FROM AFAR

LOVING (HIM) FROM AFAR

What is it like to fall in love with someone you can never have?

Is it hard to love someone from a distance?

Those are the questions that are always in my mind whenever I see him.

Engr. Justin Mijares… That one guy I am loving from afar since I don’t even know when.

Ni hindi ko alam kung bakit ko siya gusto. Is it because chasing someone gives me a thrill? Dahil alam kong hinding hindi niya ako magugustuhan kaya siya ang gusto kong makuha?

Hindi ko rin alam.

Ang alam ko lang ay gusto kong mapansin niya ako. Kahit minsan lang. I want him to know that I exist. Even just for once. Kahit isang beses lang. Kahit alam kong imposible dahil may hinahabol at hinihintay din siyang iba.

“Help me. Help me chase him. Help me get his attention. Help me get him…”

Those are the exact words I said to someone out of desperation to get him.

Pero hindi ko alam na ang mga salita rin na ‘yon ang magtutulak sa akin palapit sa kanya.

Siya na walang pakialam sa akin.

Siya na kung hindi ko nilapitan ay hindi ko mapapansin.

Siya na hindi ko type.

Siya na malayong malayo kay Justin.

Siya na nakita ang lahat ng kaya kong gawin para makuha si Justin.

Siya si Mark Corpuz…

He is the nobody, the nonchalant bodyguard of Justin’s brother and the one I fell in love with in the middle of chasing the one I am loving from afar.