terribly hurt.” Oh, this girl had no idea what I was facing, even until now. Who I was fighting with. For how many years.
“I’m not like that, Jess. Even I had to lock myself in my room just to mourn my mistake.”
“What did you do?”
“Well, something but it’s in the past and I wanted to leave it there. I don’t want to let the past affect my present.”
“How could you say that easily?” she asked, sounding a little bit emotional.
“Because I’ve been there.”
“You weren’t being cheated for a couple of years,” she countered.
“I wasn’t.”
“Then, you shouldn’t say that you’ve been there because you never have. You don’t understand how I feel.” Okay, she was having a breakdown. I had to remain calm, otherwise, she would see something she didn’t want to see. She wouldn’t want to see what I had kept hidden behind my kind façade.
“Jess, I’m sorry if I offended you, I didn’t mean that. I just wanted to say to you that I’ve been in a place where I wanted to leave something behind, just like you. It was never easy but I was trying to. I know how strong you are and I know you will get there. You just need time for yourself,” I explained and she went silent. I hoped my words reached her. Because I wanted to see every single of her. Her beautiful expression when she was so happy, excited when she was with that seal, even her sad face, tears, anger, even lust; I wanted to see all of them. I wanted to own them.
Possessive bastard.
There was nothing wrong with that.
She was the girl I had always wanted. The girl I was waiting for.
The bastard Satan could call me anything he liked; Jessica was the one.
“I’m sorry.”
“No, that’s okay. You look sexy when you’re angry,” I said and she sighed. “Just want to break the tension, girl,” I added and slightly looked at her, finding her looking at me. s**t, she was so beautiful.
We spent the rest of the road without talking until we reached Manhattan. We had seafood for lunch. Thanks for visiting the aquarium, I wanted some lobster and Jessica wanted some as well. Good thing we could eat and talk normally. I always avoided the topic of her ex-fiancé although I wanted to ask her that badly. When I remembered his expression when I said I was her boyfriend, it was priceless. He didn’t expect that for sure. I thought Christian wanted Jessica to never forget about him and possibly wanted him back. The damn ego of a man where he wanted to see his ex-woman still desperate for him. He thought Jessica wouldn’t move on this fast. Maybe it was just a matter of time before he showed up in Ricardo’s office, asking for her explanation.
Oh, right.
“I’m sorry, too, Jess,” I suddenly said.
“About what?”
“About me saying that I’m your boyfriend.”
“Oh. That’s okay. Because at least I could see his expression when you said that.” There was a slight tease in her tone. Cute.
“And what do you think?”
“I think he’s shocked. Even though I don’t want to admit it, Christian didn’t expect that.” Yep, we were in the same boat.
“If he ever asked you to return to him, would you accept?”
“No.” Yes! That relieved me. “I still love him, though.” And my heart just stabbed by the knife and the f*****g Satan laughed in my head. “But that doesn’t mean I want him back.” Congratulations, my heart had just been restored. Eat that, jackass. “And I don’t want to use you as the cure for me but I’m not mad about you declaring yourself as my boyfriend.”
“Well, I’m glad.” I put down the fork. “Actually, I was avoiding this topic but how did you meet him?”
“He used to be my senior back in high school and college. I admired him back in high school, we were close but we hadn’t dated yet. He was the one who said I should follow what other people are doing. Doing stuff normally and not pursuing my dream to be working around animals. And I stupidly did. We started dating in my third year of college. Everything was working fine. Christian was nice. His parents were nice. My parents welcomed him. And you know the end of my story.”
“How your parents felt about that?”
“Disappointed. Turning from loving into hateful to him. My father was ready to grab his shotgun to hunt him down.” I laughed.
“All fathers would do that. Mine is just the same.”
“Really? Tell me.”
“Well, you know that Ricardo has been my friend since we were young, with Cathy too. Although my father is fine with Ricardo but when he revealed himself dating his daughter, he immediately turned into a protective father mode.” And she laughed.
“I can imagine that.”
“Yeah. That showed how much he loves his daughter, just like yours. And I have to prepare myself one day if I managed to capture your heart,” I declared.
She half-smiled. “I hope it’s that easy.”
“It never is. I’ll wait for you, Jess. I said that a year ago and I will say it again,” I paused and looked straight into her grey eyes. “I will always wait for you.”
Because I had been waiting for her for too long.
I almost lose hope until she restored my faith.
I reached out her hand, gently grabbing it. “I will make you love me. That’s a promise and I will never break my promise, bunny doll.”
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