Happiness is an illusion
Chapter 1
Rebecca’s pov
I have had a good life here at the shadow pack, we got our name as all the previous alpha’s had wolves so black that they looked like a shadow moving from the forest, or at least that what we were told growing up anyway.
I had a normal childhood until my mum died in a freak accident. My mum was a dragon, and she was out flying one day when a stray iron bullet hit her, she instantly shifted to her human form and died from the impact, as I said a really freak accident.
After that, my dad was in a bad way and threw himself into his duties as head trainer, even travelling to learn new techniques. I was only 7 at the time, but I looked so much like mum that he had struggled to look at me after that.
He didn’t mistreat me or anything, but if I wasn’t training, then he didn’t have much time for me. My brother, on the other hand, went everywhere with him. He was only 7 months older than me, but we were never really close.
My dad was disappointed when Sam upped and left on the morning of his 18th birthday, just leaving a letter to say he was going travelling and didn’t know when he would be back. Dad started to train me harder in the hope that if he didn’t return, I could take over with my mate.
I did everything I could to prove myself to my father, but all he could do was compare me to Sam. I was just never as good or didn’t listen as well as him. He still wouldn’t look at me for any length of time or spend time with me other than training.
Then my 18th birthday came, and I was both happy and sad on the day. I was happy to have my wolf Tara, but I was sad that my dragon had never surfaced. I think my dad was relieved, though, as it probably would have been too much a reminder of mum.
For the first time in years, he gave me a genuine smile and hugged me as he wished me a happy birthday. It meant more to me than any of the presents I had received. I had been wanting my dad to finally look at me as my own person for years, and it felt like it finally happened.
Then I smelled the most delicious scent ever and looked up to see the future Alpha Harris staring at me with eyes filled with lust. Before I could ever register what was going on, he let out a mighty roar of mate, and I found myself in his arms. The sparks were driving me crazy.
Harris was everything a girl could dream of wanting. At least, that is what I thought at the time. He was tall, strong, had a body to die for, with the looks of a god, soft silky short black hair, and steel grey eyes that looked like they were burrowing into your soul.
I knew that unlike me, he wasn’t a virgin, but he was much more discreet about it than most alpha’s were. It was just rumours, no one wanting to upset him by talking about their night together. Everyone knew he would only be in a relationship with his mate. They would be the only one to be introduced to the pack.
Harris himself was only 19 and unlike most Alpha’s who passed on the pack to their heir when they met their mate his parents thought they should have more time to have fun and grow up before they were thrust into so much responsibility.
I will admit I liked the idea of having longer to train and get used to the idea of my new role in life. I had never thought that one day I would be a luna. Even with the news of my being mated to the alpha didn’t bring my brother home, but I wasn’t surprised because, as I said, we were never close.
My dad was proud that his daughter would one day be luna, and he started to spend more time with me. He was already treated with respect being the head trainer, but now he was their future luna’s father they respected him even more.
Sylvia, the current ruler, was a lovely woman whom I had always had a lot of respect for. She treated me like her daughter and always had time to train and socialise with me. His father Drake was also a good man, and I enjoyed spending time with them both.
Harris was an amazing mate. He was always doing little things to show me how much he loved me, and was very into pda. He wanted everyone to know that I was his. His alpha side made him very territorial even with us already being marked and mated.
Our first time together still made my heart flutter when I thought about it. He was so gentle and considerate as he coaxed my body to reduce the pain when he finally entered me. He went slow, holding on to his control as he gazed lovingly into my eyes. It was perfect.
After that he showed me all the ways he could pleasure me and I could pleasure him. I discovered a whole host of different positions, some that I enjoyed more than others. We had an amazing s*x life and could barely keep our hands off each other.
I was on protection at the start of our relationship, but Harris was desperate to have a family, and his argument that it was better to start now so we were used to being parents by the time we took over sounded reasonable at the time, so I relented.
Once the potion wore off, I went into heat, and after a very fun three days together, all we had to do was wait and see if it was successful. I was just as anxious and excited as Harris was, I had gotten used to the idea and wanted this as much as he did.
Three weeks after my heat we couldn’t wait any longer, I wasn’t having any symptoms of being pregnant yet but that didn’t mean anything, some women are lucky and didn’t get symptoms in the early stages of pregnancy.
We eagerly waited in the doctors office as he waited for the urine and blood results. I knew by the smile that appeared on his face that I was pregnant before he said anything. His face was far too happy for it to not be good news.
Harris was over the moon when he finally told us we were expecting. The doctor gave us a scan and confirmed we were 3 weeks pregnant. It just looked like a blob on the screen it was so tiny, and I was relieved to hear both the baby and I were healthy.
Our parents were just as happy, looking forward to welcoming their first grandchild. It was like my dad was given a new lease on life, and I knew he would smother our little one with all the love he wasn’t able to give me growing up.
Harris was so excited he threw a party for the whole pack just so he could celebrate our news with everyone, and he thanked me daily for giving him everything he had ever wished for in his life.
I thought things would just keep on getting better, I couldn’t think of one thing that could destroy our happiness together. Harris was the perfect mate, and in my heart, I knew he would be an even better father to our child.
At the time, I hadn’t realised just how naive I was or how easily the illusion of happiness could be shattered. How easily everything that I had and dreamed I would have in the future could be torn so cruelly away from me.
I didn’t think that the people who were supposed to love, the ones who I should be able to trust to protect me and be on my side would be the very ones who would tear my heart out and leave a gaping hole in its place.
The beginning of the end came when I was just 5 weeks pregnant, with the return of the prodigal son. My dad had been so excited when he heard news that Sam was coming home. Although we weren’t close, I was happy to have him back in time for his niece or nephew arriving.
What happened instead of the warm happy reunion was my brother coming back and declaring Harris as his mate. Dad was happy about it, both his children were mated to the future alpha, but Sylvia looked like she didn’t believe a thing, especially when they kissed, and I grunted in pain.
If he was truly his mate, then surely I wouldn’t be in pain, and wouldn’t feel so betrayed by the action. Harris was too caught up in the excitement that he didn’t even notice my discomfort or upset about the whole thing. I didn’t even realise he was bisexual, not that it would have been a problem to me. Little did I know. Apparently, I don’t know my mate as much as I thought I did.