Winning Back His Queen

Bothersome Beloved

Chapter 5

Lilith’s pov

Argh, having a beloved can really be one big pain in the a.ss, I thought I had made myself clear the last time I saw him at the crowning ceremony of my sister Cassie. Now he is here again while I am trying to spend quality time with my new niece and nephew.

At the ceremony I had made it clear to him and my wh.ore of a cousin that I didn’t like them, didn’t want to see them, and most definitely didn’t want to speak to either of them. Ezekiel took it better than my cousin, who doesn’t know when to shut the fu.ck up. I still remember the conversation clearly:

“Really Lil, are you going to keep this up, it’s not like it hurt you. Even now, you can’t feel him as your beloved. Just get over it, I am not the first to sleep with him, and I won’t be the last before you turn 18. At this rate, you will be ignoring half the female population in Elysium and the underworld. You aren’t even marked” she sneers at me. Yeah, she really wants me to forgive her she is trying so hard.

“ don’t act the victim, Suzanne, and don’t call me Lil. Why in the hell would I forgive someone who isn’t even sorry?” I say more rhetorical, but she answers.

“Why should I be sorry, I don’t regret it. It was well worth it that man is blessed in bed. Maybe one day you will find out for yourself if you are lucky” she says smugly.

“Oh well then, I guess I can go and fu.ck Bart then, I mean you haven’t accepted him so you are not really beloveds yet. He should get some action, and your bed will be the perfect spot, I suppose” I said, faking that I was pondering over what I had suggested.

“It’s different. We know we are beloveds, and you know he is mine” she says through gritted teeth. Obviously, she doesn’t want certain people to hear us.

“I don’t see how. The whole of Elysium knows he is my beloved. Don’t think I don’t know that you have been trying to sleep with him for a couple of years before you did. I just wonder how you finally managed to change his mind. I mean, you are pretty, but your personality makes you look ugly” I say, walking away as she looks worried about what I said.

I haven’t thought about it much since then, just putting it down to her fear I may seduce her beloved. I mean, she quickly marked him after that conversation, so I obviously managed to unsettle her. I mean, she quickly decided he was worthy of her after stringing him along for months.

Since then, she has avoided me, and I thought Ezekiel was doing the same, but no, he turned up to meet his niece and nephew, apparently. I am not fooled by it. He knows I don’t accept him, but still, he is here claiming rights, and no one has thrown him out yet.

“Lilith stop running off. There is no reason why we can’t be civil and both spend time with our niece and nephew. You can’t ignore me forever” he says.

Yet again when I have went to visit my sister and her babies he is there, he is always there, or wherever I am going to be as if he already knows what I am away to do at any moment.

“I can, and I plan to. Just 5 more days and I will be rid of you for good” I say, trying to walk away.

“I will never accept it, Lilith. I know I have made mistakes in the past, but I have been trying to right them. I have not touched anyone since Raphael’s crowning” he says firmly as if it makes everything right.

“Great, well done, you. I have to say I am so fu.cking impressed that you finally learned how to keep your di.ck in your pants. I suppose I should just fall at your feet” I said as sarcastically as I could muster.

“Fu.ck, that’s not what I meant, and you know it. I know I have a lot to make up for” he says, frustrated,

“No you don’t know, you have no idea what you have put me through. All the comments knocking me down to your friends and lovers. All the times that you laughed at their awful comments about me. You can not tell me you didn’t know I would hear, I am a vampire you know we have enhanced hearing” I shout loosing my temper as he looks at me sadly.

“Then there were the numerous lovers, and were you content with the fact I would know about it as I smelled your scent on them and theirs on you. No, that wasn’t enough for you. You made sure I saw you in the act” I say to him.

I am no longer as upset about it all, angry, disgusted, maybe but not upset. I am too tired and jaded by it all for it to upset me anymore, I have given up on him and us a long time ago.

“I didn’t think you cared. You never looked like it upset you. I hated that you didn’t care at all” he said, upset.

“Just because I didn’t let you and your friends words ruin what confidence I had, or give you the satisfaction of seeing me hurt, doesn’t mean it didn’t affect me, it just means I was too strong to let you break me completely” I say to him bored now.

“I had no idea, I am so sorry, I didn’t even think about you hearing what I said or what I let others say. I was ignorant, and it didn’t even cross my mind you would hear me. I will make up for everything, I promise” he says, almost pleading with me.

“How can you atone when you have no idea what you have done, let me show you” I say coldly.

With more confidence than I feel right now, I walked over to him and put my hand on his head. I sent the spell so that he would see all of my memories of him and feel what I had felt at the time. He falls to the ground in pain and sorrow as I walk away, leaving him with my thoughts.

He would finally see and feel what he had done to me and hopefully would agree there was no point moving forward with so much pain between us. I didn’t even get to see my niece and nephew, I was too exhausted to be around people.

I went back to my room and slept for the rest of the day and night, hoping that when I woke up in the morning, he had decided to leave. I was sadly disappointed when at breakfast he was still here sitting at the table with my family.

One thing had changed, though. He no longer looked at me confidently. He now looked so guilty to even look me directly in the eye. His guilt and shame wasn’t enough to make him leave, though, and I wasn’t sure what else I could do to make him give up on us.

I have never been so grateful for Hades and Claudia as I was that day they arrived. After Hades had a quick chat with him, he left to go back to the underworld. He just stopped by his mum and I as we chatted to say goodbye.

My gratefulness towards Hades was short lived though when I discovered exactly why he was here, and it wasn’t just to see Cassie and the babies, or to get Ezekiel to leave and give me some peace. No, he was here to ask me not to reject his son.

I was extremely hesitant at first to listen, I hated that he knew how I felt and didn’t care enough about me to let me be free. I admit at first I thought it was all to do with his sons future happiness until he told me the real reason.

Yes, he wanted his son happy. There was no doubt about that, and I could tell he hated having to fight for our bond at my expense. I fully understood his reasoning, even if I wasn’t in the least bit happy about the situation I felt forced into.

How could I condemn a whole species just so I could be free of my beloved. His actions should not have been at the expense of his people. I was upset with Ezekiel, and I was also upset at the goddess for putting me in this situation.

It was at moments like this that I envied the shifters. It would be nice to have another version of myself to talk things through with. Someone who would look out for me and help me make the best decisions for our life.

Then Hades gave me the kicker, I was the next Queen of the Underworld even if I didn’t accept Ezekiel. That was thanks again to the moon goddess and her plans for this world. I really felt like she was being very unfair at times. She gave my sister that pr.ick and did this to me.

So I had to rule the people that I may stop from getting to be blessed with meeting and being with the other half of their soul. If I wasn’t able to forgive him, then they would all be damned because of his actions and my inability for forgiveness.

I also had to live in the underworld and get my training, I was pi.ssed about that, I would be stuck there until I mastered the ability to make a portal between their realm and mine. I had to face all the people who saw me as their only hope of a future with the mate bond.

I requested a week after my birthday to spend time with my family and friends and say goodbye to them, without Ezekiel being everywhere I went. He agreed and also said I could bring Regina with me to help settle in.

I was hoping she would come, as things were always tough at her home, and I wouldn’t be able to teleport to her whenever she needed me. I wasn’t even sure if any of my mindlinks would work from there. I also needed to get Crimson to agree to her coming with an unknown time frame of when she would be back.