CADEN For over an hour, my phone had been vibrating from the center console of my car – the car I keep a tight grip on its wheel. I don't have to look down to know of the whiteness of my knuckles, but f**k if I care. I left the house because it felt like a hole and even right now, far away from the blazing hell that is my home, I think I still have asphyxia. How messed up can everything get? Just the same day I learn about Daisy's, Mad decided to happen. I f****d up a shitload, I f*****g defect myself for the first time. I've officially done something I could never be proud of. Despite all the things my dad had called crap of which I had to drag through the years, there was none that I've ever had to feel this botched up. Drunk or s**t, I have no right to take Mad's virginity. She wo