Our Second Chance

Going to sh.it

Chapter 4

Rebecca’s pov

It has been two months since Sam appeared and completely blew up my life. I have been miserable ever since. I know he is not Harris’ mate, and I don’t understand why he would do this to his own family even if he had feelings for Harris, I would never even do do this to an enemy, let alone my own family.

The worst thing is that Harris just thinks that I am making things harder than they have to be. Even if I know each time they are intimate because I feel it. I haven’t let him touch me since the first time he did more than kiss him, and I ended up in the hospital.

Because they were so tactile with each other all the time, I was finding it even harder to keep my food down. I had to be given nutrients and fluid through a drip to keep me and the pup healthy. I was doing everything I could to protect my pup, and I was failing.

Even my illness was turned against me as Harris thought I was just so jealous that I was neglecting myself and our child. That hurt me more than the pains of his physical betrayals with my own brother.

I knew that Jax didn’t agree with Harris. He not only spoke to Tara but also directly to me as he apologised for his human. He was terrified that I would have enough and I would reject him, which I was so close to doing.

My wolf wasn’t helping at all. She blamed me for not being enough to keep the human interested in us as she had, in her opinion, done the job with his wolf. All she did was berate me. She did nothing to protect us and even went as far as to say that I should just accept Sam being with him to make him happy and stop whining about the pain.

I barely spoke to her now, and even Jax was annoyed at the way she was acting towards me. It was a strange situation to be in. Your wolf is supposed to protect and support you first and foremost. They only usually lash out if you don’t want your mate, and they do.

I had wanted Harris and I had been completely in love with him until he broke us, but Tara was so delusional that she saw me as the problem. She didn’t even listen to Jax’s protests that the only people at fault here were Harris and Sam.

She was so scared to lose our mate that she was willing to share him and also to throw me under the bus as well if it benefited her. She didn’t even worry about our pup as much as I did, blaming me for any complications.

My dad was just as bad. As soon as Sam was back and he said he was Harris’ mate, Sam was all that dad could see. He even apologised in the most backhanded way as he chastised me at the same time.

“I know I wasn’t the best dad to you, but don’t take it out on Sam. I know you are jealous of our relationship, and now you are letting that affect your health and your mate bond. Grow up and learn to share. You are going to be a luna for goddess sake” he shouted at me.

“Mum would be so ashamed of you” was all I replied to him, it has been a month since then, and I had not spoken to him since.

It was only a week until the scan where we found out the s.ex of our child. It should be our most happiest moments of our mated life, but it was far from that. Harris came to our room each night stinking of my brother, and I couldn’t bear to have him near me.

I am sure Jax was the only reason that he even bothered to come back to me to sleep at all. At least he now showered before getting into bed. After I went and slept in another room the first time, he had showered since then.

I still don’t let him touch me, I feel sick every time he tries to hold me through the night. So now he just lays there as close as he can without touching me. It keeps both Jax and Tara happy and keeps the weakened bond active.

Any time I see Harris, I can see the longing in his eyes, but I no longer care he has hurt me too much now. It is as if he thinks I am a liar. He has no trust in my words, Dad and Sam have convinced him that I am being petty and jealous, and it is enough to ease any guilt he has.

His mum and dad have been my only support. They are not convinced about the extra mate bond, but no one has any proof it is not true. Although I know that Raquel and her mates felt no pain when the other was intimate without them. I know because I spoke to her with Sylvia.

We also know that they few occasions that twins have been mated to one person, there is no record of pain. Again, though, it just may not be recorded, and at the moment, there are no twins mated to the one person, so there is no proof again.

Sylvia tried to talk to Harris about what Raquel said, but he just thought I had manipulated his mother. Greg and Karl, his future beta and gamma were on his side, but I did notice Karl giving me sympathetic looks every now and again.

He never said to me or anyone else that he didn’t believe Sam or Harris, but his eyes every now and again told me the truth. How can this man ever be my gamma if all he cares about is backing his friend and future Alpha, what hope does the pack have if his most trusted men can not speak up when he does something wrong.

You would think people would have learned from the disaster that happened in the east dragon kingdom a few years ago. Everyone knows that the future beta and gamma were sent out to train and learn not to be lap dogs to their king.

I am done with it all now, I no longer trust Harris or our future ranked members, so I can not stay here any longer. If it wasn’t for the fact that Liam, Harris’ little brother turns 18 today, I would be doing it right now, but he doesn’t deserve for our sh.it to ruin his special day.

So tomorrow, first thing I will finally reject my no good mate and make my way to my grandparents in the dragon kingdom. Dad can no longer force me to stay here as I am an adult now, Sam can have Harris if he wants him so badly.

All I care about is my pup and I know that rejecting the bas.tard won’t kill our child, but I am sure if I stay connected to him much longer then I know I won’t be able to carry my child to term. I will do what I can to make sure that won’t happen.

I try to look my best and keep a smile on my face. Liam loves me, and he hates seeing me in pain because of his brother. They have also drifted apart since Sam’s arrival. He dared to say his opinion to Harris, and Harris has been upset with him ever since.

He has been more of a brother to me in the time I have been mated to Harris than Sam ever was, no matter how much he tried to act the part. I was so deprived of familial love that I took whatever Sam gave me gratefully. I know better now.

The party is going well so far. Dad tried to approach me at one point, and I just turned around and went to Sylvia. It was a big enough hint to him that I didn’t want to talk that he backed off and headed to Sam so he wasn’t embarrassed.

Everyone in the pack is talking about it anyway. They all knew Sam was the favourite, so no one is surprised he took his side. The pack is split on our strange relationship. Half believe I am jealous of my brother, and the other half believes me and is angry at Harris and Sam.

Our pack members can see the strain it is putting on me and my pregnancy. They also feel unsettled that the relationship between their future Alpha and luna is strained. No one will speak up as they are too scared to upset their future Alpha even at the expense of their future luna.

It won’t matter for much longer, I will leave tomorrow after I reject Harris for good. Sylvia knows, and she supports me. She doesn’t want her grandchild to die because her son is a fool. She has been the one that sat with me at the hospital each time as Harris was too busy with Sam.

Tara has stopped speaking to me. She says she will leave if I reject Harris, but I no longer care about her opinion. I would be better off without her right now. I would much rather just be a simple human than to have a snake like Tara looking out for me.

The first thing I notice that is strange during the night is Liam looking at my brother confused as if something happened as they touched. He is like that for the next half an hour as he discusses whatever it is with his mum.

The second thing is that both Harris and my brother sneak off at some point. Then, it starts the pain as if my heart is being torn out of my chest. I sit quickly, but it just gets worse, and all I feel is my mark burning and screams in the distance as everything goes black.