The Alpha’s Forgotten Mate

02: A Friend In A Sister In Law

Rose’s POV

It’s been a week since Xander told me that Harper was carrying his child and I still haven’t brought myself to make peace with it.

I thought he loved me, No, I was sure he loved me. He showed me just how much he loved me, he consoled me whenever I cried about being unable to give him a child.

He was always there for me whenever I wanted to give up. He assured me that we were going to get pregnant and if I’m not able to carry his child, we could opt for another option.

Maybe I should be happy for him, I should be happy that he’s finally going to have a child even though it wasn’t coming from me.

Clutching my chest as I tried to keep myself busy with the pack duties, being the Luna, I had a lot of responsibilities but I knew I was falling behind.

I couldn’t concentrate and most of the time, I would be lost in thoughts instead of working. And just like every other day, I’m crying like a little child.

Why does it have to be this way? Why do things have to turn out like this?

Wiping my tears off, I sniffled as I placed my head on the table in my bedroom and stared at my empty bed.

It’s been a week since I last slept on it, it’s been a week since I actually last slept well. Yawning, I closed my eyes in an attempt to sleep but I couldn’t.

The more I tried to sleep, the harder it became and the louder Xander’s voice rang in my head, telling me that someone else was carrying his baby.

I’ve tried my best to avoid Xander, I had my breakfast, lunch and dinner in my room and I only took a stroll when I’m sure he’s out with the other woman, Harper.

My eyes fluttered open and the idea of trying to sleep became a total failure. Pushing the thoughts of Xander, the baby and Harper to the deepest, darkest part of my mind, I decided to work.

“Rose?” A feminine voice called my name followed by the sound of a knock on my door, I didn’t need a soothsayer to tell me who it was already.

“Go away, Olivia, I’m really not in the mood to talk right now.” I called back as I tried to keep my eyes and mind fixed on the papers on my table.

I should have known better, this is Olivia, my best friend, also Xander’s sister and she doesn’t take No for an answer.

Regardless of the fact that I’d clearly told her that I wasn’t in the mood to talk to anyone, Olivia made her way into my room, totally ignoring me.

“I’ve given you more than enough time to lock yourself up in your room and cry and wallow in self pity, it’s now my turn to swoop in.” She smiled as she stood in front of me.

I knew that her presence here would definitely break the walls I’ve built, having Olivia here would make me vulnerable and that’s one thing I can’t afford to be.

I can’t afford to be vulnerable, I have tons of responsibilities and a lot of people rely on me, regardless of what’s going on in my personal life; I can’t ignore my duties.

“You do know that you can’t keep mute for the rest of your life.” Olivia said when I didn’t say anything or even acknowledge.

“I’m busy right now, Olivia, you can come back when I’m less busy.” I said coldly in hopes that she was really going to leave but she didn’t.

“You can keep trying to push me away because of what my brother did but that doesn’t mean I’ll actually go, Olivia.” She said softly.

Her words were getting to me, tears had already started welling up in my eyes and my fingers were finding it hard to hold onto my pen.

“How are you?” She asked and my throat went dry at once. I knew what she meant when she asked that question so I know I can’t give the usual answer.

I’m not fine, she’s not blind, she can see that. She can see that I’m breaking, I’m withering away and it hurts so much.

It hurts so much that I don’t want to be alive but I also don’t have what it takes to be suicidal. Olivia’s palm covered my hand and I lifted my tear filled gaze to look at her.

“I’m dying,” I confessed, my lips quivering as I spoke and she hugged me, further opening up the floodgate of tears.

“It hurts so much,” I cried, all the pain and anguish that I’ve tried to keep bottled up finally pouring out of my eyes in the shape of my tears.

“Xander got someone else pregnant,” I added when Olivia pulled away from me as she walked me to the bed and we both sat on it.

“It hurts to think about it,” I cried, my resolve shattering and every ounce of strength I thought I’d mustered came crashing down.

“It hurts to sleep on this bed without having nightmares of Xander and that woman. Being in this room hurts, Being in this house hurts even more.”

“And KNOWING THAT NO MATTER WHAT, I CAN’T HAVE A CHILD HURTS EVEN MORE!” I wailed as I held onto my best friend.

Olivia has always been a good listener so I wasn’t surprised when she didn’t say anything and just listened to me vent to her.

I’ve loved Xander all my life and it hurts to know that I was losing him because of my inability to have a child.

I’ve dedicated all that I had to him, I gave him my life, my all and all I ever wanted was the assurance that he would always love me.

I thought I had that assurance but I was wrong. I was so wrong because now I can’t even look at him without hate boiling at the pit of my stomach.

I can’t think of him without picturing his face and his betrayal in my head and I can’t lay on the bed without thinking about how he had f****d and impregnated that woman.

Where did I go wrong? What did I do wrong to be punished in such a cruel manner?

My gaze lifted and I saw Olivia staring at me with pity written all over her face, I knew she was conflicted as to whose side to take.

She might be my best friend but she was first Xander’s sister and blood is thicker than whatever bond I might share with her now.

“I need to be alone, Liv.” I sniffled as I peeled away from him and she nodded in understanding. I watched as Olivia walked out of my room and shut the door behind her.

Finally bringing myself to lay on the bed, I wiped my tears and curled up like a wet cat for a while as tons of memories flooded me.

Shaking my head, I sprung to my feet and decided to continue my work where I’d left off but the door opened and I was taken aback at the sight of who it was.

“What are you doing here?” I asked coldly with my head held high and my heart hardened so I wouldn’t be easily swayed by him.

“We need to talk.” Xander said and I knew I wanted to say something to that but I couldn’t help but laugh at him, taking him by surprise.

“Oh, Xander,” I smiled as I closed the gap between us and looked deep into his eyes before following up with, “I honestly don’t have anything to say to you.”