Our Second Chance

Regrets

Chapter 6

Harris’ pov

I don’t know what to do anymore. The distance between Becca and I is killing both of us. I just don’t understand why she is still so against this. Sam has been great, though. He is the only reason I have gotten through this.

Jax has been a pain in my a.ss. He is worried about Becca, and he thinks this is causing her pain and putting our pup in danger. Even her wolf Tara thinks she should just get used to things and stop complaining about it all.

She is unhappy with Becca as she won’t let her get intimate with Jax and I. Jax won’t let me do anything with Tara in control either, as he doesn’t want me to upset Becca anymore and risk her leaving us.

I don’t think that will happen, I know Becca isn’t happy with the way things are, but she still loves me and I really believe she will get used to it and we will all be happy with each other. I am just glad that Becca’s neglect on herself has not hurt the baby so far.

Her dad is worried that she won’t let him see his grandchild now that she is not speaking to him. He only tried to get her to accept that Sam is my mate, too, so she would get used to it and accept it. It is not like I am expecting everything to be all roses.

I don’t even expect them to share a bed with me, I think that would be far too strange for both of them with them being related. We could work out a rota so they both get as much time with me as the other.

She can not possibly be happy with the lack of intimacy between us. I am only sleeping with Sam so much as she won’t let me touch her. I want to sleep with her as much as I want to sleep with Sam, and I don’t get why she won’t let me touch her.

OK, I maybe should have been more considerate and not tried to sleep with her just after I slept with Sam. His scent on me was like a red rag to a bull. She had such a bad reaction to it. I made sure I showered every time I was with him before I went to her after that.

Did my consideration do any good? Not in the slightest. She was just as bad as she was before. But I still kept on trying to make things easier for her. It didn’t matter what I did she wasn’t prepared to do anything at all to make things better.

I can not even hold her while she sleeps. I tried it once and she woke up completely pi.ssed at me. So, for the sake of our pup, I didn’t do it again. The last thing I want it to stop her for sleeping properly. She is already putting a strain on herself with being so stubborn.

She is still beautiful, but she is no longer the most beautiful woman in the pack. She has lost weight when she should be gaining it. Her beautiful curves have started to flatten out. If it wasn’t for the bond, I am not sure if I would still be attracted enough to her to even want to sleep with her.

Who wants a bag of lifeless bones under them. I feel guilty even thinking that way, but she has done this to herself. It is her inability to change and adapt to the situation that is causing all of our pain. I am just lucky Sam has been so patient.

I could see why I fell in love with Becca for the first time in ages when she came down to Liam’s birthday party. She wore a dress, even slimmer, it enhanced her best features. Her hair was looking glossy again, and she had a glow on her face with the make-up she put on.

I wanted to hold her and dance around the floor with her. Anything just to be near her and try and bring us closer again. I am sure her health would pick up if she just let us be together. It is the distance between us that is having such a bad effect on her.

Like usual, she didn’t want me to touch her. It was confusing because I hadn’t even slept with Sam today. So I drank far too much to try and hide my pain, and I probably got more drunk than I should have.

When Sam asked me to sneak off with him, it sounded like the perfect idea. It is not like Becca will miss me anyway. So I went, and things may have gone too far, but Jax didn’t protest me marking Sam, so I thought he was on my side about it finally.

Our bond got stronger. I was happy that I could feel our bond more, so I stayed the night. I couldn’t leave him tonight, not when we had done something so special together. Becca will just have to accept it now that we are marked, I think, as I fall asleep.

I feel amazing in the morning, and after a session in the shower with Sam, we both go downstairs for breakfast, happy and holding hands. This will show them all that Sam was meant to be mine as much as Becca is.

My dad and brother are downstairs looking at us angrily, and I have no idea what their problem is this time, but I won’t let them spoil my good mood.

“Where is Becca and mum?” I ask, ignoring their grim faces.

“At the hospital, well done, you marked my mate Harris. I am just glad we weren’t marked and mated, or I would be in the hospital with her. Luckily, I am better after some sleep” my brother says, looking like he wants to punch us, I am both worried and confused.

“What is he talking about? Is Becca OK?” I ask, starting to panic.

“Liam felt sparks from Sam last night. Before he could question it, Sam left taking you with him. Rebecca went unconscious when you marked each other, and so did Liam. I don’t know what the hell Sam did to trick you, but we will find out” dad says angrily.

Sam looks as worried and confused as I am, and he runs out the door with me heading towards the hospital. Halfway there, I see Mum helping Becca to walk and see her dad approaching, too. Why on earth is she out of the hospital already if she collapsed.

“Becca get back to the hospital. You are not fit to leave yet. Think of our pup” I say, approaching her as she glares at me with hatred.

“There is no pup. You killed him. My perfect little son could not cope with any more betrayal. I am leaving, I never want to see any of you again” she says, and I feel so much pain in my heart she can’t regect me. I won’t let her.

“Rebecca you can’t possibly blame them for this it is nature, and sometimes it is cruel” he dad says to her.

“Might have known you would still pick him over me, even when he kills my child, you still won’t support me. It is not my fault I look like mum. You don’t deserve me to be your daughter. I reject all family ties with John and Sam Stokes” she says as they grunted in pain.

“I won’t accept your rejection, I am sorry this has happened, but we can have more pups” I say, both upset and angry at her behaviour. All she does is laugh.

“What bond? You broke it when you marked someone who isn’t your mate. It burned off me, we are no longer mates, and Tara is gone, good riddens” she says, showing me her neck that no longer holds my mark.

“I warned you, Harris. I can not stay any longer, I would rather leave you if I can’t have Becca” Jax says to me.

“No Jax you didn’t stop me, so this is your fault too. You need to stay so we can win her back” I demand.

“I couldn’t object after your false mate poisoned me with wolfsbane” he growls before going silent, and I can no longer feel him.

I am on my knees, and I look up at Sam, wondering what is going on and realise that I don’t feel him as my mate anymore. Jax took our mark with him when he left me. He looks so guilty at me and just whispers “sorry” with tears in his eyes.

All the times that Becca pleaded with me to listen to her, all the times she told me how much pain I was putting her through, and I ignored her calling her jealous and making out it was all in her head.

I have caused her and my pup so much pain, and now I have lost them both. I should feel happy that I didn’t end up killing her like I did our pup. Jax told me over and over again that he didn’t feel a bond with Sam, and I ignored him, thinking he was doing it for Becca.

Not only have I destroyed my own mate, but I have broken the bond between my brother and his mate. I was too busy boosting my ego to see the truth, and Sam played on that. I can see the realisation come to John, and he looks like he is going to throw up.

He finally sees that he has lost Becca completely, and he will probably lose his son for his crimes. He knows now how unfair he has been on Becca, and now he can’t make it up to her. Join the club, I am here at rock bottom right with you.