Love out of Hate

Chapter 14

Lana's POV

I am completely lost in the feeling of him between my legs. I've completely given into my desires at this point and there is no turning back. The way he works his mouth and tongue has me moaning and panting like my life depends on it. I feel the build up growing as my body responds hungry to his movements. He senses how close I am and holds my thighs down tight, making it, so I can't squirm away. My fingers grab his hair as the orgasm racks my body. I arch and moan loudly, and his hand moves up to my stomach to hold me securely to the bed as he finishes getting every drop of me. Once he's satisfied with that, he crawls up my body, looking deep into my eyes. I saw the darkness of his dilated pupils against his deep blue eyes, making my breath catch. He seemed to hesitate and question whether he should proceed. I grabbed his hips and pulled him closer to me. Please, Grayson, I need this. I pleaded with him.

It was like something snapped in him, and he lost his last ounce of control at my words. He pulled off his gym shorts and my eyes widened at the sight of him. "Like what you see?" His voice came out husky and raspy. "Yes" I all but whispered. He was definitely larger than average and wider than average too, but that only seemed to excite me more. He smirked as he took off my top and his eyes roamed over my body. "Gorgeous" he said, "you are absolutely gorgeous." His statement made my heart flutter as I saw the look in his eyes, more than lust. His mouth found my neck as he sucked and nipped at my sensitive spot, making me arch and moan, begging for more. "I've wanted to do this the moment I laid eyes on you" he rasped out huskily as he left marks all over my neck. He pulled back and kissed me again, deep and hungry. Fighting for dominance and winning, as I was becoming more of a puddle under him. He positioned himself and double-checked I was ready. I nodded. Not wanting to wait anymore, he pushed into me. "f**k" he hissed "you feel so god-damn good." My hand grabbed onto his back as I took all of him in, holding him for a moment, adjusting to his size. I start to move my hips and he follows. The fact that he completely filled me nearly brought me to the brink. Our movements moved faster, both of us needing the release and pushing faster to get there. He was back on my neck and I moved my head, giving him better access, "you taste so good Lana". He breathed against my neck.

Our movements became more frantic as we both climbed higher, the room filled with our heavy breathing and moans. "c*m for me Lana, I can't hold on much longer, I need to feel you release around me." His mouth found the spot on my neck again, making me shudder and tremble as my orgasm racked through me causing me to scream out his name and my nails dug into his back. "f**k" he moaned as his orgasm followed. He placed his forehead on mine while his panting tried to regain itself. I don't know what took over me, but my mouth slammed into his once more, needing to feel his lips against mine. He moaned into my mouth as he returned the kiss. He pulls out and walks to my bathroom, grabbing a warm washcloth and a towel and returns to me to clean me up. "Oh your one for after care", I let out a chuckle. He smirks and shakes his head. "Of course I am a gentleman after all. Are you okay?" He looked at me with worry in his eyes, which I knew was more than from the stretching he gave me, but emotional. I nod "I'm okay", I smiled. "To be honest, I had been pushing this down for a while. It was only a matter of time before I exploded." He looked me in my eyes, holding my gaze. "Really?" He seemed almost shocked. "Yeah, I mean I know its shocking, especially with our past, but it's true. After the block party, after we kissed, the desire just continued to grow."

He sighs "Lana, I really am sorry, I am so sorry about what I did, what I took from you. If I could go back and change the past, I would. Each life I have taken eats away at me. I'm plagued by their screams in my nightmares. I remember each one. Now knowing you and your family, it hurts so much more knowing how much pain it caused you and your kids." My hands found his cheeks "Grayson, shh, I get it, I know. I can see the pain and regret in your eyes. I don't regret what we just did, okay?" He let out a breath. I don't think he even knew he was holding and his shoulder slumped. "Come here". I motioned for him to lay next to me in bed. I crawled under the covers and pulled me close, burying his face in my hair. "I'm sorry" he kept saying over and over. My arms wrapped around him. "I know Gray I know", I said, running my hands along his back to soothe him. I moved up slightly, putting him against my chest, and I placed my chin on top of his head. He snuggled into my chest and I could feel the tears fall from his eyes. I ran my hands through his hair over and over to soothe him. I didn't say anything, knowing we both needed the silence and a small comforting gesture. I started to feel his body relax and his breathing even out. Eventually, his body goes slack against me. I adjust him, so I am more comfortable and close my eyes. Dammit Lana, I thought to myself, what the hell are you doing? You can't fall for him. Although deep down I already know I have.