Have You Wonder

The Heart Remembers

It was getting dark outside and Enzey was still holding onto my phone while she was waiting for her ex to arrive. I don't know why am I still patiently waiting here when it's pretty obvious that I am out of the picture. I am obviously using my phone as an excuse to buy some time for myself so I won't have to leave her side anytime soon.

After a few more minutes, this familiar dude opens the door and Enzey's face lit up as soon as she recognize him from afar. She used to look at me that way when she hasn't lost her memories. And I admit, I feel like my heart is being struck by a sharp knife seeing her so happy because of another man.

I am used to seeing her wonderful smile every morning when we travel together going to work. She used to wave her hand and smiled brightly at me when we have to go to our separate offices. She used to smile sweetly at me when we walk towards the parking lot while talking about trivial things in our daily lives. So you can't blame me if I feel so bitter to see her acting this way as if there was never an us.

The dude looks so confused with what was going on and he looked around the room. He nodded politely as he noticed Enzey's mom and our eyes met. He looked at me as if asking what was going on and I just slowly shook my head and he wrinkled his brows as if he's annoyed for being clueless.

I looked away from him because I start getting pissed off. Dude, if there's anyone who should be annoyed in this room, it's me and not you.

"Kree." She called his attention while tapping the side of her bed.

I clenched my hand into a fist as I can't help but feel jealous. I can't stand staring at them, acting this way in front of me.

"Luke..." Enzey's mom steals away from my attention from these two.

"Yes, Mrs. Almonte?" I respond quickly.

"Would you mind having dinner with me in the cafeteria? I think my husband will be late tonight." She explained and I just nodded in response.

I slowly close the door as we leave the two behind and I can't but take a glance once again before leaving them in the room alone.

"They will be fine. Trust Enzey if you can't trust the guy." Her mom advised and I just leave with a heavy heart.

While I was looking for a spot for us to eat, her mom went to the vending machine to get some beverages. I smiled while looking at the set of meals that Mrs. Almonte has in her tray. I feel like I am having a meal with Enzey. They share the same taste for everything. It's definitely like a mother-like daughter.

"Why are you smiling like a fool?" She asked and I just shook my head in response.

"You like her that much? Even my food reminds you of her." She asserted and I just looked at her, surprised at her remarks.

Was I too obvious?

"You do. My daughter is such a lucky girl. She was being chased by two great men." She added.

"But I guess she didn't recognize me anymore. I mean, I understand her situation but no matter how hard I try to be more understanding, I can still feel betrayed. I guess fate is not in favor of me." For some reason, I feel like I can openly express myself to her mom like my own.

She taps my hand while giving a motherly smile as she comforts me at the same time.

"I don't know what's going on with my daughter and the guy who just came and between you and her, but one thing's for sure. The heart can always remember what the mind can forget." And that hits me real hard.

I wish I'm the one who was in her heart. Because the last time I knew, she wishes for some space away from me. That's why I get drunk, that's why she came out to pick me up... that's why she was with me when the accident happens...that's why she totally erase the memories of us.

"But what if the memories that remain in her mind are what her heart really shouts for?" I gulped so hard as I imagine that painful scenario.

"Then she must have told you about that. I know my daughter. She may be a life-wanderer but she knew who she wants in her life and who she wasn't. If she really doesn't like you, if you were really not into her heart, she might have pushed you away in a blatant way. If she hates, she hates but she loves you, there's no way she will leave you hanging." Hearing that gives me solace that I badly right now.

Maybe Mrs. Almonte was right. If Enzey didn't want me back, she wouldn't risk going out of her room in the middle of the dawn just to pick up a drunk guy like me. Only the people she values get that much care and attention.

"Thank you, Mrs. Almonte." I smiled warmly as I came up with such a great realization.

"No worries, Hijo."

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Mrs. Almonte went back to Enzey's room when her husband arrives right after we had our dinner. I told them that I'll follow them once I take this call. But as soon as I drop the call, I saw Enzey's ex walking towards me as if he was waiting for me.

"Would you mind going with me to the café?" He asked and I just stare at him blankly. Seriously, dude? A coffee with me?

"I mean, it's for Enzey and her parents. She suddenly craves for sweets. But if you've got something to do, I won't disturb you. It's fine." He added and I just jolted my head as if telling him to lead the way.

We arrived at the café without even looking at each other. It's so awkward that we are buying coffee together so talking like it's nothing is worse.

He was giving his orders and he looked at me as if asking what's mine but I tell the cashier instead.

We both look at the cakes and other desserts displayed in the glass cabinet and we exclaim in unison as we stare in that last piece of blueberry cheesecake.

"I'm sorry, Sir. But that's the only piece we have." The cashier said.

"It's fine. We'll take it." He replied and we sit towards the waiting area as they prepare the coffee we ordered.

"You must have a deeper connection with Enzey knowing you think about her by just staring at the desserts." He snorted.

"A piece of cake can't measure our connection." I blurted.

"I can't fully grasp what's really going on but I think I can guess what's going on with Enzey. And I'm sorry that it ends up to the time where you were out of the picture." He was trying to console me, I feel it with full of sincerity but I can't help but to think that there's a hint of arrogance in that statement.

Despite being a little bit pissed off, I begin explaining things to him and Enzey's current condition. He was kinda shocked that it happens to her when it only happens in movies. He was flabbergasted but he somewhat looks so dejected upon listening to me. I wonder what's going on in his mind right now.

"It was my fault." He mumbled as he kept his head down. He was downhearted upon listening to every detail I explain to him.

"When will she regain her memories back?" He asked.

"The Doctor said maybe soon or maybe it may take longer. But it was advised that letting her get her memories back without any pressure would be better." I replied.

"I feel so guilty for playing like nothing's wrong. I can't imagine how painful it would be for her to realize one day that I was lying all along. That she doesn't want me anymore in her life and all she wants was you." This dude starts overthinking.

"Believe me, dude. If there's anyone who would want to tell everything to Enzey, it was me more than anyone else. But given her condition, I am breathing this toxic atmosphere seeing you two acting so sweet as if she was never hurt by you." I asserted.

"Now, I understand why no matter how hard I tried to shake her heart up, she always runs away from me. Because she found the best guy who can take care of her, someone unlike me. Someone who's far from I used to be." He commented and I couldn't disagree.

I can do whatever it takes just to protect Enzey. Even if it requires seeing her being happy with the man who breaks her heart. I am hoping that she will be reminded of me, in the deepest side of her heart.

"Kree, by the way." Finally, he introduced himself and extended his hand for a shaking hand.

I just looked at it then looked back at the paper bag and coffee in my hands. I guess it's not yet the right time to accept your kindness. I looked at the button in the elevator and he pressed instead.

"Luke." I blurted while we are standing side by side in the elevator.

I may not accept his hands but I can still tell him my name. He has to know so he won't ever forget who took his place when he chose to break Enzey's heart. That name will take care of her heart which he fails to do so. And that name will keep him reminded that Enzey is his biggest regret in life.

So, keep that name in your mind... Kree.