Prologue
"So, you mean, once we both know you are pregnant because of me, lalayuan na kita? So that's the contract?"
"Ano payag ka na?" sana pumayag siya. Sana pumayag siya. Siya na lang ang pag-asa ko. Tinaasan ko siya ng kilay. "Don't give me that look, okay? Sorry, ha? Atat eh," inismiran ko siya. Matagal niya kong tinitigan habang napapailing siya tsaka binalik sa atensyon niya ang papel na pinapabasa ko sa kanya. "Ang tagal mong magbasa," reklamo ko. "Sign it now!" I commanded.
Ngumisi siya nang hindi ako tinitingnan. "I have the rights to read what's inside your stupid contract. Mabuti na 'yong sigurado ako sa binabasa ko," tsk. Tsk. Kay gwapong nilalang, pero mayabang. Sarap ihampas ang putik sa kanya. Hays.
Hindi ko na lang siya sinagot. Baka mainis lang ako sa isang 'to eh. Sayang kagwapuhan kapag pinatulan ko 'to. Magalit pa sa'kin ang mga Greek goddesses na nagkakagusto sa kanya. Psh.
"'The chosen party s***h volunteered party must have no s*x affair while still in the contract and if the demanding party hasn't pregnant yet.' Okay, so hindi ako makakagala, ganoon ba ang ibig sabihin nun? That's too unfair!" himutok niya at padabog niyang nilapag ang papeles sa mesa.
"Mabuti na 'yong nakakasiguro ako na wala ka munang hahanapin na ibang babae except of me. Okay? Oh right?" nag-cross fingers ako nang basahin niya ulit ang kontrata. Please lang, bilisan mo naman ang pagbabasa. Daig pa kita. Kabwisit ka!
"'While in the contract, string attached shall not be formed or no emotional attachment is allowed,'" nanahimik siya saglit tsaka tinitigan ako.
"What? May reklamo ka? Did you understand or shall I explain that further to you? Ano na?"
"Sandali! Hindi pa nga ako tapos basahin. Why so eager, Miss?" he smirked and winked at me. Eh kung tusukin ko kaya mga mata niya. Hindi tatalab sa'kin mga pa-charming niya. Hindi naman ako katulad ng ibang babae na madaling ma-fall sa charms. Tanga lang ang mahuhulog sa kanya.
Sinamaan ko na lang siya ng tingin tsaka lang niya ipinagpatuloy ang pagbabasa. "Wag mo kong gaguhin dito, Fireus. Makikita mo," I warned him with my glare.
"If you want me to finish reading this contract, patapusin mo ko dito. O gusto mong mag-bangayan na lang tayo dito. Ano?"
"Okay, sorry na," I rolled my eyes. I want to punch him right at his face. Pero dahil kailangan ko siya, hindi ko muna gagawin. Kailangan ko siyang ma-convince. Pakabait muna ako.
"Why you just don't marry yourself to a guy? Why it has to be me para magbuntis sa'yo? Kung magpapakasal ka lang, magkakaroon ka din ng anak. Tss. You said you are 23 years old, right? Bata ka pa, makakahanap ka ng lalakeng mapapangasawa mo at magkakaroon pa kayo ng anak," he said not looking at me but to the paper.
I just rolled my eyes. "Mababasa mo diyan 'yong reason ko. Pwede bang wag ka ng magdada pa?" taray ko sa kanya. Ayoko ngang mag-asawa. Eh sa anak ang kailangan ko. Why do I need a husband if in fact I just only need a child on my tummy? Just for that, pag-aaksayahin ko pa ba ng oras? Magpapakasal lang ako dahil habol ko lang ay anak ko? What if in case I am pregnant? Anong mangyayari sa asawa ko? Malamang, hihiwalayan ko. I get what I want eh.
Magpapabuntis ako. 'Yon ang habol ko.
I twitched my lip and leaned in the chair, crossing my arms over my chest. Ang tagal naman niyang magbasa. Not more than 500 words lang naman ang tinype ko ah? Why it took him so long to read the contract?
"So, wala akong benefits na makukuha? Kahit pera?" Tanong niya at nilapag sa mesa ang kontrata at tinitigan ako.
Bumuntong-hininga ako. I believe I explained clearly in the contract. Hindi ba siya nakakaintindi ng English? "Ang yaman mo para sa isang tao na may-ari ng coffee shop. You still need money? You can satisfy your needs towards me naman. That's the point. You just have to stick with me all the time at kapag nabuntis mo na ako, that is the time na aalis na ako and you have to stay away from me. Ano gets mo na po ba?"
"Hindi ako pwede mambabae even just a second?"
"Yup. Hindi pwede. If you sign the contract, you have to follow the rules you have read."
"It's unfair, don't you think? Hindi ako sanay na sa iisang babae lang ang focus ng kasama ko." he said meaningfully. Muntik na akong mapa-roll eyes sa sinabi niya.
Naramdaman ko ang sarili ko na namumula which have earned a grin. Sinamaan ko siya ng tingin. "Wala akong pake. I want to get pregnant A-S-A-P. Understand? Pirmahan mo na nga ang kontrata nang matapos na 'to at baka mapunta pa sa kabastusan ang mga sasabihin mo," I flipped my hair to hide the blush in my cheeks na hanggang ngayon ay nararamdaman ko pa rin. I am not used to it whenever he talked with his vulgarity.
"Aww. The virgin woman is blushing. That's cute," he grinned.
Inikot ko na lang mga mata ko at hindi nagpaapekto. "Sign it," I said, frowning.
Umiling siya. "I have one condition for that. I want your contract to be valid if we seal it by a kiss."
"WHAT?!! NABABALIW KA NA BA?" ano na naman ang pinag-iisip niya? Kiss? Kiss ba sabi niya? Does he want me to kiss me? Or shall I kiss him? Ngayon na ba?! Oh no! Napaupo ako agad nang ma-realize ko ang nagawa ko. I had shouted in front of people who were busy eating. Geez!
"Hindi ako nababaliw. I'm serious, Cejay. You want me to get pregnant with you, am I right?" tumango ako. Desperada na ako kung desperada. Gusto ko siya ang magbuntis sa'kin. I choose him because... he is ..... perfect? Tama bang description 'yon sa kanya?
"Then, gawin mo ang gusto ko. Gagawin ko din ang gusto mo. That's the deal," seryoso na siyang nakatingin sa akin at hindi ko alam kung paano umakto ng maayos ngayon.
I looked away afterwards. "I haven't had my first kiss," mahina na sambit ko at nakita ko sa gilid ng mata ko na hindi siya nag-react even a flinch, wala akong nakita. Well, siguro sa loob-loob niya, tinatawanan na niya ako. Hmp! Pasalamat siya, nagpapakabait ako because I need him desperately. Kung hindi, bugbog-sarado na sa akin si Fireus.
"Then let me taste what first kiss should you feel. And to seal our contract, of course."
"How?" Tumingin ako sa kanya, diretso sa mga mata niya. I just want to see his expression na baka nababaliw lang 'tong lalakeng 'to o hindi.
"Come with me and I'll show you," he took my hand with his and pulled me out in the restaurant. Then we approached his car and pumasok kami doon sa back seat ng car niya. Kinakabahan ako nang tinitigan na niya ako and his eyes fell down from my lips. Madilim pero nakikita ko pa rin siya through the light post na nasa tabi ng car niya.
Napapiksi ako when I felt his hand landed on my left cheek at naramdaman ko ang mainit niyang hininga. I gripped his shirt. "Fireus..." kinakabahan ako. Gusto ko sanang sabihin.
"Relax, Cejay," his soothing voice calmed me. "I will kiss you at huwag kang maging sadista, okay? If you want this to sign the contract, calm down and let me kiss you," naguluhan ako sa sinabi niya or rather sa biglaang naramdaman ko. Bigla kasing may naramdaman ako sa tiyan ko and even in my heart.
I am about to speak nang bigla'y may dumampi sa labi ko which made my eyes widen. It was then I realize he was kissing me! Fireus was kissing me! Mga ilang seconds ako nakatulala bago ako nag-decide to close my eyes.
When his lips moved to kiss me, slowly, I registered in my mind as how his lips moved from mine. Tumugon ako sa halik niya at pinulupot ko ang mga kamay ko sa leeg niya. Suminghap ako nang maramdaman ko ang sarili ko na nakakandong na sa kanya. May naramdaman akong sensasyon at kumakabog ang dibdib ko habang hinalikan ko siya. I don't know how long did we kiss. Basta when our lips broke from the kiss, naliliyo ako sa sensasyon na nararamdaman ko sa kanya. We stared to each other and no one of us spoke. Dahan-dahan akong umalis mula sa pagka-kandong sa kanya as I sat next to him. Awkward. Oo, ang awkward. Ni isa sa amin hindi nagsalita.
Tapos ay tumikhim siya kaya lumingon ako sa kanya. Nakatingin na pala siya sa akin nang hindi ko namamalayan.
"The contract is sealed. Susundin ko ang lahat ng rules na naroon, Cejay."
I brightened up at nakalimutan ko ang nangyari kanina and I hugged him dahil sa tuwa. "Thank you, Fireus. Grabe! I love you na talaga!"
I felt his arms hugging me tightly. "I love you, too."
"May sinasabi ka?" lumayo ako sa kanya. May ibinulong kasi siya pero hindi ko narinig.
"Nothing," umiling siya.
Natahimik ako saglit. At bigla akong nabahidan ng hiya nang ma-realize ko na our body was pressing together into a tight hug. I was fully aware from the thought of he and I are going to have to do it. "K-Kailangan na ba n-nating gawin 'yon ngayon?" kinakabahan kong tanong.
"Handa ka na ba para doon?"
I looked away then I returned my gaze back to him. Handa na ba ako para dito? Pero ito nga ang motive ko, di ba? That's why I make a contract just for him. Kung sasabihin kong hindi pa ako ready, what's the use of talking to him? Ito na 'yong chance ko so why not grab it? "Ready na ako, Fireus. But please be gentle," naramdaman ko ang pag-iinit ng pisngi ko sabay ng pagngisi niya. Damn it! I wasn't used to say it lalo na't mismo sa harap niya. Open-minded naman akong tao but somehow, it's very weird na banggitin sa isang lalake ang ganito.
"Cute."
"May sinasabi ka?"
"Wala naman," he acted cool.
"Saan natin gagawin 'yon?" uminit na naman ang pisngi ko because of what I've said.
Narinig ko siyang tumawa. "Para ka namang virgin sa lagay na 'yan," sinamaan ko siya ng tingin. Of course, I'm still a virgin! Ano ba sa tingin niya? Hindi na ako virgin? "Don't worry, Cejay. I'll do anything to pleasure you and crave yourself to me. I somehow claim myself as an excellent in bed. I'll make you come and please your body with my touch."
Hindi ko maipaliwanag pero nag-init ang katawan ko sa sinabi niya. It's like he awakened something in me. Then I felt something in between of my legs. Napalunok ako nang ma-realize ko kung ano 'yon. I'm wet. Paano nangyari 'yon?
"You!" bigla ko siyang dinuro. Tumaas ang kilay niya. "You make me wet!" I said and clutched his collar.
"What?" natatawang sabi niya. Parang hindi naniniwala sa sinasabi ko.
"Let's do it tonight! Ready na ako! Have s*x with me!" nilapit ko ang mukha ko sa kanya to see him that I want it now! I need it now!
"You sure?"
"Oo nga!" gusto ko na nga eh! Gustung-gusto ko na. Gusto ko ng makakita ng baby na aalagain ko for years. That baby I can cherish and love and provide what he or she needs.
"Fireus..." I was shocked when he hugged me and that he buried his face to the crook of my neck. Naramdaman ko ang mainit niyang hininga sa leeg ko. I seemed to feel the fire ignited in me.
Nag-check in na kami sa hotel afterwards nang yakapin niya ako. My hands are sweating at hindi ko maipaliwanag ang kaba ko lalo na't noong pumasok na kami sa room. When I heard the door closed, mas lalo akong kinabahan. Pwede pa bang mag-back out? Pwede pa ba? Hindi pa ako ready! Hindi pa!
"Cejay..." kinilabutan ako. Ayoko pa! Binabawi ko na!
"Humarap ka sa'kin," napapihit ako paharap sa kanya when he turned me around. He has this worried face. "You're nervous. I think you are not still ready."
Natigilan ako saglit. Hindi pa nga ba ako ready? Pero sayang ito. I must grab this chance. Kung mawawala ito, parang sinabi ko na rin na ayokong magkaroon ng anak ASAP. "I'm ready! Please ituloy natin ito. Desperado na ako!" hinawakan ko ang dalawang kamay niya. I saw him as if he was backing away. "No. No. No, Fireus. Please. Ready na talaga ako," totoo. Handa na talaga ako. But nagda-dalawang isip pa. Pero gusto ko itong matuloy. "Fireus-"
I paused when he cupped my face. "We'll take this slowly. Okay?" tumango ako at dahil doon, naka-relax ako. His voice was like a soothing music that calms my heart. Pakiramdam ko ligtas ako sa kanya. Ewan ko kung saang ligtas. Basta ligtas.
Bumaba ang mga kamay niya papunta sa butones ng damit ko and he started to unbutton it. I heaved a sigh as he already unbuttoned my shirt. Slowly, he helped me to undress my top. Ngayon, half-naked na ako with my bra that I was still wearing. Kaya mo 'to. Kaya mo 'to. 'Wag kang kabahan, please. Tumingin ako mismo sa mga mata niya. His eyes stayed at my breasts tsaka siya tumingin siya sa mga mata ko. He took my hand with his and brought it to his lips.
Kaagad akong nakaramdam ng kilabot ng sinimulan niyang halikan ang likod ng palad ko. Good, Lord! What was he doing? Bakit parang may epekto ang ginagawa niya ngayon? He awakens something in me again.
His lips kisses my knuckles and went its way up to my arm and to my bare shoulder. Ramdam na ramdam ko ang goosebumps mula ulo hanggang paa dahil sa ginagawa niya. And his lips landed on my neck, kissing it. "Fire..." a moan escaped from my lips at natigilan ako. Talaga bang umungol ako?
"You're so hot," kinilabutan ako sa pagbulong ni Fireus. At nagtapat ang mga mukha namin. "Hahalikan kita, okay lang ba?" he asked softly. Nang tumango ako, he closed the distance and he kissed me on my lips. Sa una, hindi ako gumalaw at naga-adjust pa ako sa malambot niyang labi which drowns me into a deep ocean.
I started to move my lips which earned him a groan and he encircled his arms into my waist. Nahigit ko ang hininga ko at kinapit ko ang mga braso ko sa leeg niya. He deepened the kiss. Katulad kanina na naghalikan kami, bigla akong naliyo sa mga halik niya. Ramdam na ramdam ko ang paggapang ng mga kamay niya sa ibat ibang parte ng katawan ko. Geez! I was like a hot pan right now and Fireus was a fire like his name. The sensation came up and his hand giving a soft squeeze on my breasts. I moaned as my hand going its way to his shirt. Ipinasok ko ang kamay ko sa loob at pinanggigilan ang six-pack abs niya at pati ang dibdib niya.
Mas lalo lang niya akong hinapit sa kanya. And I could feel his bulging member in my tummy. Napasinghap pa ako dahil doon. Sobrang tigas kasi. He unclasped my bra and his hands teasing my hardened n****e. I moaned. Kumapit ako sa kanya. Bumaba ang bibig niya papunta sa dibdib ko. He kissed my breasts at kinilabutan ako.
I gasped when I felt his warm hands in between of my thighs. Kaagad nag-init ang katawan ko at hindi ko napigilan na sabunutan siya. When he laid me on bed, he was on top of me, kissing my breasts down to my tummy. I caught my breath when he removed my pants and also the garment that was covering my woman part. Nabahidan ako ng hiya, so I covered my woman part with my hands.
"Don't. Let me look at you," he removed my hands. Tiningnan ko ang mga mata niya. His eyes covered with desire, lust and hunger. Ngayon ko lang nakita ang ganyang expressions niya.
"You're not fully naked," nagulat na lang ako sa sinabi ko. Tinakpan ko ang mukha ko using my hands as I spread in my legs nang nagsimula siyang tumawa ng marahan. Grabe! Nakakahiya. Why did I say that?
"Wag mo ngang takpan ang mukha mo. I can't see your beautiful face."
"It humiliates me doon sa sinabi ko," gosh! I couldn't believe to myself na sinabi ko 'yon. Maybe, I should stop reading erotic books.
"Look at me," he removed my hands from my face. I stared to his eyes. He has his all smile. "Maghuhubad na ako. At gusto ko, you'll have to undress me."
"Ako?" Bakit ako? Does it mean na mahahawakan ko ang mga abs niya? Panggigigilan ko? Is that a bad idea or... good idea?
"Yes, ikaw nga. Sino pa ba ang tinutukoy ko?" Pinaupo niya ako. Then he stood up and he helped me to stand. He took my hands with his and taught me how will I undress him. Dahan-dahan kong inalis ang pagkakabutones ng polo shirt niya. And I have this push na I should touch him and I did. Pinaglakbay ko ang palad ko sa dibdib niya down to his abs. They were all well-built. Nakakagigil naman. I unbuckled his belt. At ilang beses na akong napapalunok. How does his thing look like? Is it like a sausage? A hotdog? How long is it? Seven inches ba? Eight? Ten? Napalunok ako. I could see in his pants, his already bulging thing. Paano pa kaya kapag tinanggal ko na ang pagkaka-zipper ng pantalon niya?
I gasped when I pulled down his pants and also his brief. His thing sprung free, already alive and pulsating. "I-It's big!" bulalas ko. Bakit parang galit? If I touch that, would it be more mad than what I'm expecting?
Tumingin ako sa kanya nang tumawa siya then slowly, he laid me on the bed. "Yes. And it only aches for you. You awake him," seryosong sabi niya but with a mix of amusement expressing in his eyes.
Napalunok ako. Tinatakot ba niya ako? Kung tinatakot niya ako, well, that's great! Natatakot na ako! Hindi sa kanya kung hindi doon sa ano niya... doon sa ano niya... basta 'yong sa ano niya! Ayokong banggitin!
I was about to speak when I gasped. His lips landed on my lips and began to kiss me.
Kaagad akong tumugon sa halik niya at kumapit pa ako sa leeg niya. His kiss deepened. "Fire.." I shut my eyes tightly. I moaned! Umungol ako! Bakit?!
"That's right. Whisper my name, Cejay. Scream it if you want," bulong niya sa akin. Nagsimula pang gumapang ang kamay niya sa dibdib ko at pinaglaruan ang isang dibdib ko.
I was grasping for air. I felt the heat coming from me while his lips was busy wandering my neck. Oh my! I never ever felt this before! Para akong nasusunog sa ginagawa ni Fireus! I dug my nails in his back when he started entering in my entrance. His rugged breathe fanning in my face then he lowered down to kiss and play my n*****s.
"Oh please!" I arched my back as pleasure came rushing through me. s**t! Paano ba nagagawa ni Fireus na gawin sa akin ito? Sa tanang ng buhay ko, ngayon lang ako nakatikim ng ganitong kasarap.
But it changed as he seek for an entrance. "s**t! Fire..." mangiyak-ngiyak na sabi ko as he pushed forward. s**t! s**t! s**t! Masakit! Ayoko na!
Nasa tenga ko na ang bibig niya habang hinahalikan iyon. "Sshh... Don't cry... I'm sorry.." Hinawi niya ang buhok ko na humaharang sa mukha ko as he pecked my lips. I was already crying as he went through. I clung to his shoulder tightly as my breathe was about to consume. I shut my eyes so tight. Ang sakit! Sobrang sakit! Tumigil siya saglit. "Ituloy ko pa?" His voice soothes me kaya tumango ako nang mag-subside ang sakit sa ibaba ko.
Then slowly, he thrusts himself inside of me and still, it hurts. But God only knows how does it hurt. But it slowly fade away when he entered at me. At bumilis ang pag-ibayo niya sa loob ko. His lips captured mine as he entered at me so fast. I moaned so loud. "Fireus!" Naisigaw ko pa ang pangalan niya nang hindi ko nalalaman. I gently grabbed his hair nang mas bumilis pa siya at nakisabay ako sa ritmo niya.
Damn! Damn! Damn! He's so f*****g good! I made the right choice!
We screamed each other's name when we reached the peak. And Fireus collapsed on top of me. I could feel his weight. Ang bigat niya! But's okay with me. Parang ang ganda lang kasi na ibinibigay niya sa akin ang bigat niya. It feels so good. The fact na pareho kaming hingal na hingal. Pero imbes na magrest na siya. His lips was going to my bare shoulder and sucked it.
Napaungol ako sa ginawa niya. "Fireus... ano na namang ginagawa... mo?" I asked. My body was on heat again because of what he is doing. Akala ko ba tapos na?
He chuckled then raised his head to look at me. Bumaba ang ulo niya at hinalikan ang labi ko. Napamura ako. I tasted his lips again. His lips is so addictive. "Sorry. I can't help myself to kiss you. Especially, to pleasure you, of course." His eyes covered in lust and desire. Oh no! Wag mong sabihing...
"M-May round two?" bulalas ko. Fireus smirked. Napatili ako when he rubbed his s*x to mine. Grabe! His s*x is alive and pulsating again! Napasubo yata ako!