I was not so sure that I had heard him properly as I gently pulled away from him. Once again my heart started to race, beat faster in its cage. I was kind of expecting something like this but still I was taken aback and it was so evident, I almost cursed myself for not knowing how well to hide it.
The way I reacted to his words made me realize that I was not afraid of s*x like I thought that I was. Especially given how open with my s*x life I had been with Spikes. I hadn't hesitated with him and that opened my eyes to something new.
Maybe I was not so scared of s*x like I thought that I was. It was something more of I was afraid of having s*x with Job. I didnt want to believe it but a part of me felt that if I gave him what he wanted then that would be it. The end would come and I didn't
