By now, every single thing that I have ever believed in was crumbling in front of me, and I felt defeated, my hands tied behind me, my heart broken into pieces at my feet.
"Why are you telling me this?" I managed to say, my voice shaky with tears. "Shouldn't you take advantage of my foolish, naive self and..."
Nikolai's gentle hand on my cheek stopped my rapidly heightening outburst, and I looked up to him, my body slightly trembling, my teeth gritted.
"Because as I said earlier, you are still the only woman I have...."
"Then you should have stopped there."
"You deserve to know."
"What I deserve is to be loved!" I screamed, my frustration beckoning to the high heavens. "What I deserve is to be loved. To be desired. I could never ever have that, and now that I finally feel like I can
